bloody tears || ❝ our fate so darkly romantic, i will never leave your side. ❞

[shepherdtostars]

bloody tears

AU PLOTLINE

The land is wrought with terror
He roams the countryside...
A journey far from doner
Racing the setting sun this battle must be won CODE BY TESSISAMESS

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[thewayforpeace]

[ There is nothing preventing him from reinventing himself, save for a deepseated belief that the chance for romantic ideals and a romantic life have long since passed him by. She could still have a future, however, and that is why he is resolved to do what he can to see her on her way to achieving that, even if, at some point, he would have to remain behind while she stepped forth into that new future and new life.

Again, he smiles a small sort of smile as if pleased to see how she melts against him. He has never had the opportunity to care for another in such a way, and part of him fears that he will take a misstep or do something she does not approve of. But she seems to enjoy having her ear stroked, so he continues doing just that. ]

Does- Does this please you? [ He cannot stop the hesitation in his words, as he is hardly experienced with this sort of thing.

Her tail brushing against his leg sends a shiver up his spine as well. He has never felt a sensation quite like this before, and he certainly has not experienced this sort of closeness, but he finds that it likes all of it. ]

Would you be willing to? [ His tone of voice shifts, as if he is no longer attempting to compel her, but ask if she would consider doing such a thing of her own will or not. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ If the thoughts had manifested as a conversation? Lantaa would have protested such thoughts. They have found one another, and thus, he now has the chance for that very life. While they are, for all pretenses, strangers? She has no doubts that he is the one meant for her. She knew, on some level, that it was him the moment the Azure Dragoon brought him into her cave. If he has realized the same is unknown to her at the moment.

Her state has yet to change despite his worries. She is still melted against him, head leaning into the hand that strokes her ear, wearing a content yet almost dazed expression. The blue hue remains covering her eyes despite his change in tone or his hesitation. A small gentle smile touches her face as her ear gives a gentle twitch under his fingers. ]

Yes, it does. [ Lantaa's tone shifts to something more of herself--the very same he heard when she spoke to him the first time.

Her eyes drift shut as the hand on his chest lifts to rest on his cheek. Then, her hand halts, as if her body has realized that her movements were not commanded or implied to be done. She does not freeze as a soldier might waiting for orders. Instead, she continues to rest her weight against him and merely waits.

Lantaa takes note, somewhere in her mind, of his reaction to her tail moving. A part of her wishes to shrink away in embarrassment, but he has not said he dislikes the touch. She keeps her tail where it is for now until he directs her to move it away from him.

His question causes her hazed eyes to open once more. Lantaa's gaze meets his immediately. The intensity behind the haze says that while she is following his suggestions and commands? She agrees to them. She wants to follow what he offers. There is just something, her own mind, that keeps her from voicing it, without another to help. ]

Yes, I would be willing to. [ Her voice shifts once more back into the obedient tone. Lantaa shifts slightly against him to press herself to him further. ] What else would you have me do for you? Tell me.

[thewayforpeace]

[ In so many ways, this feels almost like a fever dream that his mind conjured up for him. Once, he might have dreamt about meeting someone like her, and he has admitted to himself that he has felt incomplete, as if something is missing. But then he was turned into who he is now, and it felt as though all of his dreams for the future died that day.

Could she be the one he was meant to find? Is it possible for them to belong together? He has no answers to those questions, even though he has not yet begun searching inside himself for them.

Truthfully, what he desires is to hear her answer for herself without him using his powers of persuasion upon her. That is why he has somewhat relaxed his efforts in hopes of hearing what her true thoughts and feelings are. After all, it is not love if she is forced to answer against her will. Neither is it right if he forces her to stay if she would rather leave. He knows very little of such things, but if they are to be together, then he wishes for it to be genuine, not forced.

A small voice in his mind contradicts him, saying that he is only bringing to the surface what she has left unsaid, but he still fears that what he is doing is forcing her to say what he wants to hear and not what she truly wishes to say.

When her hand leaves his chest to move to his cheek, he does not move either, but he feels a slight stab of disappointment. She is still touching him, of course, but he rather liked the sensation of her fingers tracing along his sensitive skin. Many thought that those like him were not sensitive at all and could not truly appreciate being touched or giving touches in return. That is not the case.

But before he can say anything more, he notes the way her tone changes and he hears the familiar tone of one who is being compelled. Yet another stab in his heart is felt then, as if he feels disappointed in himself for relying upon these methods. In so many ways, he feels as if he is the disgrace, the disappointment... and certainly the unwanted, as many have turned away from him in the past.

But already he has an answer to her questions, and it is as genuine as it is possible to be. ]

It is not what I would have you do for me, but rather what I would have you do for yourself. Do you have any wants or needs? I would see those fulfilled.

[shepherdtostars]

( mood music )

[ Lantaa would admit that she had no dreams of the future herself. One day Master Matoya would return, and she would simply fall back into the role of student. She could never leave the cave and feel that she was not being hunted. Then again, she still fears that the moment she steps out of the cave the men in armor and capes will be waiting with their weapons pointed at her. Such fear keeps one from truly dreaming and more... wishing that she might find the one that was hers. That by some chance, he might walk into the cave for some wish for her to grant, and she might be finally free of her self-made prison.

Her eyes widen ever so slightly at the realization that this moment could be that very wish. That perhaps, somehow, by granting the Azure Dragoon's wish, he brought her the one person that could grant her own. She shifts to press her entire person against him. The hand stilled on his face moves once more, this time into his hair to brush it away from his face. Her hazed gaze seems alert then, piercing into his own, as if to ask if he truly would take her away.

It's you... you're him. But, would you... do you wish to be with me now? In this life?

His question blindsides her. No one has asked such a thing outside the woman and other Miqo'te who took her in. All that come to the small cave seek for their own fulfillment. None ask what she desires. They curse her price she names, regret their wish, and hold grudges. The only time they return is to settle the payment and leave her where they found her. Each time a small piece of Lantaa feels chipped away for she could not even make those who asked wishes of her happy. Instead, she retreated under the mask they all thought her to be, waiting for Master Matoya to return so she might hide away from the world. It seemed that the world truly did not want her.

