[ There's something about this, this heated, passionate dance they're in; it makes Alan's head swim, but oddly, he feels more clear-headed than he can ever remember being. Jesse's movements are waking up sensations inside him that he hasn't felt in a long time, and he's determined to enjoy all of them while returning the favor to her. Even the adjustments they have to make to fit themselves in and against each other feel just right.
He closes his eyes for a handful of seconds, and as he does, what starts as a slow unfolding of light gradually turns into an explosion of light in his mind. Where is the light coming from? He can't really make sense of it, but maybe he doesn't have to. He feels a gentle pulsing hum, and when he tries to follow it to its source, it just seems to lead him to Jesse. Is all of this from her? From Polaris? Or... is the light coming from- That's crazy, isn't it?
But the light and the humming both seem to grow stronger and brighter the more he and Jesse touch each other, and to him, that has to mean that it's coming from both of them.
He doesn't pull back or break the contact between them, but when she pauses and buries her face into his neck and stays there, he stills too, tightening his arms around her and just holding her as the seconds pass. He's not in a hurry to end this, because once they do, the light will fade, the humming becoming less loud, and the darkness will sneak its way back in. ]
Together. We're together. [ Home. Except this isn't home. It feels like it is, when she's around, but I know it's not. Not yet. ]
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He closes his eyes for a handful of seconds, and as he does, what starts as a slow unfolding of light gradually turns into an explosion of light in his mind. Where is the light coming from? He can't really make sense of it, but maybe he doesn't have to. He feels a gentle pulsing hum, and when he tries to follow it to its source, it just seems to lead him to Jesse. Is all of this from her? From Polaris? Or... is the light coming from- That's crazy, isn't it?
But the light and the humming both seem to grow stronger and brighter the more he and Jesse touch each other, and to him, that has to mean that it's coming from both of them.
He doesn't pull back or break the contact between them, but when she pauses and buries her face into his neck and stays there, he stills too, tightening his arms around her and just holding her as the seconds pass. He's not in a hurry to end this, because once they do, the light will fade, the humming becoming less loud, and the darkness will sneak its way back in. ]
Together. We're together. [ Home. Except this isn't home. It feels like it is, when she's around, but I know it's not. Not yet. ]