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oceanview || ❝ two worlds colliding, there ain't no bargaining. ❞

OCEANVIEW PATHS

but we can leave our gilded cages.
Two worlds colliding
There ain't no bargaining
No giving in without a fight
CODE BY TESSISAMESS
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-07 04:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ That earns her a questioning look, although he's not looking too deeply into it either. ] Yeah? If you say so. I guess if you change your mind, I'm not going anywhere.

[ At least not yet. He can't sit here forever, but he's going to stay here as long as he can. He's not even sure why he chose this spot, other than the fact that it's a little out of the way and somewhat secluded. It's the quiet that he wants most, weirdly enough.

It won't be that quiet around him for very much longer, once "Return" drops and people start reading it. That is, if they read it and like it. That thought makes him clench his fists as he feels his nerves start to rise.

Maybe he shouldn't be nervous, but he can't help the reaction that's threatening to break what little calm he managed to find. ]


Thanks. It's- well, I hope people like it. If not, well, I guess there's always the next book. If there is a next book, anyway.

[ If there's any sort of hidden message in Elizabeth's words, Alan hasn't picked up on it yet. He offers her a half-smile and a nod. ] Nice to meet you, Elizabeth. You've obviously already figured out who I am.

[ She asks about Deerfest and he pauses to have a look around them. ]

Yeah, Deerfest is a big deal around here. It's one of those things that's worth checking out at least once. More than once, if you ask the people who do the planning. A lot of work does go into it, to be fair.
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[personal profile] tearings 2024-10-07 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
You live here, in Bright Falls? [ Elizabeth's head tilts back with a small "oh" attached to her statement.

Yes, he does. A house outside of town. Not the building that is the Valhalla Nursing Home. Another one that's not close to Cauldron Lake. ]
I thought you lived in New York City with your partner.

[ She doesn't mean Alice Wake. No, it seems the Master of Many Worlds and the Alan Wake that belongs to this time have both moved past Alice. A certain red headed woman that another man in this town was looking for comes to mind. Different in this time, but, still the same person at the core. Elizabeth knows her face. A local now and someone who could have been an artist. Someone still who ended up on the path of the Bureau, and that is how Elizabeth has met her. This version of Bright Falls is on edge when it comes to ... beings from other places.

Hence why she has a rather unstylish coat now. ]


Maybe you'll find the inspiration for another series. [ Her head tilts to the other side. ] You never know what the future has in store.

Will you be attending Deerfest this year, Mr. Wake?

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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-07 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
Okay. I- I've asked you to do so much for me already that I don't want to ask you to do more, but... [ His eyes lower once more even as he sees her shift and feels her gaze lock onto his. ] Can you help me with this? And then I won't ask you for more after that.

[ He just knows that if he was left to his own devices to find things that add his own personal touch to her apartment, he'd take hours to do it, and then at the end of it all, probably come home empty-handed.

He wouldn't be lying if he said that re-learning how to live is one of the hardest things about this. Living and surviving are two very different things, and Alan's realizing he's having to completely reframe his way of thinking and acting. ]


I know that, I do. I tried so hard to come home; we tried so hard to make it happen. I'm not leaving, I'm not going to disappear. I'm here and I'm staying here, but I forgot what it was like to live with someone else. To wake up to you every morning. [ I used to wake up to A- No, that's in the past now. I'm with Jesse now. ] I like waking up to you every morning.

[ A flash of that old determination of his has come up out of nowhere, and it seems to be stubbornly hanging on for the time being. ]

Clothes. Okay. I think I can manage clothes. [ Somehow. ]

And yeah, I know. I know you're right, I can't keep living like this. It's not living, is it? [ He shakes his head once, and then he adds: ] I'm sorry that I'm so bad at this. I'm really trying to get better.

[ And having said that, he makes himself lift the cup again and take another sip. The coffee's cooling off, but that doesn't bother him. ]
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-07 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, it's not what you'd expect, right? Alan Wake, author, living here in Bright Falls. [ He cracks a half-smirk at that, but there's a kind of fondness in his voice too. ] It might be a small town, but Bright Falls is home. [ He can't imagine leaving it, or the people there... or a certain specific person, even if things between them aren't as good as they could be. ]

New York City? What? [ He shakes his head at the thought of it. ] Too many people, too loud... People aren't happy living in cities. Small towns are where it's at.

[ That's what brought them here, after all, isn't it? At least, that's what he remembers when they settled on making Bright Falls their home. ]

Maybe I will. You wouldn't think it, looking at this place, but inspiration is everywhere if you know where to look. Or how to look. And you're right, you never know. I wouldn't want to know even if I could.