Tears gather in her eyes that remain hazed. Despite that, as he has yet to break the orders, Lantaa's own gaze pushes through. She begins to s hake once more as does her hand buried in his hair. ]

I want... [ Her own tone once more shines through as the tears in her eyes start to slip down her face. ] I want somewhere to be home... s-somewhere I can be me. S-someone to take me away... w-where they can't find me again... s-someone to...

[ Lantaa tilts her head into the bed beneath them. Her fingers tangle in his hair as the other rests back on his jawbone. Once more her eyebrows knit as she knows she must continue to answer him. ]

My someone.

[ More tears gather and slip down her face. They are her feelings, even if they feel so very old. A new fear strikes her then. What if he has yet to realize what she has? What if he only sees her as a comfort because all others have turned him away? Her heart wishes to cry out that it is her, and beg him to realize it, but her own mind once more tries to cage the feeling. It is not rational, nor is it possible.

Somehow, perhaps due to his complement, those feelings seem to push past the trauma she has endured in this life. Lantaa gently guides his head forward to rest his forehead to hers, hoping that he might see her through the state she asked him to place her in. She hopes that he can see her past his own walls and fortifications. Her out of all the other souls he may have met. ]

I'm here, but I can't leave... I can't force myself to... [ She whispers it, almost as if she can speak it on her own in such a manner. ] Y-you've found me. It's me....

[ She straightens her shoulders as another fear strikes into her, leaving a wound on her heart. What if he cannot recognize her anymore? Either through rebirth or what he had been turned into this life. Or, perhaps, she is far too damaged and unable to be the person he loved. Lantaa's eyebrows knit as her lip trembles at the thoughts and fears trying to cage her once more and keep her as she has been: withdrawn and a self made prisoner of her cave.

She shakes still with the longing and fear return to her gaze despite the blue hue attempting to remain prominent in her eyes. There is a sense of helplessness inside her that grows as the fear grabs ahold of her just as it had moments ago.

Her voice remains a whisper even as the fear starts to claw its way into her tone: ]

...can you not see me anymore?

[thewayforpeace]

[ If he could hear her thoughts and know what was going through her mind, his answer would be immediate. Although there is still very much they do not know about each other, one thing is clear in his mind: if it came about that she needed protection, he would not hesitate to stand up to protect her. Their circumstances are very different, but all he can think about is how no one was able to protect him from being turned that fateful day, and while he has tried his best to hold no grudges or bitterness, he is resolved more than ever to cause no harm to anyone nor allow anyone who has done nothing wrong to be harmed.

It was always an ambition of his to become a Temple Knight, but now more than ever, he sees it as a way to become stronger so that he might defend those who are unable to defend themselves. In his mind, this is a better use of his time and of his life than giving himself over to revenge.

The answers to her unspoken questions have not yet occurred to him, but even if he has not thought up the answers to them in so many words, it seems clear enough that he wishes to be with her, to keep her close for as long as she wants to be there and still has need of his protection. He has no intention of turning her away or of driving her away, not when their paths have finally crossed after so long. So long? It has not been very long at all. That contradiction in his mind clashes with what his soul believes to be truth: they have been together before in another time and place, and now they have once more come together again. He may not know just how many lives they have lived through together, but it seems that his soul is telling him it has been a very long time indeed. ]

I can give you a home, and my company, if you wish to have it. And by taking you into my home, I am resolved to protect you, whatever the cost. No one shall take you away as long as I am around. [ And when he is not, he will take steps to ensure she remains hidden and protected. ]

Am I...? [ His breath catches slightly as her fingers continue tangling themselves into his hair. ] Could I be your someone?

[ The clanging sound in his soul is telling him that yes, he is her someone, but he needs the confirmation from her, if she can give it.

He realizes perhaps too late that more tears are beginning to pour down her face, and without even the slightest hesitation, he reaches out for her with a careful hand so that he might wipe them away. ]

I would see you happy, and no longer needing to cry or be afraid. I- I would see you be yourself, not needing to be coaxed into giving answers, not even by me. [ And with that, his regret for having used that ability on her at all reaches a maximum, and something inside him recoils from himself. The spell, or the coercion, however it may be called seems to have momentarily been broken.

And then, as if a love he once felt so many lives ago now is resurfacing, he positions himself so that they are looking at each other eye-to-eye. One hand slides gently beneath her chin and carefully moves to tilt her face upwards. If she resists, he will also stop, but he wishes to see her with nothing getting in their way. ]

Lantaa...

[ He leans in so that their faces are just inches apart, and a small but no less genuine smile crosses his own face. ]

I can see you.

[shepherdtostars]

[ Her heart will surely break should she learn none were there to save him, merely adding to the pain she feels that he seemingly has none around him to care for him. There is Estinien, of course, but he has no family? No other friends? None that could help him with his new state of being? If such is the case, than Lantaa will offer to aid him. If he is to offer her protection and a home? It is the very least she can do for him.

She wishes to shout that the matter is not could he be, but that he is her someone. Her other half, the one that she is meant to be with no matter how many times the aetheric sea tends to see they are reborn. As he continues to speak, tears continue to steadily slip down her cheeks. However, her expression turns from fear and concern to surprise. She may still cry and be unable to give certain answers, as trauma cannot be dismissed over night. However, in time, perhaps she will at least feel that she can tell him. If nothing else, she may be able to speak to him of it in whispered tones as she is now.

Lantaa moves with his guidance, her heart beating heavy as their eyes connect once more. Her head tilts with his fingers and a blush takes her cheeks. The ears atop her head lift at the sound of her name leaving his lips. That alone may have been enough to settle her back into the haze of his coercion. However, the next words are what truly makes her senses fully return and the blue hue disappear from her eyes.

I can see you.

She inhales quickly before a gentle cry comes from her. Her other hand slides into his hair as well so that both tangle in the locks and comb it back. Lantaa shuts her eyes for only a moment to stifle another cry of happiness and relief. It's him, and he knows it's her. The wave of relief is so powerful she feels herself sink further into the mattress below them. A nudge is given to his nose with hers, followed by another, before her fingers move to gently massage the back of his head.

They're finally together again... her one and only.

