[ As they make their way down the street past the storefronts, Alan finds himself having to try his different methods to stay grounded: pinching his wrist, breathing through his nose... It's not that this is hard for him; sometimes his mind still has random brief flashbacks even now, and all he wants to do is just be in the moment.

Jesse deserves that much. Hell, he's starting to finally accept that he deserves that much too. ]

Before you tell me it's our apartment, it was your apartment first. If all you're okay with is a tree, I'm okay with that too.

[ In other words, if she doesn't want to go nuts with decorations, Alan won't. He's not sure he really wants that anyway. ]