[ He taps his chin with one finger as if thinking that over. ] Maybe I will. Maybe I'll get inspired by something. What about you? You planning to check it out?
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[personal profile] tearings 2024-10-07 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
I wouldn't go so far as to say that. Maybe for some other Alan Wake, but not you. [ Elizabeth shrugs slightly as if the comment is made to make sense. It will, whenever he realizes that things aren't what he truly believes them to be. ] You moved here then from New York City... thirteen years ago?

[ She smiles sadly. ] I haven't had inspiration in some time. Things get... less lively the more you see of it all. Then, sometimes, you meet people that give life a new meaning. Like your.... girlfriend? [ A glance down at his hand to see if he has a wedding ring. ] Your partner is from here. Isn't she?

[ Elizabeth refrains from asking if his partner will be joining him at Deerfest. She can see where he refuses to go if she doesn't join him. An attempt at fixing something that is broken. Another echo, a constant, just reformed in a different way for this version of Alan Wake. Well, the one that should be here having the conversation with him. ]

If I am allowed to, [ A mysterious smile spreads across her face then, ] then maybe I will.

[ As if perfectly on queue, a jingle of keys is heard. She turns and looks to see the Sheriff of Bright Falls coming up to them. A knowing look is given to Tim Breaker. ]

"Oh... DeWitt," [ Tim pauses and looks at Alan. ] "And, Alan. Hey, man. I didn't know you were back in town. Guessing the interview went well?"

[ Elizabeth stands from the bench and begins to brush off her pleated skirt. ] If I make it to Deerfest, Mr. Wake, maybe I'll see you and your partner there.
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-07 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
I know, and I love you for it. It's more than anyone's ever done for me.

[ He looks up at her again, and this time, he's smiling. It's a wider smile than she may have seen from him before, and it reaches his eyes and forms crinkles on his face.

It's different than his other attempts at smiling, because this time? This time, he's actually happy. He may still have a long way to go, but right now, he's happy and content.

She squeezes his leg and his smile widens even further when he sees that wall come down and sees Jesse Faden looking back at him. She doesn't let that wall down for just anyone, so he considers himself incredibly fortunate that he's the one she's chosen to let in. All he wants is to make her as happy as she's made him, and he hopes that he's beginning to finally do that for her. ]


Existing. That's what it was like in the Dark Place too. I don't want to do that anymore. I want- I want to live. [ He probably doesn't even need to state that aloud, but it feels like it's important.

Then she stands up and he follows suit, quickly draining what's left of the coffee before he lets her lead him outside the shop. His lips turn up again when she takes his hand and her fingers slide in between his. They curl instantly against hers, twining themselves together in an interlocking pattern. ]


Okay, sounds good. [ He tries then to think about something he could get that would be theirs, and then from almost out of nowhere, it hits him... Except it's less of a hit and more of a brush against his mind. ]

Hey, you know those things they have that couples get sometimes? His and hers? Like a couple of matching keychains.

[ He knows she'll know what he's talking about. ]

What about something like that? Coffee mugs, or sweaters... I know it sounds stupid. [ She'll probably shoot it down, but it's worth a try, right? ]
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-07 08:18 am (UTC)(link)
"Some other Alan Wake"? What is this, more otherworldly, supernatural things we can't explain? [ He bristles a little bit, but he tries to keep his reaction from becoming too much... too overblown. Just because topics along those lines are prickly ones for him doesn't mean he gets to lash out whenever they come up, right?

He feels the slightest pinprick of guilt at that thought, but he pushes on ahead anyway. ]


As far as I'm concerned, I've always been here. Okay, I know that's not true, but it feels like that sometimes.

Maybe you've just been looking in the wrong places, or maybe it'll turn up when you least expect it. [ He offers her another half-smirk. ] Wife, actually. I still can't believe I get to call her that. I'm lucky she lets me stay with her.

[ Considering his "prickliness" and all... ]

What do you mean, if you're allowed to? [ He gives her a quick looking over, and then he notices the jacket he's wearing and a bell goes off in his mind. ] Work keeping you busy?

[ Speaking of work, there's that jingling of keys, and here comes the Sheriff. ]

As well as interviews go, yeah. Lots of questions about my "process" and my "inspiration", that kind of thing.

