· CALL ME OUT (WINTER) ·

[hobbitholmes]

call me out
· winter 2020 ·

Neon on black top, there's gentle rain downtown.
The shadow pooling underneath me, as it follows on the ground.


❚ PICK A MUSE FROM HERE
❚ WRITE THE NAME IN THE SUBJECT
❚ SEPARATE SECTION FOR VOICE TESTING
❚ ___new cmo out in a few months

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sup bro, idk but this is what came to mind sooo

[forceshadowed]

[ Snap-hiss. Green lightsaber bright against the dark silhouette of the Jedi temple, Jane slashes at the air; tentatively at first, but soon the moves just spill out of her, flowing into a sequence she's practiced for years with her eyes closed. For a moment it feels as though she and the blade are one, that the weapon's an extension of herself, power channeling through the Corusca gem she's used as a focusing crystal instead of kyber... until she remembers how that same shaft of searing emerald light passed clean through Tenel Ka's arm, severing it above the elbow.

She stumbles as though she'd been shot, and for a few seconds she merely stands there, still as a statue, her heart racing with fear and dread, her mind with accusatory thoughts of what have you done, Jane? It had been an accident, of course, but it remained that she hadn't been fast enough, that she wasn't as good a duelist as people said she was, that she would make a terrible Jedi.

She straightens and deactivates her saber, the world around her growing dark as she sinks into it as though she could disappear. At 16 she's already taller than most of the girls in the academy, which has made it a little difficult to find a suitable sparring partner for her — and with her having just dismembered her most recent one, who would want to hang around her now? She's already said she's sorry, and she's spent the last several hours cycling through her guilt and self-loathing, but it doesn't seem to matter, no. ]

then we roll with it!

[heirofvader]

[ Ben stays back towards the entrance of the temple. Uncle Luke was doing as he would, training the younglings, or whoever he felt needed more attention. It usually left the two Skywalker-Solo's to their own devices. Both had inherited traits of their father as well as the strong connection to the Force that their mother had. It makes for... interesting things.

He rolls his lightsaber in his hand. ]

Having a hard time seeing things, Jane?

[forceshadowed]

Leave me alone.

[ It's not her usual quip, and it's not her usual tone of voice. It's also not usual for her to be alone, because she's either joined at the hip with Jaina or telling some dumb joke to their circle of friends. But there she is.

She sniffs. Stars, she's such a baby. ]

[heirofvader]

So, you are.

[ He remains where he is and quiets his hand. Jaina must have been off with their little possie as well. The Solo Kids, always causing an issue for Uncle Luke.

Even if Ben felt like was always overshadowed by the twins.

Ben takes a few steps forward after a moment and comes to stand beside her. Ben can be a baby too ]

Did they call your lightsaber ugly?

[forceshadowed]

[ Ben, overshadowed? Jane has the middle child syndrome, and she thinks all her siblings are better than her in some way — Ben with the Force, Jaina with piloting and at attracting all the boys' attention, Anakin with machines. She's just the weird kid who talks to animals.

She frowns at him, trying to look indignant but not really succeeding. ] It's not ugly. It's— it's just a lightsaber.

[ The very one that's just sliced someone's arm off, yeah. ]

[heirofvader]

Then what is worth crying over it?

[ He holds his hand out to see her lightsaber. It is probably crafted perfectly. No flaws, no issues with the crystal cracking. Unlike him--who can't seem to contain anything in the proper way. ]

Unless they called you ugly.

[forceshadowed]

[ She makes a face at him for the question, but hands over her lightsaber with only a little reluctance. Oh, it wasn't her weapon that had an issue, but she feels like it's her fault, anyway. ]

Haven't you heard? I hurt my friend with that. I cut off her arm with that.

[ She sounds angry, but that anger is only at herself. ]

[heirofvader]

[ Ah... well. It's certainly worth crying over. He rolls it over in his hand before looking back to her. ]

A lightsaber is a weapon, Jaisyn. It's meant to kill. If you're not prepared for that fact... then maybe it's a good thing you don't want to touch it.

[forceshadowed]

[ She... doesn't respond to that right away because she's just realized that she's not actually prepared for that. ]

I know it's a weapon. I just—

[ Yeah, he'll feel her deflate right then and there. ]

Must a weapon only be for killing?