Lantaa takes a moment to reign in her emotions and the tears finally begin to slow. Her eyes finally open again, clear and filled with over brimming love. They are still practically strangers in so many ways, but she feels that it is more of a stepping stone than a hindrance in this life they will share. Her thumbs gently brush at his temples as a wide smile touches her face. They'll be leaving to together, and will live together...

She gently presses her lips to his cheek then. ]

I-if we are to leave together... your wound will need more attention. [ Her gaze briefly shifts behind him as if to gesture to the idea. Then, after a moment where she pauses to compose herself more, her two-toned gaze returns to his eyes. She nudges his nose once more. ] And you will need to eat to have the strength to make the journey, even if I can make it shorter.

[ Lantaa continues to massage the back of his head with her fingertips, brushing his hair in no particular way. Her thumbs move from his temples to to the line of his hair. Then, she smiles once more at him. ]

You need to eat, my love. [ The petname comes easily to her as if she has always said it. ] I-if you are to protect me... t-to give me a home? T-then, please, let me help you with this when you need it.

[thewayforpeace]

[ He may not be surrounded by a whole host of loved ones, but he has Estinien, and he has the household steward and maid that have served his family for years. So he is not entirely alone, although it certainly is true that he has very few friends outside of those three individuals. They help when they can, but he would not ask them to give up more than they already have in order to assist with his adjustments to everything that has happened. And he has begun to believe that he could not ask for outside help, because who would answer even if he did reach out?

In all honesty, Lantaa's willingness to assist with his injury and her apparent eagerness to remain by his side has taken him by surprise. Not only is she a witch, but she is, as they both have noted, a stranger to him in this life. She is under no obligations to assist him or to be this close to him, and yet there is a part of him that wishes to believe she would do so without having to be compelled.

And because of that, he resolves to never compel her to act again, unless it is somehow in her best interests. And it well may be, given how she seems unable to freely speak about the things that trouble her or about things she wishes to say. Perhaps in that sense, they can help each other, although he would much prefer it if she spoke of her own accord and not because he was influencing her actions.

As before, he responds to her touches by going slack beside her, as if the feeling of her hands in his hair has released some sort of relaxation mechanism inside him. He is still present with her, but he is feeling a kind of contentment that he has never known before. Or if he has, it has been some long years since he felt anything remotely like this.

But just as suddenly as it started, he hears what she is saying and his posture stiffens by just a fraction. That she needs to further tend to his wound does not trouble him; instead, it is the notion that he must eat that gives him pause. Of course he needs to continue regaining his strength for the journey ahead and for anything that may come after, but this is one area in which he still has difficulty accepting. ]

Of course. Of course I need to eat, and I will. But not from you if I can help it. I will not risk bringing you harm.

[ He can appreciate her willingness to help, and of course he has relished the taste of her blood, but he does not wish to let that door open once more. She is not a fountain for him to help himself to, after all. ]

Surely there are small animals that roam around the outside of this cave. If I can find one or two, or even a handful, that will be enough.

[ And, at the last moment, he finds he cannot help but add: ] Am I your love now? [ It is the closest he has come to offering a tease, and she might note the way his eyes briefly light up with something resembling amusement. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ If only she could find the way to express she truly wishes to leave with him on her own. She would not have him doubting her fondness and love if she can help it. Yes, they are strangers, but she also knows she cannot go back to the life she has had in the cave. Not without feeling as if a part of her will never return. The mere idea of him leaving once more causes her to tense in his arms and for a moment she clings to him. Only once he goes slack in her hold does she too relax, easing into the notion that he will not leave her behind. ]

Yes, you are my love... m-my one and only in any life.

[ Lantaa tilts her head slightly. Her gaze softens into a loving gaze. ] There are, but, what you need is nourishment in order to return your strength. They will only sate your thirst, but, not replenish what you need. The amount you would need.. i-it... there would be so many, and it would pull unwanted attention. We both know this. [ She smiles at him then and lovingly nudges his nose again. ] Trust me, my love. You won't hurt me.

[ She gently pulls him close once more to rest his forehead to hers. Her eyes meet his, demanding all his attention to be on her. With a few more strokes to his hair, Lantaa removes one hand from his hair to cup his cheek, then trail her fingers down his jawline. Part of her worries that by doing this it may push her away. That by attending to his needs, he will dismiss her and decide that she truly is best left in her cave alone. After a moment she swallows before her ears stand on end and offers one more smile. ]

Aymeric. [ His name is said with an alluring tone to garner all of his attention. Even the side that he represses with all his might. Lantaa pulls him closer to lure him further into her gaze. Her fingers brush over his lips as her eyes seem to glow. ] My love. I know, you're hungry, and that you need something you deny yourself of. I promise to help you however you chose ... but for now you need to let me help you.

Will you?

[thewayforpeace]

[ On some level deep down, he knows that she does not mean to be parted. How he knows that, he is unsure, but there is a small voice that is telling him that they will not be separated now that they have found each other. He certainly does not wish to let her go, although he would without a second's thought if he deemed it to be in her best interests. Still, if they are together, then he can care for her and protect her, and that seems more important to him than anything. Perhaps she feels the same, and it is that possibility that he holds onto. ]

I can scarcely imagine what I might have done in this life or any other life to deserve this. [ He has no qualms admitting that. Of course he feels undeserving of anything that could be remotely considered good. But undeserving and thankless are not the same things. ] I do not know what caused our paths to cross, whether it was fate or a particular blessing, but I am grateful that they did.

[ For his part, his expression falls just slightly as the conversation turns once more towards her urging him to eat as much as he needs. ] Surely you understand why I am hesitant. I do not wish to harm you, despite your reassurances that I will not. I- I am afraid that I will not be able to stop myself, and... You may not survive. [ That causes his throat to nearly close with fear and revulsion because of his needs, and for just a moment, he allows himself to rest against her unmoving while he wars with himself about what he ought to do.

Perhaps it is good that he is not sitting up at this moment, because if he were, he may well have lost his balance. He has deprived himself of what he needs, because of his reluctance to drink from her, and the effects of that have now begun to surface.

