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ᴘᴀᴜʟ ᴀᴛʀᴇɪᴅᴇs. | ᵏʷᶦˢᵃᵗᶻ ʰᵃᵈᵉʳᵃᶜʰ. ([personal profile] spicetrance) wrote in [community profile] synthneon2025-03-28 09:12 pm

name this stuff later after stream.

[ ⸻ꜰᴀᴛʜᴇʀ.

Eyes that are blue in their entirety--even the whites covered in color--stare at him. Young. Brunette. Sharp features. The eyes, he realizes then, are ancient. The fact they seem to glow seems to hardly matter at the realization of age in front of him. Time. Something inhuman and yet deeply human at the same time.

Paradox.

ɪᴛ ɪꜱ ᴅᴏɴᴇ, ꜰᴀᴛʜᴇʀ.

What is done?

The concept of this young-yet-old man calling him "father" doesn't strike him as old. Something deep inside him (in his bones) tells him that it is true. He is the father of the one before him.

Fingers curl in the grains below him. Sand. They sit facing one another. Crouched in the shifting ground. Sand that borders the small old set of stone inside the sprawling and looming cave. Shadows they cast wax and wane at a steady beating pace. Shadows pass over their faces but neither age visibly. Instead he can feel it passing over him. Time. Passing over both of them. That feeling inside tells him it is true as well.

ᴛʜᴇ ɢᴏʟᴅᴇɴ ᴘᴀᴛʜ ʜᴀꜱ ʙᴇᴇɴ ꜱᴇᴛ ɪɴ ᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴ. ʜᴜᴍᴀɴɪᴛʏ ᴄᴀɴɴᴏᴛ ꜱᴛᴏᴘ ɪᴛ.

A breath catches in his throat. A weight he realizes that has been crushing him begins to slide from his shoulders. Awe and wonder fill him. Respect. Amazement. Fear. Sadness. He feels the sorrow show on his face. His son merely smiles and shakes his head at the display of emotion. His son reaches out, young-yet-old hands encircle his own.

A burden of purpose you inherited from me.

The sensation of flaking is suddenly felt. As if shedding skin. He looks up once more into those ancient blue-in-blue eyes. The expression is obvious to his mind in a flash.

Dying.

His son is dying.

Layer by layer. Piece by piece. Moment by moment.

Sands shift underneath them once more. Shadows pass. His son's face shows in the light once more--tired. No, exhaustion. Loneliness. Relief. Sadness. Joy. Contentment. Longing for moments never lived that others could. His hands curl around his son's in that moment. ]


Son... [ His own voice sounds old to him as well. No, this IS my voice.


The young-yet-old man merely smiles once more.

ᴀ ᴜɴɪᴠᴇʀꜱᴇ ꜰᴜʟʟ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴜʀᴘʀɪꜱᴇꜱ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪꜱ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴜᴍᴀɴɪᴛʏ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ, ꜰᴀᴛʜᴇʀ. ʜᴜᴍᴀɴɪᴛʏ ɪꜱ ᴘᴀᴛᴛᴇʀɴꜱ. ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ɢᴏʟᴅᴇɴ ᴘᴀᴛʜ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴛᴡɪᴄᴇ ɪꜰ ᴍʏ ᴘᴇᴀᴄᴇ? ʜᴜᴍᴀɴɪᴛʏ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ. ᴄᴏɴɢʀᴇɢᴀᴛᴇ. ʙᴜɪʟᴅ. ᴛʜᴇɴ, ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴘᴜꜱʜ ꜰᴏʀᴡᴀʀᴅ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ. ᴏᴜʀ ɢᴇɴᴇᴛɪᴄꜱ ᴀʀᴇ ᴀ ᴘᴀᴛᴛᴇʀɴ, ᴀꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ, ꜰᴀᴛʜᴇʀ. ᴀ ʀᴏᴀᴅᴍᴀᴘ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅᴇʀꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ɪɴꜱᴘɪʀɪɴɢ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ. ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴇɴꜱᴜʀᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴏᴜʀ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅʟɪɴᴇ ʟɪᴠᴇꜱ ᴏɴ. ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀᴛᴛᴇʀɴ ᴏꜰ ᴏᴜʀ ɢᴇɴᴇᴛɪᴄꜱ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴏɴᴄᴇ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʙʀɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀᴡᴀʀᴅ ᴘʀᴇꜱɪᴇɴᴄᴇ. ꜱᴘɪᴄᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴇɴꜱᴜʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʀᴀᴅɪᴛɪᴏɴꜱ ᴏꜰ ɢᴇɴᴇᴛɪᴄ ᴍᴇᴍᴏʀʏ. ʏᴏᴜʀ ɢᴇɴᴇᴛɪᴄꜱ ᴡɪʟʟ ʀᴇᴘᴇᴀᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴍᴀʏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ. ᴀɴᴅ, ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ, ɪ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰɪɴᴅ ꜱᴏʟᴀᴄᴇ ɪɴ ᴋɴᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴇᴇɪɴɢ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴜɴɪᴠᴇʀꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ꜱᴜʀᴘʀɪꜱᴇꜱ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙʀɪɴɢ ᴀ ʜᴀᴘᴘɪɴᴇꜱꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴊᴏʏ ᴡᴇ ᴡᴇʀᴇ ᴅᴇɴɪᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ʀᴇᴠᴏᴋᴇᴅ.

