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ᑭᕼYᗩ TᗩYᑌᑌᑎ ([personal profile] moonsblessed) wrote in [community profile] synthneon2023-06-11 04:58 pm

au au || ❝ our fate so darkly romantic, i will never leave your side. ❞

tba

AU PLOTLINE

when i thought that i fought this war alone,
we were one with our destinies entwined
when i thought that i fought without a cause,
you gave me the reason why...
CODE BY TESSISAMESS
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-06-12 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
[ Being alone is something Aymeric de Borel knows quite well. He knows it almost as well as he knows loss, as he like so many others have lost so much in a very short period of time. Ishgard, a once proud city-state, is in ruins and her people are scattered to wherever they might find shelter and relative safety. Families have been separated, permanently in some cases and hopefully temporary in others. Aymeric's own situation is one of permanence, as far as he knows. Oh, there is the possibility of a reunion in another lifetime, but that has been of little consolation to him.

Not even the knowledge that he remains the lord of this small town is enough to stir the resolve that he once had. He is all too aware that the people that call this town home still look to him as their lord, but he cannot bring himself to join them, not even to fulfill his duties and his responsibilities.

Instead, he has withdrawn, sealing himself off from the town and the world, hoping and wishing that he could simply disappear. What is the purpose of it all, when he has lost nearly everything? He himself would say he has lost everything, as he has no family, and what people who might have been called his friends have long since departed, he is certain of it. And beyond servants and acquaintances, there is one in particular who is very far beyond his reach, because of a failure on his part to protect her.

None has ventured to ask him to speak about her, nor even ventured to speak to him at all, and he would not speak of it even if they did. He spoke many words to the empty walls around him, but no answers ever came, and so as time passed (weeks? months? it hardly mattered to him), he stopped speaking at all.

That is, until one day, someone finally made the long climb to the nearly empty manor. Not that Aymeric realized it or paid any attention to anything occurring outside his lonely room. There was no point, he knew. If anyone had bothered to approach, they would be turned away by the barrier at the door. If he stirred from his room, he might find their footprints in the snow, or they would be blown away by the wind or another snowfall, leaving him none the wiser. It hardly mattered to him.

But this time, something is different. Nothing about Aymeric's routine, if it can be called that, has altered. He is sitting upright, quite a feat considering his present condition, but he is unmoving and just as silent as ever, when the knock at the barrier sounds.

Whoever has come will surely leave, and so he does not move or speak. Even when the pacing of the knocks changes and increases in apparent desperation, he still does not move. There is the slightest bit of recognition tingling in the back of his mind, but he refuses to pay it any mind. Why get his hopes up, when he has become resigned to simply waiting here as the years continue to roll on by?

Instead, he remains where he sits, but this time, there is a little more rigidity to his posture than there was previously, although still he does not look nor turn. If, as before, whoever has come has done so to stare, they will leave in no time at all. ]
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-06-12 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ He knew he was in no condition to sit up for any great period of time, and the act of moving into that position took more of a toll than he cares to admit. But the very last thing he wanted was for anyone to observe his weakened state, brought on by his hurts and by his overall neglect of his own well-being. But there seems to be nothing he can do, as against his will, he finds himself beginning to lean over, threatening to fall back down onto the bed.

He tries to prevent such a thing by placing his weight upon his hand, that he might lean against that instead of falling to the bed, but his progress is halted by that very thing, but also by someone's arms wrapping around his frame. He very nearly freezes in place, because it has been so long since he felt another's touch and what it truly felt like.

It takes a moment or two for her words to sink in, as he has focused not on what she says but the sound of her voice and the feel of her arms around him. Why- Who is she? How do I know her...? His eyebrows furrow together as he tries to grasp hold of memories that seem to have been filed far away from his recollections. I know her... We've met before. He recognizes her, not with his eyes, but with how he feels, and with how she feels.

But no sooner does it occur to him that she is the one he lost then another thought, stronger than the others, bursts in, and if not for his weakness, he would pull away from her. I failed her. I was not able to save her.

Suddenly, a great weight settles upon him as the feelings of loss and failure sweep over him, and he lowers his head wordlessly. If he did not need his hands to prop himself up, he would lower his head into his hands, but he settles for what he has already done.