Even as her voice washes over him in a far different tone than she has used thus far, his eyes slide closed and his free hand moves to clasp the side of his head. Because he is lying down, the effects of the wave of dizziness that has settled in are not so apparent, but he is suddenly tense and not relaxed as he was just moments ago.

After a moment, his eyes slit open again, and their normal blue color appears slightly dimmed as he searches to meet her gaze once more. He does not answer aloud, as the words do not come, so he gives just the barest of nods which in turn sets the world spinning again.

Perhaps he was foolish to deprive himself for as long as he has, but the thought of drinking a living person's blood is all but unbearable to him. Still, he feels himself being pulled into giving a consenting answer, and there is no taking it back now. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ How would being apart from him ever be for her own good? Her magic can stop him if his nature ever escapes his careful guarded resolve. She knows, in her heart and soul, she cannot lose him now that they reunited. ]

Maybe it has nothing to do with deserving... and it just simply is. [ Lantaa affectionately nudges him once more. She cannot tell why it feels as if they have spent so many lives apart, or if they simply were unable to spend fulfilled lives together. Mayhap it only feels so very long because of the lives they have led now: secluded from others by choice, thinking it for the best for themselves. ]

I do understand. [ She gives a small nod to further demonstrate the fact. Her slender fingers brush along his skin in an attempt to comfort him. ] But, I know you will stop yourself. You said you would protect me... so I can't see why you would be unable to stop yourself. I... I trust you in this, as I trust you to help me speak when my mind won't allow me to.

[ The tips of her ears twitch as he falls against her. Anxiousness stabs her heart. He has lost more blood than she first thought. What she had given him must have only been enough to aid him in being alert and conscious. That fact would also lead her to believe he has not had enough to heal on his own. All the damage that has been repaired is of her own magic. He will need his wound tended to more then once he has eaten.

A new sense of resolve fills her to accompany the anxiousness. It will be different from granting the wishes of others or even healing him. She will need to make certain he feels cared for and safe, otherwise he may panic and fight against her.

Even then, she knows the nerves also come from the simple fact of how personal this is. He is her one and only, not a stranger she holds no connections with.

The hand still on the back of his head gently brushes his hair once more to soothe him. ]

Aymeric, my love, look at me. [ Her tone still attempts to lure him to her care; something that seems too tempting to be without, yet filled with love for him.

Lantaa makes certain she holds his attention, her lit eyes attempting to captivate his dim ones. Her fingers move once more so that only her thumb brushes along his bottom lip. The others settle under his chin to tilt his head up by a fraction as her tail begins to gently brush along his leg once more. She searches to find not only the knight, but the vampire, in his gaze. She means to snare the side of him that he hates and represses in hopes that he will realize on all lives she does this out of the love she has for him. Love that will hopefully have the repressed side desire her and trust her. ]

I need to know you will allow me to help, and not simply because I say. [ Lantaa carefully leans forward to brush her lips beside his mouth while her thumb still moves gently back and forth along his lower lip. She does not find herself the most inticing or eye turning person, but, all she need do is have his repressed instincts wish to have her. Then, she can direct him how to eat safely.

At least she hopes she comes off as seductive as she believes she is. Now, it is time to see if she has captured his whole attention. Her voice drops to an inticing whisper:, ]

Tell me truthfully, my love. Am I something you would want? Was my blood satisifying... something you would desire to have again?

[thewayforpeace]

[ As he feels himself fall against her, what little strength he had managed to gain fleeing from him once more, a sense of desperation surges inside him. There is more that I must say... More that I must tell her. It is difficult to form words when his head his spinning and his arms and legs feel as though they are made of lead, but he must make an attempt to respond to her.

From sheer force of will alone, he manages to form a few words, although it is not the answer he wished to give. ] Why do you trust me so? [ Why, when I cannot trust myself? He has given her no proof that he will do as he said, only his word, and what good are words if there are no actions behind them? Simply put, there has not been time for him to prove that he will do as he has promised, so it seems odd to him that she trusts him so readily. Perhaps it is not so odd considering their bond that has lasted over many lives, but in this life, he is someone to whom trust is easily given. ]

Lantaa. [ He internally curses himself and this sudden weakness that is keeping him from saying everything on his mind. All he can do is reach for her and try to grasp onto her hand as if that will keep him grounded as his senses try to run from him.

She gives an order for him to look at her, and despite his weakness and inability to move, the enticing tone in her voice stirs up strength from some hidden reserve and he manages to move his head slightly so that he is looking her in the eyes. Her touches on his lip and her tail brushing against his leg, and the way she continues brushing his hair, all form a spell of their own, and if not for the captivating tone in her voice, he might have let his eyes slide closed again and allow himself to drift off. He certainly feels weak enough to simply slide away into sleep, but it seem that his new (old) companion will not allow him to.

As her efforts continue, the ever-present battle inside him between his vampire side and his undamaged, unsullied side continues to rage, but the longer she talks and the more she touches him, giving him those brief but still meaningful brushes against his lips (a sensitive area, although he refuses to admit that), a different sort of haze falls over his eyes: not dim, and not overly bright either, but there is a hint of redness to it as he watches and listens to her. ]

I- [ A slight tension forms in his shoulders as the internal struggle continues. ] Please. [ It is the closest he will come to asking for her help, and even then, he does not use those exact words, merely that one word entreaty for her assistance.

A switch has seemingly been flipped, and the reticent man that refused to eat his fill even though he needed it has been replaced by another with no such reservations. ]

I want you... I want to taste you. [ If he were not driven by need and by the heady feeling brought on by her efforts to entice him, those words would make him recoil, but instead, he looks at her with desire and in a way, with love.

As if what some would call a bloodthirsty vampire is capable of loving another. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ She would not have him tax himself so much. They will have time to speak and get to know one another; for him to say all he wishes. The look of loving sympathy passes her face once more as she tries to offer him another reassuring smile.

Her expression softens at his question. ] You could have tried to strike me down when you awakened. Regardless of your current state of being? You are a Temple Knight. Wouldn't that mean that you should have ended my life knowing what I am? Instead, you asked me to join you. That is trust enough... besides what I feel for you.