His mind reels at the information and implications.

ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ, ꜰᴀᴛʜᴇʀ, ɪ ʜᴏᴘᴇ ᴡᴇ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴘʀᴏᴘᴇʀʟʏ ᴛʜɪꜱ ʟɪꜰᴇ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡɪʟʟ ꜰɪɴᴅ ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴅᴇɴɪᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀᴛᴛᴇʀɴꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴏᴜʀ ɢᴇɴᴇᴛɪᴄ ᴄᴏᴅᴇ ᴡᴏᴠᴇɴ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴄᴇɴᴛᴜʀɪᴇꜱ ʙʏ ᴛʜᴏꜱᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴀʀᴇʟʏ ꜱᴇᴇ.

ᴍʏ ɢɪꜰᴛ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ, ꜰᴀᴛʜᴇʀ.


Another shadow passes over them.

The light returns.

The young-yet-old has disappeared as sand in the wind. All that remains in his place are worms crawling into the sand. Stillness fills the cave. Unbelievable and unbearable sorrow. Cheers fills his mind and senses. Elation. The God is dead!, they cry out. Jubilation. Wonder. Possibilities. Exploration. The coming together. The parting. The whispers of threads beyond the known. All of these pass through him and all that fills him is the sense of loss. The price paid for it all. A price he refused to pay and another paid instead.

Eyes open to stare at the hole above in the cave.

Then, a light. Brighter than the sun comes towards him. Eyes widen in sudden fear. There is no where to run, nowhere to hide. The heavens fall, the sky burns, then light engulfs him. Horror.

The worms are dead.

He gasps, jerks in bed, then stills at the ceiling above him.

Familiar and not familiar.

He stares at the ceiling as it a settles. The storm rages beyond the room. Wind and rain hitting the window. Rain. Water so scarce it was a currency within its own. Deserts. Dunes. His eyes close as memories of one particular person fill him. Brunette hair that tumbled down like water, an assured presence and knowing. Pride on her own talents and capabilities. She stayed by him when none would. His love, the one he cherished more than any other. One of two moons in the desert night sky.

His eyes close.

Our son is dead... and our daughter long before him. They've gone to the stars with you.

Reflection takes hold. Settling of memories. There is no adjustment to lives or reconciliation. He is Paul Maud'dib Atreides, once Paddash Emperor of the Known Universe. His name may be different now, but, it feels as if he has been asleep the entirety of this life. That he has awoken from a deep slumber and everything of this life had been a dream. A long continous dream. Now, he is awake, in a younger body. One that reminds him of when he first went to Arrakis. Yet, the memories are still his own as well.

Paolo Atreides pushes himself to sit up into his bed. He simply sits there with the low amber lights awakening to detect his presence. Moments pass that he has not tracked even with his Mentat capabilities reawakened. The feeling of pointlessness dares to cripple him. He cannot fall to the feeling once more and squander the chance his son had given him. There had been enough disappoints from the man once called Maud'dib. ]
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[personal profile] battlemeditation 2025-04-01 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ Everything is a blur: a blur of sound, light, color, noise. It is enough to make Fortis want to cover her ears and close her eyes to block all of it out. Except... she finds herself unable to move. Perhaps the dream won't allow her to move. Perhaps something else is stopping her from moving. Perhaps it is simply the state of sleep that leaves her frozen in her bed.

... Is she in her bed? Recollection seems to be eluding her as the dream surrounds her.

But is this a dream, or is it a nightmare? She finds that when she tries to focus on one part of the dream, to identify what she is looking at, a wall of sand blows in front of her, obscuring her vision.