[ He watches Elizabeth stand up, recognizing that she's trying to make a polite exit, and he stands up in return to see her off. ] Well, we'll look for you there and hope to run into you.
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[personal profile] tearings 2024-10-07 09:43 am (UTC)(link)
Anything can be explained. [ Her hands to her hips. ] You just need to be willing to hear the science behind it.

[ The contention isn't hard to see. The Alan of this time is one who would have never encountered the Dark Presence--at least not to the point it would use him to write stories to free itself. He has had a relatively normal life, save for what his apparent wife would say otherwise. ]

Maybe in another life you have been here for all your life. Who really knows?

[ Elizabeth isn't saying.

She instead turns to join Tim. Her skirt sways as she walks, almost moving like ripples on an ocean. A lake. ]
Work? I suppose you could call it that.

"The usual. Well, you know everyone is going to be tuning in town to watch it tonight. Except maybe you... I'm guessing you don't really like watching yourself." [ Tim chuckles. ] "Anyways, I saw the wife back at the diner. She'll probably figure out you're back soon. Sorry for interrupting, but, I need to take Miss DeWitt back to base. I'll catch you tomorrow, Alan."

[ Elizabeth half turns to look at Alan once more. ] When you're ready, Alan, you'll come find me at Deerfest. I'll see you then.

[ Tim sends an uneasy glance at Elizabeth before shaking his head. Her skirt continues to ripple as they walk off. Although, one can overhear Tim saying something like "You know they get antsy when you show up without checking in..."

The sun continues to hang and birds chirp. ]
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-07 04:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The look he gives her is a pointed one, with some indeterminable emotion blazing in his eyes; it came on suddenly before Alan was even really aware of it, but he knows without a doubt that he wouldn't be here if Jesse hadn't been there along the way. ]

Maybe not? [ He shakes his head in almost disbelief. ] You saved me, Jesse. [ Maybe not in the usual sense of the word, but Alan's resolute in his belief that Jesse was instrumental in getting him back here. Sure, he had help from others and he's grateful to them, but it's her that he's choosing to focus on. ]

Only "fine"? We should find something that you want too. [ If only I could find the keychain... it has to be here somewhere; I wouldn't lose it, not that. Unless the Dark Presence took it from me. No, I need to go looking again. ]

If there's something that you want, we should try to find it. [ The way her eyes have darted down without quite concealing that vulnerability in her gaze and the way she squeezes his hand tells him that there's something more... something she wants more than a couple of silly his and hers mugs. But what is it? ]

We'll find it while we're looking around. [ That is, if his usual intuition when it comes to her kicks in. ]
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-08 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ Alan quiets for a moment as Jesse's words wash over him. He's drifting in his thoughts but not washing away, although flashes of memories are resurfacing: standing with Alice as the sunrises, waiting inside a room in the sheriff's station, and... standing by a wall with his ear pressed to the surface as if listening intently for something.

No, he knows that he had help along the way, more people than he could ever hope to count or even name. But Jesse saved him; she came when he called out to her, and she helped him when he wasn't able to help himself. He does love her, and he knows he'll never stop loving her, no matter what obstacles they still have to navigate.

Her gaze seems to fall, and he feels a sense of worry grip him, wondering what's on her mind. It must be his fault, because of his inability to do more than just float along, just existing and not living. She said he shouldn't push himself, but he can't see what else he can do. He has to do something. ]


But it's not enough, is it? You want more, and you deserve more. I should be giving you more.

[ If only he felt more settled. If only he felt like he was really living again. Then, it wouldn't be difficult at all to just walk into a store and find a set of rings for both of them. He'd marry her in a second with no hesitation at all, if not for the fact that he's still trying to ground himself. He's still trying to just live. ]

All right. And after we've done that, we'll find something for you too. [ Something for both of them, if it all goes well. It has to go well. It's gone wrong too many times already, and that has to change now. ]

So, where to now? [ He's realizing he doesn't actually know where anything is around here anymore; things change after thirteen years, and the places Alan might have shopped at before may not even still be around. ]
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-10 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
Now you sound like her. [ Alan's expression seems to darken and a look of exasperated doubt slides into place. ] I've heard this before, or versions of it, and it doesn't change my mind.

[ He just stares at her then, wondering what she's talking about and why it is that everyone around him seems to believe in things like "other lives" and being able to explain what he sees as the unexplainable.

Maybe he's not meant to understand. Maybe people like Elizabeth and Beth and others like them are just too different for him to really understand. Nothing about that thought makes him happy, but he doesn't let that show on his face. ]


Yeah, everyone is. I'll probably have people wanting autographs or something. [ He shakes his head and pretends to roll his eyes. He doesn't begrudge anyone their interest in him or his writing, but he still finds himself surprised that people even like it. And, well, he'd be lying if he said he wasn't incredibly nervous about this latest book.