[ She continues to watch his reactions, nodding once he has given her permission in so many words. He will not admit it plainly it seems, so what little ground he gives her will need to be enough. Her hand in his hair curls slightly as she presses her face to the side of his for a moment. ]

Don't hate me for this. [ A ridiculous fear to be certain, but, she cannot help but worry of it. What if, once he has eaten and come more to his senses, he pushes her away for enticing him into something he abhors? ] That's all that I ask.

[ Her tail lifts slightly with her eyes widening in surprise. A part of her did not exprct it to work--that he would fight against it with all of his might. Lantaa starts into the redness of his eyes. A small shock runs up her spine with an unexpected thrill attached to it. She does not know if it is because it is Aymeric looking at her so, or because his natural abilities of being a vampire have ensnared her as well. Her breath catches and she feels a certain anticipation rising in her. ]

The little you had a few days ago was good then? [ She nods, but leaves the statement open for him to comment more on if he wishes. Lantaa then presses a kiss to the side of his mouth, attempting to show she desires both sides of him as well.

Teasing a vampire in such a state is hardly a wise idea. So, she shifts to sit up regardless if he speaks more of it or not. Lantaa guides him to rest his head in her lap, shifting her head to the top to continue untangling the knots in his hair. The fingers at his mouth give one final pass over his lips before she rests her lower arm near his head. He will need to grasp and take her arm for himself, but she leaves the opening free for him to move and do as he wishes. ]

Once you've eaten, I'll see to the wound on your back. You can sleep all you'd like once I'm finished.

[thewayforpeace]

[ His only answer at first is to shake his head repeatedly as if rejecting her words concerning what he should have done as a Temple Knight. To take anyone's life is all but unforgivable to him, and although he knows he should not stand to let one such as her live, he also knows he would not be able to strike her down. ]

I could not have done it. Why should you not be allowed to live? [ He has just enough of his senses remaining to give voice to those questions. ] Why should I be allowed to live, when you face threats and danger every day? [ Or rather, he assumes that she would face danger on a daily basis if not for the fact that she had hidden herself inside her cave.

His body seems to react of its own accord, pressing slightly against hers as if desperately asking for continued closeness with her. Her touches and caresses are stirring up feelings that he assumed were long dead, and now that they have come to life, he only wants more.

How could he ever hate her when she is giving him things he never dreamed he could have?

With such a willing subject just inches away and offering herself to him, he finds he can hardly resist now that his darker instincts have been awoken. The part of him that hated himself for what is now an inextricable part of his life has been suppressed, and in its place is someone else: someone else with an appetite and a need for sustenance. But even then, he is not a mindless creature looking to eat and nothing more.

Instead of answering her question concerning his opinion regarding her taste, he offers her a small smile, and if she is looking closely enough, she might see a brief glimpse of pointed teeth. But he does not use them just yet; instead, he presses her lips against her arm once she has guided him so that he is resting in her lap. A vampire he may be, but he has not completely lost all measure of politeness, even for a creature who thrives on the blood of others.

His movements are slow, given the lingering weakness, but no less purposeful. He takes hold of her arm lightly with one hand and leans forward just a fraction, mouth open and teeth just barely bared. One pointed fang lightly pierces the skin on her arm, and with what might be seen as a surprising sort of gentleness, he presses his lips against the spot waiting for a droplet of blood to form. He needs to feed, but he has just enough presence of mind to not treat her roughly or carelessly. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ A watery smile forms on her face at his question. Why indeed. She wishes she knew why the red eye appeared in the sky; why the Knights attacked. Her childhood home was peaceful. They were healers. Yet, they were deemed unfit, and their home destoryed with she the only survivor as far as she knows. Her mother, father, and twin all gone... ]

You also face them every day in your war. [ A gentle nod is given in the direction of his back. ] Life here is not easy... and perhaps it has never been easy.

[ A faint blush takes to her face as he presses in return. No rejection is within her gaze, merely embarrassment and anticipation. What those might be for is something that has yet fully entered her mind. She is entirely focused on him and caring for him. The thought strikes her that she has yet to care for another in such a way. Someone who needs healing... and nurturing... not just simply wishes of their heart. A proper sort of care.

Lantaa feels her cheeks grow hot at his smirk and pointed teeth. Her heart beats loud in her eyes for a moment with anticipation in her gaze. She truly had not thought he would find her blood appetizing or even good. She is an accursed witch after all. Surely that would have something to do with tatse and desire for her. He is a vampire, and those urges and tendencies must be there even if he attempts to ignore it.

The gentleness surprises her as he takes his hand and plants a kiss where his teeth will break into. Lantaa did not think he would be careless or hurt her, but she cannot help but wonder if he treats her with care because of their bond. She hopes that even with his instincts guiding him, he remembers who she is. She hopes that he finds her desirable, her blood appetizing , and treats her with care because she is his other half.

Her arm tenses from the reflex of being bit, but she does not pull away or even show any pain or fear. Of course the bite hurts to some degree. It simply is not enough to make her wince or recoil. Not when she can tell he is attempting to be gentle and care for her despite his needing to feed. ]

Hmm.

[ She glances down at her arm and feels that perhaps it will not be enough. So, Lantaa flexes her arm in a way to encourage the blood to rise to the surface for him. All the while her other hand brushes the lengths of his locks before returning to the top of his head to continue the calming notion. ]

Thank you, for being gentle. [ She blushes at her next words, in which she means in a teasing manner. At least, she means to a degree. Her tail begins to sway from one side to the next happily. ] I hope that when you spoke of desiring me, it wasn't only to eat something you find appealing...

[ Her blush deepens on her face at her own words. Surely he would not desire her beyond companionship and potentially one to give him substance he needs. There is little to desire after all. A Miqo'te compared to a woman of Ishgard? There is no contest.

Still, she finds herself hoping he does desire her. She would kiss him then and there, and touch him, but she would have it when he is in control of himself. Not that he would wish to kiss her... ]

[thewayforpeace]

[ It is, of course, a fool's hope, but he remains unaware that her home and her family is gone. But the part of him that still retains a spark of humanity would offer to attempt finding her lost family, if there is any chance of doing so. He is all too aware that the world contains its share of tragedies, many of which have befallen those he knows and cares for, so perhaps her family are truly gone beyond recovery. But should they lose hope simply because there appears to be no chance?

