[ Her hand tightens around his. In case he thought she was letting go of him or sending him away. That's not it. She just feels... inadequate. Failing in her duty as his partner, let alone being the Director. Alan will say otherwise, but Jesse knows that she is beyond her comfort zone when it comes to caring for him. It's something that she wants to keep pushing for his sake. She just can't look past how she keeps screwing everything up between them.

Her eyes lift to meet his. There's no anger or bitterness in her gaze. Not eve disappointment in him or his current state. Just the look of a continued apology for not being the sort of woman Alice Wake was--especially in being his partner. She's not an artist, she never another partner to trust. ]

We both know you can't force any of this, Alan. [ Her voice is gentle and in hushed tones. ] If you don't remember, then that's fine. It's okay. I just... wish I was better at any of this.

You fought to get back to our reality. You did everything you could to save as many people as you could. Maybe I'm the one who needs to do more to help you. I don't know what that it's, but, maybe it's because I'm not--[ she pauses and looks back down, ]--I'm not skilled at being a partner. Let alone being someone you would think to be with for the rest of your life.