Okay, so say that you're right. Say that there's always a choice, that what I do still matters. What if I fight the story and it still has the upper hand?

[ He feels powerless to do much of anything, in spite of what Jesse might say or would have him believe. ]

What if I decide to fight and it fights back? It's going to fight back, and I don't know if I can do anything to stop it.

[ He can't seem to stop doubting himself, and he knows that's going to be a problem. He can't fight the story if he doesn't believe that he can do it. ]

Okay. You read the story, that's good. And- And I think I'm remembering a little more now, so that's good too, isn't it? The handwritten parts... that's me fighting the story. Trying to change it, because I wouldn't write this. The story that I'd write wouldn't be like this at all. Yes, that's right.

I was trying to write it how I'd do it, but since it's already written, I had to go along with it, only changing bits and pieces of it.

... That's still what I have to do, isn't it? [ He knows the answer, but he needs to ask for confirmation too. ]