What is happening?

Suddenly, from out of nowhere, a flash of red seems to fly out of... somewhere, and in the dream, Fortis feels herself scream. Does she scream in the real world too? She isn't sure. She isn't even sure what is happening, but she is struck by a deep and great sense of loss. There is a feeling of saying a reluctant farewell and the feeling of being forced apart... forced away from someone before she was ready.

Who is it? Who are you?

REMEMBER...

A voice booms and echoes around Fortis and again she wants to clap her hands over her ears. The voice is both recognizable and unrecognizable and seems to be two voices speaking as one. She knows the voices, knows their tones, but she can't bring their names to mind.

Remember what?

She demands an answer from the mysterious voices, but no answer comes. The dream seems to be disappearing, but the echo of the voices telling her to remember keeps sounding, echoing and swirling around her even as she feels herself beginning to stir, sleep falling away. ]


-wake up, it is time to meet-

[ Fortis stirs more on the bed as another voice breaks through her still-sleeping mind. As she begins to rouse, she begins to remember what day today is, and what event awaits her.

Today is the day that she meets her intended, and they become married. Her eyes slowly open, but she does not rise from the bed yet; instead, she stares up at the ceiling above her, trying to recall what she can from her dream.

She is supposed to remember something or someone, and although she can't quite figure out who, there is a greater, deeper feeling that tells her she already knows this someone. Whoever they are, they are important to her, and she is important to them. It is of great importance that they meet. She is not sure how she knows that, but some lingering feeling from the dream tells her that is how it is.

With that thought in mind, she sits up on the bed, and after a moment, she moves to stand so that she might see to getting dressed and tending to her hair and to whatever else is needed so that she might be presentable for the meeting still ahead of her.

The next hour passes quickly, as she is dressed and fed and her hair styled and some small pieces of jewelry placed strategically so as to catch the eye but not to distract. That will come later, or so she is told. She has to stop herself from making a face of dislike, because she really does not like being weighed down by fancy clothes and jewels, but some occasions call for it. This is one of those situations, and her protests will do no good at all.

Finally, the hour is upon her, as she is told, and she is escorted down a series of hallways by her parents until they reach a room. The person she is to meet is in this room, but it is not as simple as opening the door and walking inside. She must be introduced... presented.

Part of her rebels against that. She is not some piece of meat to be presented for dinner, but propriety is propriety.

As she is announced, she thinks back to the dream and to the jumbled up mess of images and sensations that it brought. What does it mean?

Suddenly, she feels a sharp elbow jabbing her in the side, and she comes back to the present with a jolt. Instinctively, she sinks into something that is a cross between a bow and a curtsy, a practiced movement that only became so because of many repetitions until she (reluctantly) perfected it.

Once she is in position, she remains there as she has been told, waiting for the words that say her gesture has been received and accepted, and she may resume standing normally once more. ]
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[personal profile] battlemeditation 2025-04-06 04:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ To Fortis and her family, this arrangement is for their benefit and the benefit of their house, although theirs is considerably lesser in stature than most, and certainly not nearly as significant as House Atreides. Still, the two houses stand to gain from this union, even if, as far as Fortis knows, House Atreides is still more favored in social circles.

She has resolved that her duty in all this is to play the role of dutiful daughter, doing what must be done in the interest of helping her family. And, well, she would be lying if she said that the idea of marrying someone has always excited her. Perhaps this union is not going in ways she would have chosen for herself, but there is still no pretending she does not feel the slightest bit of girlish nerves when she thinks about meeting the man she is to marry.

And, taking into account the dream or vision that she has had, there is curiosity present as well. Perhaps this union will become more than one that started as an arrangement and turn into something more.

She remains in her curtsy for a few seconds more, before she slowly rises once she sees Duke Atreides glance her way before gesturing to his son. ]


It is a great honor to meet you and your family, my Lord. [ Proper greetings must be exchanged, and so Fortis sees to that before she allows herself to glance at Paolo. She is careful to not stare as that would be impolite, but she finds herself unable to look away once her gaze lands on him, as if some force is drawing her gaze and keeping it there.

If she is not careful, she worries that she will find herself accused of being ill-mannered for staring too long. ]


It is an honor to meet you as well. [ She adds by way of properly addressing the Duke's son. ]
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[personal profile] battlemeditation 2025-04-11 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ Despite Fortis's best efforts to keep her posture and her expression composed, the swirling memories in her mind are making it difficult to do so. She remembers fragments and pieces of events that happened in the past, and she is doing her best to reconcile them with the present events unfolding in front of her now. She remembers the turns that Paul Atreides had to take on his path, and the turns that she took as she followed him on that path.