I- I'm sorry I'm not stronger. He feels that he needs to be stronger now to make up for failing her before, and that she has nothing to make up for, when the failure rests with him. The emotions threatening to overflow in spite of the resolve he has had all this time to keep everyone and everything pushed away have become so strong and so suddenly that the effort to contain them causes his hands to begin to shake. ]
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-06-12 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh, he wishes that he could force his voice to work. There is so much that he wants to say but can hardly find the words and the strength to say it. He knows he has been lying here in this house alone waiting for something to happen, either his own recovery or passing, but he never could have anticipated her returning in the way that she has.

And perhaps it is only his fogged mind telling him that this is the woman he loves, even if she does not look the way he remembers. But perhaps he does not need to see her, not when he remembers her soul.

I waited, hoping you would return. With the way they are positioned, she may not be able to see the look in his eyes, but there is a look of desperation there: a look suggesting a need to believe that she has finally come back. If she has returned to him, then he can finally begin fixing the mistakes that he knows he made, starting with failing to protect her.

His mouth moves as though he wants to try and speak, but his wounds have drained his strength, and when she moves him, he presents no resistance, allowing her to position him however she wishes. Had she been anyone else, he would have forced himself to turn away, or to push away her hands. If he returned to the aetherial sea, then perhaps he would have found the one he lost. But now that she is here, somewhere in his muddled thoughts, he knows he wants to live.

But can he, when he has taken so many wounds and left all of them uncared for? The wounds are barely healed at all, so a part of him would not be surprised if it was too late.

She asks if she might start, and by way of answer, he slowly raises his hand as if searching for someone that is lost. ]


Lantaa... Where- Where are you? [ The name slips from him as his awareness seems to slip between moments of being lucid and being confused. But just as soon as he asks the question, a bit of the fog seems to lift, and he manages the slowest of nods, recognizing that she is still Lantaa, and that she wants to help him. If there is even the smallest of chances that he might recover with her assistance, he wants to take that chance. ]
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-06-13 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ His fingers curl against hers, and he curses inwardly that his grip is so weak. If he had the strength, he would hold onto her hand as tightly as he could, and if only his voice would allow it, he would tell her how happy he is that she has found him after all this time. It matters little to him that she has changed in appearance; she is still herself, and he loves her.

But as he can do neither of those things, he tries to work harder to force his fingers to curl further against hers. The discomfort he feels from his lingering wounds does not matter. The only thing that matters now is her. He does not wish to succumb to his injuries, not now, but he would tolerate the discomfort from his untreated wounds if it meant having her with him once more.

He dimly registers her surveying his wounds, knowing that she must be wondering at his condition and at the state of his aether. A dim memory surfaces, reminding him that she could "see" the aether of another, and she must be doing that once more. What will she see? He can only begin to imagine, but it must be a rather confusing picture.

Then she asks him when he last ate, and he manages to shake his head from side to side just once. The motion enough is not enough, however, and he forces out the briefest of answer, said with a hoarse voice and all. ]
I- I have not... [ His words trail off, although he intended to say more, but that will have to be answer enough. It has been a considerable period of time since he last consumed anything, even though doing so would have sped up his recovery. He felt no desire to do so, as there seemed to be little point in prolonging his life. Until now, that is.

She tells him that it may hurt, but he knows that nothing could possibly hurt as much as losing her did. And aside from that, there is a part of him that believes he deserves to be in this state, and deserves to be hurt as payment for failing in his chief responsibility: protecting her.

With those thoughts in mind, he manages to incline his head just once to indicate that he is ready, whenever she chooses to begin. If it is uncomfortable or even if it hurts, he will simply have to take it without complaint. It sinks in a moment later that she started to call him something, something indicating a sort of possession. What was it that she used to call me...? He knows that they had names for each other, but he cannot seem to remember them now. But if she is looking closely enough, she may notice his eyes lighting up just briefly with recognition. ]
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-06-13 05:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[ If words fail, looks and gestures will have to be enough for now, although he wishes that were not the case. But that does give him a goal to strive for: to recover and become strong again so that he might speak with her properly. But his barely healed wounds prevent him from moving very much at all, his earlier attempt to sit up aside. If he could, he would lean further into her touch, but all he manages to achieve is a light brush of his arm against her cheek.