He might not be brimming with hope himself, but he does wish better for others. ] Of course, but as a knight, I knew what I was walking into. Misfortune of some kind seems to have followed you, although I hardly know what that might be. [ Her demeanor and her hesitancy seem to point to something more than just being a scorned witch.

But it seems that he will have to unpack the mysteries that surround her another time when he is not still recovering and in need of replenishing his lost stores of blood.

He finds the business of needing to feed off of living beings utterly distasteful, but with his baser instincts in control right now, he has no such qualms to hold him back. Still, he finds that he cannot attack her as he would a rat or other creature, simply because he has too much respect and care for her to do so. He would say that he respects all life, whether human or animal, but for her, it goes beyond mere respect.

It may seem strange that love is what is driving him to act with such care, but at the same time, it does not seem strange at all. They have known each other over many lives and in many times and places, and he only wants to treat her as well as he can. If he must feed from her, he will not do so as a mindless monster.

He continues to drink from her, knowing that despite his efforts to be careful, remnants of her blood remain clinging to his lips and mouth. But where there would be revulsion at such a thing, there is only a want and desire to feel and taste her and pour the need he has for her into his every move.

While he continues to drink, his hands move to circle around her as best as they can, and one hand raises slightly to touch the ends of her hair. His fingers tighten lightly on the end of the locks, but he does not pull or twist them, simply letting his fingers rest there as he slowly but steadily drinks his fill.

Given their closeness, he would not be surprised if she felt the pulsating beat of his heart as he draws more of her blood into himself. But he is becoming aware that the time has come for him to cease, lest he take too much and cause her harm. He has not lost his senses as he feared, even though the taste of her blood all but causes his head to swim from the headiness of it all. With a quick, decisive motion, he withdraws his mouth from the hole his teeth made in her skin, and he gently presses his fingers against the spot as if hoping to stem any blood that may flow from the wound. ]

Shall I bandage your hurts now? [ He was careful to only make a small bite, not wanting to make the wound too deep, but nevertheless, it should not be left unattended.

Part of him wants to stand and stretch and revel in his restored strength from feeding, but he must care for her before himself, as he must express his gratitude somehow. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ Lantaa glances to the side as if to hide the look of loneliness and pain that creep into the corners of her gaze. Misfortune certainly has followed her, and try as she might, the words of what has happened remain caged inside her. Perhaps the time is not right to tell him, despite how everything in her wishes to share the details of her life with him. Not much has happened in the years since that day, but, she imagines he wishes to know her in this life as he has in all lives.

A mere nod is given to his statement as her shoulders curl ever so slightly. She cannot help the thoughts that perhaps he may not look at her the same the moment she shares what she truly is with him. A witch is one thing, but if his people had wanted hers wiped from the star... then...

Her thoughts leave her own past to the present once his arm wraps around her. The tips of her ears give a surprised twitch and her tail begins to sway with his fingers at the ends of her hair. Her heart quickens, and perhaps he notices as he feeds. How long has it been since someone touched her hair?

A tingling sensation begins in her arm as he slowly stops feeding. The feeling certainly comes from the lack of blood in the area, but there is something more there. When his fingers brush at the site of the wound, a powerful shock runs up her spine that makes her shiver. A need to be touched fills her, leaves her dizzy, and almost as if she is once again floating.

Her head tips down and her eyes close with a gentle but happy smile on her face. Her tail sways back and forth faster, for it is not just the effects of his bite that leave her so pleased. A sense of fulfillment blossoms in her heart, for it is the only time in recent memory that she has been able to care and help another... and it would bring tears to her eyes if not for the overwhelming desire for him to touch her anywhere he pleases.

His question causes her head to tilt. Her fingers move in a circular pattern before coming to life in a green and white light. The whisps of light touch her arm and the hole he made is healed, leaving no trace of his feeding. The only signs of it might be the lack of blood she feels and the fact she wishes to fall against him and allow him to do as he would wish. ]

There is no need. I'm fine. [ Lantaa finally opens her eyes to look at his once more with a loving smile on her face.

However, her eyes have darkened as well, and she wonders if he feels the sudden desires and needs she does as well. Perhaps not. He has never fed from anything other than animals, so the effects could be most certainly lost to him. Even then, she sits relaxed and open for him to touch and kiss her as he might.

In fact, she finds herself wishing he might. ]

[thewayforpeace]

[ Her sideways glance does not escape his notice, and that urge to save her, to protect her... to truly be her defender rises all the more. Why he feels this way, he does not know, but perhaps in another life, he failed to save her and that was how they were parted. All he knows is that he will not allow such a thing to happen in this life.

It is all too clear that she has been hurt badly by others, and if only he could find who those others were and take them to task for their actions. But in this moment, he cannot do that, and there is nothing to say that he could in any circumstance, regardless of his desire to. So he contents himself with continuing to stroke her hair, as he has also noticed how she has responded to the gesture. If he can give her even the smallest amount of comfort and care, then he will.

But even as he strokes her hair, a worried expression comes to his face as he continues to survey her, watching for any serious signs that she is not well following his feeding upon her. It is a necessary thing, of course, but that does not mean he should act without care.

So when he notes the smile spreading across her face, he eyes her with unveiled confusion. Did she so truly wish to help him that she has drawn fulfillment and pleasure from the act of him finally feeding? And of course it stands to reason that she can heal her own wounds, as she has healed his, but he finds himself surprised regardless. ]

You are full of surprises, I think. [ It is not merely the act of healing that surprises him, but rather, the love in her eyes that he sees once she looks at him once again. But he is full of surprises himself, and although it is surely going to make her protest, he pushes himself up into a sitting position and reaches for her, taking hold of both hands so that he might pull her onto his lap, if she allows him to.