Not every moment that they had together was a happy one, but she remembers thinking that the point of all this was simply being together. And they were together, until circumstances roughly forced them apart.

If this moment were different, she would step closer to Paolo, take his hands in hers, and pull him in for a hug, and perhaps for something more than a hug. Still, they are being observed, and proprieties must also be observed. To give into the attraction that she feels would be not proper at this present moment.

Still, she fixes her gaze on Paolo for the barest of moments, and she allows a look of unbridled emotion to slide into her gaze. Will he notice? She hopes so. The look is meant for him and no one else. ]


He is quite forgiven, my Lord. There is no offense taken. [ Taking chances and risking a lecture later, she once again looks at Paolo and smiles the smallest but warmest smile she can manage. ]

What did they require? [ She looks to the side, hesitating as if doing so will buy her time to pull out a letter that she was instructed to give to the Duke when she was presented to him. She hands the letter over to him and offers another small curtsy. ]
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[personal profile] battlemeditation 2025-04-14 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ For just a moment, Fortis's mind wanders. It is something she was often chastised for, being told that proper ladies did not drift off, especially not in the middle of a conversation. And even if no conversation was being held, it was hardly proper for a lady to become so lost in her thoughts that she became oblivious to the world around her. And yet, despite the best efforts of her mother (was it her mother, or someone else?) to remind her to remain in the moment, the habit never fully left her. It still remains with her even now, and this time, as her thoughts wander, they bring with them the image of a younger man: younger but appearing older because responsibilities and expectations have made it so.

What was his name? Not Paolo... Paul. Paul Atreides. And I loved him. I love him.

The thought comes to mind almost on its own, but Fortis does not push it away as something unwanted. She wants it. She wants Paul- Paolo.

For now, however, she waits while the Duke reads the letter, and then informs his son of what will happen with the ceremony. A part of her wishes to put her hands on her hips and state that she will be attending the ceremony because she wants to be there; but the part of her that has been taught will not allow her to break protocol so brazenly. Still, if she has a moment to speak with her parents, she knows exactly what she will tell them.

After a brief pause, she manages to find a conciliatory tone when she says: ]
I am sure that I will be expected to attend, but I shall find out more once they arrive and we have had a chance to talk.

As for the training I have received... [ She has the list fairly well memorized by this point. ] Control of one's thoughts, emotions, and words. To observe one's environment and the actions of people and things within that environment. In a word, discipline.

[ And it goes beyond mere discipline too, but to properly explain all of it would take hours, and she is certain that the Duke does not wish to hear all of it. ]

I can provide more detail if you wish to hear it, my Lord.

[ Although truthfully, recounting her training to anyone is the last thing she wishes to do. ]
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[personal profile] battlemeditation 2025-04-18 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ Fortis had wrestled with herself about what to do for many long minutes; it may very well have even been an hour. She argued with herself just as many times as she convinced herself that the thing to do here was to request to have a meeting with Paolos: alone, just the two of them. Well, perhaps attendants standing by unseen, but certainly no parents who might intervene either with words or simply with their presence.

Still, she wondered if intruding upon his privacy was something he did not want. They were to be married, of course, but what if he did not wish to become better acquainted? What if his intention was to only take a concubine and not a wife?

Of course she knew that such a thing was possible; in a world where moves and countermoves still very much had their purpose, Fortis knew that romantic dreams had little place there. Still, she had dreams of being swept off her feet by someone- by the right someone, but there was nothing saying that that someone was Paolos.

Even so, she found herself growing restless in the quarters that had been assigned to her, and she found her steps wandering until... she found herself outside Paolos' room. This was not something she had done on purpose, as she had no intention of inserting herself into his quarters like some brazen woman with no manners. But before she could make her escape, she very nearly walked right into the housekeeper Lanta.

To Fortis's embarrassment, Lanta deduced what was going on with just a look at Fortis and another look at the door, and without hesitation, she knocked. Fortis felt as though she could sink right into the ground and disappear, if only it would open up and take her down with it. But no such thing happened, and she found herself forced to stand there while the housekeeper and Paolos exchange a few words.

She contemplates trying to make her escape, but before she can, Lanta holds the door open and motions for her to enter. Well, there's nothing else she can do now but enter and hope for the best.

She enters the room and drops into a low curtsy of respect. ]


I apologize for the intrusion, I- I was only passing by, I did not mean to interrupt.