At her statement of his needing to eat, the look in his eyes shifts again, and while he is not wholly opposed to feeding from her (he has missed it, in fact), something causes him to hesitate. ]
There are rats, in the woods. [ The statement on its own might seem odd, but if she remembers who and what he is, she should understand.

But she begins rubbing his arm once more, and the slight tension that was forming in his shoulders fades, replaced by a feeling of contentment. He maintained that he needed no one's care, but she is not no one.

Even if the process of healing causes him to hurt, he intends to take it without complaint. Considering that he has had moments of wishing to simply pass quietly, letting another take his place as this town's lord, it might seem strange that he is not protesting her efforts to heal. But now there is a reason for him to remain.

His eyes slide closed as she begins weaving his aether to stop the bleeding. It is a strange sensation, feeling the tugging and weaving as she works with his aether. But he still remains silent, letting her do her work. Only when she stops and begins to speak again does he open his eyes once more.

Now they have arrived at the point of needing to actually heal his wounds, and this is when he imagines the discomfort will increase. The dragons he fought with and lost against were fierce with their fangs and talons, and he knows she can see the proof of it in the wounds he has taken.

But if it must be done, then he will simply do his best to bear it. Again his head inclines slightly, and he manages a single word: ]


Yes. [ He trusts that she knows what to do and will do it well, so he has no reason to state otherwise. ]
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-06-15 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ The truth is, he detests rats almost as much as he detests himself for needing to consume blood to survive. He has, of course, become accustomed to it, and the very thought of it no longer makes him recoil with disgust. But he has seen those who are whole and unspoiled, who do not need to drink the very life blood of others to continue living, and he envies them in a way. But still, he carries on, consuming rats by choice and by necessity, when there are no other sources available. Certainly, he will not reduce the people of the town to the status of being his prey or his food. Even as a vampire, he has drawn the line at certain points.

If he could find the strength and the words to address her worries, he would tell her that whatever pain might come from her healing, he intends to take it in stride. After all, even the worst injury at the claws of dragons pales in comparison to what he felt the day he learned that she was gone: gone because he was not there to save her. A part of him wonders if he will ever forget making that discovery or the dark days that came after it... days that never seemed to end.

He may have forgotten what her process of healing is like and how it feels, so as she begins, he finds himself steeling him for something more or less unknown. But as she works, steeling his resolve turns to stiffening as his body loudly protests against the sudden discomfort. If he is to be honest, it is more than discomfort, as she undoes what little healing has naturally occurred in spite of his failure to care for himself and his needs. The wound is deep, as she surmised, and he clenches his teeth to hold back any unwanted outbursts. He bites his lip unintentionally, which would have gone unnoticed if not for the taste of blood from the bitten area.

As she continues to work, his memories begin to swirl in a confusing blur as flashes of himself locked in battle with a dragon mesh with the present and her efforts to heal him. But a third memory weaves itself into the strange flood of memories: a small figure running, and a flash of blood. His fists clench, and for just a fraction of a second, his eyes gleam red. It is gone as soon as it appears, and he is just Aymeric once more.

She asked if he was ready, and he said he was, but he could not have anticipated how it would feel to have his tangled, coiled aether worked on until it released itself once more. Still, there is nothing to do but wait and try to drown out the unwanted memories from the past. ]

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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-09-04 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ He would be lying if he said that sleeping beside her did not bring about a certain relaxation that he has not known or felt in years. Although they still have much to talk about and much to learn about each other given their long separation, he finally feels complete now that she has returned.

He still has a great many things that he wishes to do for her, such as seeing her well fed, well clothed, loved and cared for, but as far as he is concerned, they now have a lifetime and perhaps beyond to see those wishes turned into reality.

But for the moment, sleep calls and claims them both, first her followed by him, and once he finally falls back asleep, it isn't long before a small smile forms on his face as he sleeps. Perhaps his dreams have taken a happier turn. But when she awakens and leaves the bed, his reaction is instant: he frowns in response to the sudden decrease in warmth and because he has registered that the place she had slept in is now empty.