If not, he will satisfy himself with kissing every part of her that he can reach, but having her so close would certainly make that an easier endeavor. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ Soul searching may be required to learn why they have lost one another. Yet, even then, Lantaa almost does not wish to know. A theory that Master Matoya told her was that the memories of past lives fall alway as aether is washed anew in the aetheric sea, thus there ought to be no tangible way to feel what she does. Somehow, those feelings remain even after perhaps countless lives. The feeling that speak not only of deep unconditional love for him, but, that she has lost him more than once. Lives unfulfilled and left empty with his absence, or perhaps even her absence. The details may be found, but for now, Lantaa does not wish to dive deeper. All she wishes is to be with him. She prays that he will wish to be with her once her secrets are shared; that this life will not end up as a tally strike of yet another life unshaved.

Her tail continues to sway even as he gently brushes the ends of her hair. She smiles at the notion, feeling another thrill move through her body. Not anyone could touch her in such a manner to garner the same response. Only him.

Such a small act has made her quite happy. Her nature is not to be closed off and a distant woman who demands prices for her services. No, this is her nature. Caring for the ills and aches of another, seeing they are healthy, nurturing them. If taking care of his ailment is what he needs to be healed? She will more than gladly so it at nearly any cost. She does not intend to do anything that will separate them.

A protest does form in her mind once he moves to sit, but the words disappear the moment he touches her hands. The state caused by his bite seems to take hold then. Lantaa wordlessly follows his directions and moves to straddle his lap. Her arms raise to drape over his shoulders almost lazily. She needs him to touch her now. So much so that she presses herself to him and content sound escapes her.

She had not stepped into further caring for him without reading. Although, she will admit the naivity in believing that she could very beyond the effects of a bite. Endorphins run high, and thus passions can, all for the vampire to move easily in for their meal. A painless way to do it, she supposed, but experiencing it is very different. Aymeric may not even understand his own reactions to his instincts, but perhaps that is best for later as she lazily looks back into his gaze. The red glow makes another shiver run through her and her tail straighten before relaxing. Her breathing deepens once more.

She wants him to touch her, kiss her, know her like none other. He could run his hands over her body, her tail, undo her corset and loosen the dress. Not that her dress hides much with the exposed shoulder and part of her chest.

Lantaa tilts her head back to give him an alluring smile once more. Although her eyes do not glow. Instead they are dark with desire and anticipation. ]

You are as well, Ser Aymeri c. [ She gives him a smile that speaks further of her desires. ]

[thewayforpeace]

[ While learning that information would explain why they act, think, and feel the way they do, there is a part of Aymeric that truly does not wish to know. They have had other lives together, but in this life, they have found each other and they are themselves, free to make their own decisions and choices (barring the interference of others), and some small part of Aymeric strongly desires that freedom, when much of his was taken against his will.

But if she wishes to pursue those mysteries, of course he will accompany her and learn of them alongside her.

He is glad that she is happy, that the action of caring for him and tending to him has brought her some measure of fulfillment. For himself, now that he has had his fill, he finds himself contented in a way that he has not experienced in quite some time. Naturally, his own passions and desires are running high as well, and he would not hesitate to make those known. But it seems that he is less interested in acting with intensity and romantic fervor and more interested in simply touching her and becoming more acquainted with her that way. ]

Then, Lantaa, it seems that now is a good time to begin to get to know each other. [ He moves his hands then so that they are positioned on either side of her hips. He could move them up or down, depending upon his whims, but he decides to allow them to travel upwards, skimming against her hips and over her sides, taking in the feel of her and watching to see how she might react to his exploring touches. ]

[shepherdtostars]

[ Enough of who they are must have been present in all their lives for them to recongize each other again and again. That, at the core, is what she would wish to know. Just as he feels, she finds little that must be attractive of her in this life. However, it seems that he is attracted to her in this life as well. Even if a part of her wonders how he could be attracted to a Miqo'te who is far shorter than he is.

Her ears fall to a lazy state as she settles in his hold. The look remains in her gaze, despite the relaxed state the rest of her body has settled into for now. Her tail continues to sway, but slower, as the feeling once more settles into the odd floating sensation.

Until he moves his hands from her hips and over her sides.

A shiver over takes her as a soft sound of approval unintentionally leaves her. The tip of her tail flicks as well. She feels as if everywhere he touches has a trail of electricity that runs through her. She shifts her hips slightly in his lap to express her approval. ]

...what would you wish to know? [ Lantaa forces herself to speak the words. Falling quiet and allowing herself to stammer now will not benefit either of them. He could compell her to speak again, but, he trusted her to bring out his instincts. It would be unfair for her to not return the favor by speaking on her own.

She nods lazily as if it might show him she will do her best to answer any questions he might have.

I'll do what I can to give you anything you seek.

Oh, what to tell him? Perhaps how she had lived with Master Matoya and the elder student. There is also her familiar to explain. As surely one does not see a blue bird appear and disappear often. Perhaps the sorts of wishes she has granted--Estinie's included. The matter of how long she has been in the cave on her own comes to mind. Her favorite foods? At the moment there seems there could be endless possibilities of what she might tell him of her person. So many, many things... ]

[thewayforpeace]

[ For someone who has not known or experienced the kind of love and care that she offers, he is eager to take as much or as little as she chooses to give him, but beyond that, in his eyes, she is the most attractive person that he has ever laid eyes on. Perhaps he never could have predicted that events would take this turn, but he finds himself thinking that if she were standing in a crowd, his eyes would travel to her every time.

But all he wishes to do in this moment is feel her: feel every curve of her body, feel the way she responds to his touches, and even feel the way her heart beats and the blood pulses in her veins. He has to admit that he may well be imagining that he can feel those movements, but when he touches her, he feels small explosions beneath his fingers and the desire he has for her only grows by the minute.

What he wishes to know is how every inch of her feels and where she likes to be touched. But since it might not be to her liking to have his hands traveling wherever they wish, he decides that he had best redirect his thoughts to learning more of her as a person, learning of her likes and dislikes and how he might please her. ]

Tell me something that makes you happy.

[shepherdtostars]

[ Lantaa intends to give him as much love as she is able: as much as he needs. Despite the perception of others as to what the Witch of the Wilds must be like? Lantaa is a woman who only wishes to see that others are cared for. The nature of what she is certainly is a part of it, but, she finds she truly does love to see others have what it is they need in their lives.

