YGO PSL | ❝ i am not lying, i am just trying to find my way in to you. ❞

[guidingmoonlight]

( continued from yonder! )

[ Her other hand raises and gestures to the bed behind him. It had been a set of normal circumstances in getting ready to rest for the night. Even down to the fact she was dressed for bed. Unspoken, of course is how she misses his presence. It hardly matters in their current circumstances -- or at all. Pinning for one does none of them any good. Priorities and needs will always shift, and, Lunafreya has always believed those come before wants and desires.

Although she has been known to be young and naive in such ways.

Lunafreya shifts her gaze back to him in order to answer his next question. "Answer" that is. He has been able to understand her thus far at least.

Then, a change in the air.

Yugi appears beside Atem. He looks between Lunafreya and his partner. ]

Other Me? What's going on?

[ Lunafreya glances at the space where she feels the shift in the air. She turns back to surveying the room with one hand remaining on his shoulder to help her stay upright. A hand raises out beside her in order to try and summon her Trident. That, as it turns out, was the wrong decision to make. Her arm starts to shake as it feels sharp pricks make its way up her skin.

A soundless gasp leaves her at the sudden pain. In a sweeping moment, she crumbles back down to the ground where she had once stood.

Yugi's attention snaps to her as it sinks in that they're in her room. ]

Luna?!

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[ifthereiswill]

[ He watches as she tries to show him without speaking what she'd been doing before whatever's afflicting her happened, and he nods in understanding. She hadn't been doing anything unusual at all, so it makes even less sense that something like this could have happened to her.

But he doesn't have much time to ponder that before Yugi appears beside him. He turns to glance at his partner, obviously worried about Lunafreya and the situation and about what they might do to fix it. ]

I stopped by to talk with her, and I found her like this. [ He's about to say more, to explain that she can't speak and is in obviously bad shape, but he breaks himself off once he realizes she's attempting to move.

When she drops to the floor, and he hears Yugi's surprised gasp, before he even knows what he's doing, he crosses over to her and drops to the floor next to her. ]

What- [ He's about to ask what happened, but he stops himself, because it doesn't matter. What matters is helping her with whatever's going on. ]

I think that she should lie down.

[ He carefully places an arm over her shoulder and his hand goes to her side, intending to support her if she does move, but even then, he's not sure if that's the right decision either. ]

continuing the pre-holiday h/c ;~;

[guidingmoonlight]

[ No arguments or protests were made once Atem decided that sleep was necessary for the both of them. While the doubts still lingered in her mind that she would find any form of rest? She had long resolved to support him in his decisions until he could stand with the confidence in himself he once had. Now, as he has tasked himself with relieving her of her affliction? She truly has no place to argue or counter.

Sleep had found her after he drifted off. The reprieve does not last as long as one might have hoped it would. She is woken by a cold pain that travels up her spine and settles into her shoulder. No audible reaction is given, thanks to the lack of her voice, and she forces herself to shake no more than she already has. She would not wake Atem and cause him and the soul that anchors him more trouble than she has. Instead, Lunafreya simply pulls herself closer to him. Her face is once again hidden in his chest, and her arms unfold to wrap around him as carefully as she can without disturbing him. She lays there in his arms, unable to move much more thanks to the ice-cold pain. There is little else for her to do but to think and reflect on certain things.

What can she to do? They cannot clearly continue on as they have. Atem insists on finding a way to appease both her and Yugi. She would further insist that he does not need to do anything more than he has for her. He and Yugi have already done more for her than any other soul on this star. Asking for anything beyond such things feels as if she encroaches too much on them. How can she ask the two not spend time together so she might see her king? Even more so, how can she keep Atem (and therefore Yugi) here with her when their friends are guests in her home? Her intention of bringing them together for the season was so that they might bond and overcome the wounds and hurt that the trails of the Orichalcos God brought on them. Keeping the two away, regardless of it being due to her unknown illness, is far too much for her to ask. She would have them spend as much time in the fellowship of their friends... and spare her what little time remains.

That, however, is not the truth of what makes her heart ache. She has always been a person shrouded in loneliness. The halls of her family home were often dark and Lunafreya left to roam them. Not that she fears the darkness or lack of light. What she fears fears is not acting and losing everything. No, it is far more akin to simply not wishing to be left behind in the dark any longer. Her needs may be few, but she does have them. A need for intimacy is what drives her to reach out to the man whose borrowed arms she's wrapped in. If he is her king, then the girl desires to do for him as a queen - even a wife - might do for him.

Yet... how can she?

They both have wholeheartedly agreed one act they cannot pursue. It leaves the act of emotional intimacy, but, he had stated but hours before he could not open himself up to her. She understands why. In fact, she more than understands. That does not change the fact her heart is left aching deeply with a pain that acts as a distraction from the physical ones. He had not rejected her or turned her away, merely set a boundary neither can cross. What then, can she do for him that a queen and wife might? With such boundaries in place, how can she ask for what her lonely heart needs?

No solution she can think of feels adequate enough for all parties involved in their complicated circumstances. The only solution she can rest on is to suppress those needs. Lock them away and hide them so that none might see. That was how she was before she met the pair of duelists. None would see the struggles or tears the girl underneath the mask of the Oracle had. Returning, even if only a little, to that way of life may be the only solution. There would be no need to worry about impeding on Yugi's life or asking Atem for more than he is capable of. She knows neither of the young men would approve if they knew of her decision. But, what else can she do that is right by them...?

A few more silent tears roll down her cheeks as the night continues on with her thoughts to keep her company.

The thoughts have kept her so preoccupied she had yet to notice how the sun started to rise. It remains cold as the winter clouds have hidden the sun. The temperature itself has also started to drop as white flakes begin to drift down from the sky. Her cold hands make their way to find the edge of his shirt with every intention of slipping underneath to rest on his skin. However, she forces herself to stop at the line of his shirt.

In fact, she stills, as simply lays as she is with her face still hiding in his chest listening to his breathing. No, that's far enough. She will not ask for more than he has already given her. She has taken enough of his time and asked him to tempt enough boundaries. The tears that start to flow again from the needs in her heart she suppresses are ignored even as she attempts to pull everything back inside and lock it away.

She does not stir even as Pryna's barks suddenly echo in the room. Her white companion hops off the couch where she has slept diligently all night. A shake of her fur, and the pet is at one of the large windows. Her tail moves back and forth as she barks excitedly again.

It's snowing. ]