But of course, he is not yet ready to rouse, and after a minute or two, the frown lines fade again and he resumes his sleep for a little while longer. When she returns to the bed hours later, he has already begun to slowly awaken, but at the sound of her voice, he begins to rouse properly. One eye slits open and focuses on her before the other one opens as well. ]


It's dark. Is it still morning? [ It can't be, but then again, perhaps his sense of time is confused. ] How do I feel? [ He pauses as if to take stock of himself. ] Better.

[ He starts to ask how she is, and then he realizes in an instant that she is wearing the dress he meant to give her. ]

You are- You look... [ He finds himself suddenly choked by an emotion he had forgotten how to feel. ] Beautiful.
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-09-04 08:54 am (UTC)(link)
I see. Well, then I have kept you waiting. I must apologize. [ He had no doubt in his mind that she is the one he's been waiting for, and that resolution has become clearer from watching her and the movements she makes. The way she twists her fingers together is familiar, and he knows she used to do it in another life. ] Thanks to you. I would not be where I am if not for your aid.

[ He takes her words as permission, and so he moves to at least sit up before standing and leaving the bed. His gaze is still fixed upon her, noting how the dress fits and how she looks in it. ]

He was correct. I had been meaning to give it to you, and I would have preferred doing so myself, but I was unable to, as you know. Nevertheless, the dress is yours, so therefore it is more than alright. Do you like it?

[ He looks somewhat nervous, as though wondering if perhaps it is not to her liking or her tastes. ]

I am certain it would not be too much to acquire more for you, if you wish.
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-09-06 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ He smiles, hoping that she does not take his words as mere correction, instead seeing them as coming from a place of gratitude. ] Oh, but I disagree. You have done so much since you returned.

[ Her statement of liking the dress brings about a wider smile even as he ponders what they should do next. He feels as though the answer is clear enough, at least to him. He does not wish to be apart from her. ]

What if we see to the bed together, and then the bath?

[ He wonders if she will notice the implications of his question, hoping that she does. ]
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-09-08 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ He truly would like to know more of what her life has been like before they found each other again. What things has she done? Who has she met? What has she experienced? He wants to know it all, the good and the bad.

But seeing her in that dress makes him happier than he can ever recall being, and so he is confident that he wishes to see her supplied with all the dresses and clothes she could possibly need or want.

His lips turn upwards in response to her deepening blush. ]


I would. If- if you wish to. [ She responds and his reaction is immediate. He reaches for her partially bare shoulder and rubs it. ] You are... you're more appealing than you know.
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-09-09 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ He would, and he does. What happened to her in their time apart has been left to his imagination, and he would like to not have to wonder anymore. Of course, if she tells him she does not wish to talk about it, he will respect that. But he wants to care for her, and learning what she has experienced might help him do that, at least in his mind. And, well, he can hardly be hurt more than he already has been. As far as he is concerned, the greatest hurt came from losing her in the first place.

His fingers curl slightly against her shoulder, but if she gives any sign of not wanting his touch, he will pull back. He does not wish to make her uncomfortable. ]


I think that you are everything I have made you out to be, and more. As for disappointing me, that won't happen. [ He is not entirely certain where this confidence comes from, only that he fully believes every word. ]

Of course. [ He reaches out for her again, this time reaching for her hand. He does not necessarily need aid in standing, but he would like to hold her hand. ]
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[personal profile] thewayforpeace 2023-09-09 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ He may not be very confident in very much anymore, but there is one thing he is confident in: he wishes to see her find her own confidence and belief in herself. How that might happen, he is unsure, but it has already solidified itself as a goal in his mind.

For now, however, the matter at hand is seeing to a bath for both of them. At least, he hopes she will join him. Although perhaps she should wait to do so until after he is clean. As for the matter of his hair, he has given it no thought. It simply grew long and he did not bother to tend to it. Of course, now that she has returned, that won't do.

She ushers him into the bathroom, where he makes short work of preparing for the bath, not giving much thought to what she might see of him as he undresses. But at the very last moment, he pauses, wondering if he ought to cover himself just before he steps into the bath. Or perhaps he should simply suggest she look away. ]


Ah- Should I wait for you to look elsewhere before I enter the bath? [ He asks as he glances towards the tub that is already filling with water. He has not had to think about such things in quite some time, but that does not mean he has completely forgotten about manners. ]

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