Oh, but, she does enjoy his touch. She wishes that he would know her like none other will. While such things may be heightened by the feeling given to her by his bite? The yearning for him comes from deep in her heart and soul, just as her love for him does. Her head tilts to the side with his fingers moving the fabric at her skin and her breathing deepens.

What makes her happy? This. Him. ]

Caring for others... [ Her eyes half open with a teasing smile. ] You.

[ He may not appreciate or even enjoy what she is to do. Although, the only way to know is to try. Lantaa shifts her weight on his hips ever so slightly. She places hers directly over his, pressing herself to him. The motion is the only way she can think to encourage him touching her more. Of course, he might decide enough is enough and remove her. ]

[thewayforpeace]

[ But what of her needs? What of her wants and desires? His own clamor to be fulfilled, but after so long of diminishing himself and putting himself last, if only in his mind, it seems only right that he do what he can to meet her every need and want. Never mind that it seems as though he has already begun to do so. There is always more that can be done.

His hands continue their exploration, as he has not had the chance to feel another in such a way in a very long time. And then a desire to be touched in return arises, but he does his best to push that aside. He is a distasteful creature from his own perspective, and although she has not shied away from him, there is a part of him that still expects her to react with revulsion. ]

Well, I certainly do not require care like this- [ He gestures in the direction of the wound on his back. ] On a daily basis. But I could grow accustomed to having another around that I could care for. Although- I imagine I am not quite so skilled in the art of caring for another as you are. [ Given his relative isolation from others, that is. ]

L- [ He begins to say something, perhaps to ask how he might care for her and see that her needs are met, but then she positions herself in such a way that their hips are touching. What is more, she has shifted her weight and has begun to press herself against him. That surge of desire sweeps over him again, and he finds his hands tightening just slightly around her as if he needs the physical contact to ground him, or else he might be swept away.

Instinctively, he moves his own hips to meet hers so that they are truly pressed against each other. If there was any doubt that he liked this, well, it ought to have been dispelled. ]

Show me how to care for you, Lantaa. [ There is a certain sensual tone in his voice as he tests the waters by slowly rubbing his hips against hers, creating just the slightest bit of friction between them. ] Do you like to be touched like this?

[shepherdtostars]

[ Lantaa finds her needs and wants are very small and perhaps insignificant. A true home to call her own, someone to share her life with, and to no longer be afraid of being who and what she truly is. They are such basic things that anything else seems to be a gift or something precious. Touching her and even speaking to her the way he is? They are things she never thought was possible for her. Who would wish to love and care for her?

And, how is he anymore distasteful than she? He is still a Temple Knight, and to some degree accepted in his home. People came to her home to erase them from existence--just as the white mages they decended from. In her mind, she is truly unwanted by all in the world. Mayhap some relic or some cursed being that has no place. ]

You may be more skilled than me. I... I have not been able to care for any in a very long time. [ Her voice drops to an unexpected whisper. A habit, it seems, when she must say something that normally dhe may not be able to. ] Granting wishes and caring for someone... they aren't the same thing.

[ A sound akin to a squeak leaves her as his hands tighten at her sides. Then, he moves, and she feels as if the world has come to a stop. The logical side of her mind knows that the sudden sensual desire is brought on by sharing her blood, but her body seems to care little as to the why or how. Her heart is quick to agree, while the yearning from her soul seems to affirm that their behavior is quite normal. They have shared one another and been with one another countless times. How should this life different?

Yet, the logical side still protests at how any of this has come around. Perhaps everything is illogical because they exist outside the norm. There should be no standard to hold herself to if the world would rather her not exist. The opinion that does matter belongs to the man with his arms around her.

Everything swirls in her mind, round and round, thoughts compiling onto one another. Then, they stop. His tone catches her whole attention as his movements cause her whole person to shiver under his touch. Her heart beats faster as her eyes seem to glaze over slightly. No doubt it will set his darker instincs off.

A small moan leaves her at her first attempt to answer him. Then, she swallows the emotions in her throat to speak. ] Yes, I...

[ Her head leans forward to rest against his neck as she shivers. Another pleased deep moan comes from her as his hips continue to move. Hadn't she believed that she would wish him good-bye whe he had awoken...? Now they are... ]

[thewayforpeace]

[ He would say he, himself, is the insignificant one here. He barely knows her story in this lifetime and understands even less why she is so fearful, but it seems to him that all she needs to do is start over and make a new kind of life for herself that is free of everything that is seemingly holding her back. He does not know that she is a white mage, only that she is a witch, but he still feels compelled to do anything that is in his power to help her. The trajectory of his own life seems to have stagnated, at least in his opinion, so why not expend his energies attempting to assist another?

He is a Temple Knight, yes, but how far is that going to take him? What sort of life could one such as he have? Perhaps if he escorted her to another realm, or another city, even a village far from this place, she might be able to reinvent herself and begin anew in a place where none knows who she is or where she has come from. Perhaps that is what he should set his sights on for the time being. ]

I highly doubt that. I have not had much in the way of company and even less opportunity to care for another, except for other knights. And they hardly need care, unless they find themselves in danger. But that is the lot of a soldier and thus hardly unique. [ In his eyes, she is the unique one, something to be treasured and cared for, and that is, in part, what makes him so adamant about doing what he can for her. ]

I would wager that you with your granting wishes have been of far greater use than I, a mere rank and file soldier.

[ His own thoughts are spinning, and he can barely make sense of them, but in the midst of it all, one thought is clearer than the rest, and he realizes that he must tell it to her now before he loses his nerve. ]

Lantaa, I- [ He hesitates just briefly, but when he speaks again, it seems as though it is more than just Aymeric de Borel speaking, but the voices of all his past lives speaking with him, to say the one thing that perhaps some of them did not have the chance to. ] I believe that I... [ This is sheer foolishness, and yet he feels compelled in a different way to say what is on the tip of his tongue. ]

I care about you... [ No, that was not all he wished to say. He knows he must say it now or he may never voice these words. ] I love you.

[ They feel so very foreign to him, but he knows them to be true, just as he knows that he wishes to kiss her fully on the mouth. And since he is already following his instincts and his heart, he decides to take that step and do that very thing. ]