[ Alan wants to hold her gaze, to keep looking at her and holding her and kissing her, but he can't seem to shake off the doubts that are trying their best to distract him from this moment they're sharing. Maybe part of him will always doubt his ability to make her happy, to give her everything she's been missing.
He loves her, and he wants to give her everything he can; if he could reach the moon, he'd give that to her too, as silly an idea as that is. He just can't make himself stop feeling as though all he does is let her down and disappoint her. ]
It's not about catching up. It's... It should be us doing this together.
[ He can slow himself down for her, so they can navigate this insane journey they're on together.
And then she asks what next step he wants to pursue, and he suddenly finds himself tongue-tied and suddenly uncertain if he should say what's on his mind. ]
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He loves her, and he wants to give her everything he can; if he could reach the moon, he'd give that to her too, as silly an idea as that is. He just can't make himself stop feeling as though all he does is let her down and disappoint her. ]
It's not about catching up. It's... It should be us doing this together.
[ He can slow himself down for her, so they can navigate this insane journey they're on together.
And then she asks what next step he wants to pursue, and he suddenly finds himself tongue-tied and suddenly uncertain if he should say what's on his mind. ]