A part of him wants to ask if he can tag along with Tim, but he'd just get in the way. He's a writer, not a sheriff or whatever it is that Elizabeth does.

He just nods and waves the two of them off, and once they're gone, he just stands there for another minute as if trying to figure out what he should do. Tim had said he saw Beth at the diner, and like he said, she'll probably figure it out that he's back.

There is a part of him that does want to see her, and that's the part that makes the trek over to the diner. Once there, he pushes open the door, and the bell on the doorframe jingles as he steps inside and takes a look around. ]
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-12 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She says his name sharply and he doesn't quite manage to stop the flinch reaction or the way he instantly looks down at the ground. He knows he started looping again, getting lost in his own worries and fears, but it happens automatically and by the time he realizes he's caught in a loop again, it's too late to call back anything he's said. Maybe he'll never get past this, but he wants to. He wants the looping to stop, to happen less and less often, but so far, that has yet to happen. ]

Okay, I'm sorry. Again. [ He wants to shake his head and scrub his eyes as if that will stop himself from spiraling out, but at least for now, nothing seems to help. ]

It doesn't look too different from what I remember from before. [ His lips turn up into a half smile. ] It's normal, nothing too out there. I guess I thought that thirteen years later, people would have gone a little wild.

[ But what does he know? He's certainly not some fashion expert. Maybe it's good that things haven't changed too much, although that still doesn't clear it up for Alan just what he should choose. Part of him just wants to point at something and pick that, because he just doesn't know where to start.

He starts to walk around the shop, looking at the different things they have for sale, trying to stop himself from thinking about how much this might cost and how much Jesse wants to spend. Then he spots some flannel shirts in different colors, and after a moment's hesitation, he walks over to look at them. ]
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-12 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi, Rose. [ Alan smiles in return, although it's not nearly as effusive or wide as the one she's giving him, but he does wave back. She's always been nice to him even if she's sometimes a little overbearing with her admiration. Still, he knows he wouldn't be where he is without fans like her, so he gives her the appreciation he feels she deserves. ]

Busy day today? [ His gaze travels briefly over and settles on Jesse, and some details stand out to him as odd, but he doesn't comment on them right now. Even when she's just sitting there, she manages to pull his attention and his focus. It's just the effect she has on him whether she realizes it or not. ]

Paperwork for things. Got it. [ He figures it's something related to Beth's work, and so he doesn't pry. It's probably classified information anyway. Rose prattles on about the paperwork and not wanting to keep Beth, and then she mentions the interview and the book. ]

I hope you enjoy it: the interview and the book. [ He really does mean that; he feels like he's not naturally good at giving interviews, but he can slide into a persona that's at least a little engaging and responsive. It seems to work for him, anyway.

Again his gaze shifts when Beth stands up and walks over to him. He doesn't miss the slight limp in her step, but that flies right out of his mind when he feels her hand latch onto his wrist and she starts practically dragging him from the diner. He waves at Rose with his other hand and then he's pulled out the door. ]


... What do you mean, I'm not Alan? [ He immediately looks confused as soon as he registers Beth's words and the look she's giving him. ]
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pretend I didn't slip Jesse in there instead of Beth (and in the discord rp too, shh)

[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-13 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ Alan only feels his confusion grow; he doesn't understand a thing about what's going on here. He's Alan Wake, married to Beth. They've been married for awhile now, right? He hates that he even has to ask that question, but it's almost as though something is trying to insert other memories that don't belong to him into his mind.

... Or do they belong to him after all? ]


Why do you keep saying that? If I'm not the Alan who married you, then who am I? What is this, some kind of test? Or is this something... Something else?

[ He's certain she'll know what he means by "something else". ]

I'm Alan Wake. That's who I am; that's always been who I am.
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[personal profile] crazyisinevitable 2024-10-13 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ He said he wants to live, and he does, but there's still a part of him that doesn't remember how to do that yet. This is going to help, because it has to, but he finds himself still at a loss about how to do something as simple as picking out clothes.

At least the flannel shirts are something familiar, and they're comfortable too. He scans the different options, looking at the different colors, and then he spots the price tag.

He looks over his shoulder at Jesse as if wondering if this is really okay with her. Maybe since the clothes are for him, he should see about getting money from his own accounts to pay for things. That's another thing he needs to have settled. ]


What do you think about those?

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