I guess what I have to do is just... just believe you. I can't see it, because it won't let me. It won't let me feel anything but what it wants. [ Horror. Exhaustion. Fear. Nothing good like a certainty of being real. A certainty of anything. ] I don't really know how, because it's hiding that too, but I know you wouldn't lie to me.
[ His words and the thoughts in his mind and the feelings he's having seem to wrestle with each other, and it takes some work to just focus on Jesse's words and try to accept them as truth. ]
It's great that they talk about that stuff still, but the Alan Wake from back then is different from the Alan Wake now. [ I don't even know who he is, not really. ]
Even if I don't really know who I am, would you still welcome me back? [ It's made me forget everything about her. But I'll remember. I have to.
He feels her pulling on him, trying to pull him out of the waves and back onto land. Is he on the shore of Cauldron Lake, or is he dangling off the ledge that he used to dive in, in the first place? Maybe it's a bit of both.
But with the awakening of the light inside his mind, Alan feels ground beneath him again. It's solid, and it's real. Jesse's real. Her hands on him are real. The way he begins to shake with emotion is real. ]
I didn't think it would work. That anything would work. If the story's making me forget, how could I remember something that's not in it? It still feels too good to be true, that the two of you are helping me remember. But...
[ If Jesse and her guide are bending the story, then that means that the eye of the Darkness will be on them both, if it's not already. ]
You know you won't be safe if the Dark Presence sees you. [ He feels her fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt, and he leans into that touch in spite of himself. ] It will see you, and- I don't know what it will do.
[ But the part of Alan that loves her and always misses her, no matter how much the story tries to make him forget her, isn't thinking about that. The risk is there, as is the chance of punishment. But Alan's mind is on something else. ]
I always want us to be in the loops. I always want to be with you. But... is indulging my own selfishness worth putting you at risk? [ Maybe that is where they will always disagree. But that's not relevant at the moment. ]
I'm home because of you. Because you brought me here. Woke me up. [ And this time, I want to stay that way as long as possible. Forever, if I can. I'm tired, and just lying down and stopping feels so tempting sometimes, but I can't, can I? Not even if she's here. Am I any closer than I was before? Are we getting closer to the ending? I can't even tell. ] How... how many times are we going to do this?
[ He hasn't yet realized that with statements like that, he's saying he believes her. The story forces him to forget details, things he's done, things he's learned... there's always that feeling of having done something like this before, though, and it's that feeling, maybe helped along by Jesse, that's making him believe her. ]
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[ His words and the thoughts in his mind and the feelings he's having seem to wrestle with each other, and it takes some work to just focus on Jesse's words and try to accept them as truth. ]
It's great that they talk about that stuff still, but the Alan Wake from back then is different from the Alan Wake now. [ I don't even know who he is, not really. ]
Even if I don't really know who I am, would you still welcome me back? [ It's made me forget everything about her. But I'll remember. I have to.
He feels her pulling on him, trying to pull him out of the waves and back onto land. Is he on the shore of Cauldron Lake, or is he dangling off the ledge that he used to dive in, in the first place? Maybe it's a bit of both.
But with the awakening of the light inside his mind, Alan feels ground beneath him again. It's solid, and it's real. Jesse's real. Her hands on him are real. The way he begins to shake with emotion is real. ]
I didn't think it would work. That anything would work. If the story's making me forget, how could I remember something that's not in it? It still feels too good to be true, that the two of you are helping me remember. But...
[ If Jesse and her guide are bending the story, then that means that the eye of the Darkness will be on them both, if it's not already. ]
You know you won't be safe if the Dark Presence sees you. [ He feels her fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt, and he leans into that touch in spite of himself. ] It will see you, and- I don't know what it will do.
[ But the part of Alan that loves her and always misses her, no matter how much the story tries to make him forget her, isn't thinking about that. The risk is there, as is the chance of punishment. But Alan's mind is on something else. ]
I always want us to be in the loops. I always want to be with you. But... is indulging my own selfishness worth putting you at risk? [ Maybe that is where they will always disagree. But that's not relevant at the moment. ]
I'm home because of you. Because you brought me here. Woke me up. [ And this time, I want to stay that way as long as possible. Forever, if I can. I'm tired, and just lying down and stopping feels so tempting sometimes, but I can't, can I? Not even if she's here. Am I any closer than I was before? Are we getting closer to the ending? I can't even tell. ] How... how many times are we going to do this?
[ He hasn't yet realized that with statements like that, he's saying he believes her. The story forces him to forget details, things he's done, things he's learned... there's always that feeling of having done something like this before, though, and it's that feeling, maybe helped along by Jesse, that's making him believe her. ]