[ The sudden shift in Jesse's demeanor elicits a reaction from Alan almost immediately. His hands clench into fists and he has to fight to stop himself from recoiling and curling inward on himself; as it is, his shoulders hunch and his gaze slides away again. ]
... Not on purpose. Why would I let it in on purpose, knowing what it's like? Knowing what it wants.
[ Maybe this is the crux of the matter, the real reason why he feels like the FBI let him off lightly. The FBC seems to be doing the same, more or less. If the Dark Presence gets into their reality and takes over, won't it be his fault? ]
I don't know everything about what it did, but when I... when I woke up, or whatever you want to call it, there were pages I know I didn't write. The Dark Presence took control, it took me over, and it wrote a story I wouldn't have written.
... What if it comes back? What if it controls me again? That's why you and the FBI and any one else shouldn't bother with anything but getting the answers you need. I'll give you the answers, and then-
[ What? Lock me up? That's not going to help if it controls me again. I can't say what will happen then, but I know it won't be good. ]
Of course I'm willing to, but I think it has to be soon. It has to be fast, in case the Dark Presence can overpower me again. Can your abilities delay it long enough for people to escape?
[ He does accept that there are abilities; it boggles his mind, but he can accept it. He can believe it. He can even believe that maybe he has some abilities of his own. Maybe he's always suspected it. But he doesn't see how his own abilities will save him from the mess that he's in. ]
... Do they? Don't you treat suspects with suspicion? [ Of course he knows she'll notice how he didn't say anything about the witness part. ]
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... Not on purpose. Why would I let it in on purpose, knowing what it's like? Knowing what it wants.
[ Maybe this is the crux of the matter, the real reason why he feels like the FBI let him off lightly. The FBC seems to be doing the same, more or less. If the Dark Presence gets into their reality and takes over, won't it be his fault? ]
I don't know everything about what it did, but when I... when I woke up, or whatever you want to call it, there were pages I know I didn't write. The Dark Presence took control, it took me over, and it wrote a story I wouldn't have written.
... What if it comes back? What if it controls me again? That's why you and the FBI and any one else shouldn't bother with anything but getting the answers you need. I'll give you the answers, and then-
[ What? Lock me up? That's not going to help if it controls me again. I can't say what will happen then, but I know it won't be good. ]
Of course I'm willing to, but I think it has to be soon. It has to be fast, in case the Dark Presence can overpower me again. Can your abilities delay it long enough for people to escape?
[ He does accept that there are abilities; it boggles his mind, but he can accept it. He can believe it. He can even believe that maybe he has some abilities of his own. Maybe he's always suspected it. But he doesn't see how his own abilities will save him from the mess that he's in. ]
... Do they? Don't you treat suspects with suspicion? [ Of course he knows she'll notice how he didn't say anything about the witness part. ]