[ For Alan, this place is bittersweet to be in. It's home for him and Alice, or it was before their relationship came to be on the rocks. It was here in this apartment that they made plans for their future together, both of them dreaming of the future and the life they were going to have.
He just stands where he is, hesitating because this really isn't his home anymore. The terms of their divorce are still being decided, but in his mind, he's already decided that Alice should get the apartment and he'll find somewhere else to live. Eventually, though, the temptation to wander through the apartment becomes something he can't ignore, but by then, he's no longer alone. Part of him wonders if he'll see Alice here, but another part of him figures that it's probably for the best if he doesn't see her right now. They might be civil but they might also start to fight again, and Alan doesn't like fighting with Alice. He never has.
He had a dream once that seems like foolishness now, a dream of being happy with Alice, the girl of his dreams, and having a family together. But he was a fool and he blew it, and now... he's staring down a path leading towards separation. But then again... he's found Jesse. Could he have a future with her? Should he dare to hope for such a thing?
Is the fact that she's somehow found him here a sign? Something tugs at his mind and his thoughts as if trying to draw his attention to something. What was he doing before this? Why does it feel as though something's missing from his thoughts? Why do I feel like I wasn't here 5 minutes ago? ]
Hey, Jesse. It is Jesse, right? I'm not- dreaming this, am I? [ That feeling that something about this isn't exactly what meets the eye grows stronger, even though Alan barely understands where that feeling is coming from. She sounds like Jesse, and looks like her, but she looks different too. Older. What the hell is happening here? ]
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He just stands where he is, hesitating because this really isn't his home anymore. The terms of their divorce are still being decided, but in his mind, he's already decided that Alice should get the apartment and he'll find somewhere else to live. Eventually, though, the temptation to wander through the apartment becomes something he can't ignore, but by then, he's no longer alone. Part of him wonders if he'll see Alice here, but another part of him figures that it's probably for the best if he doesn't see her right now. They might be civil but they might also start to fight again, and Alan doesn't like fighting with Alice. He never has.
He had a dream once that seems like foolishness now, a dream of being happy with Alice, the girl of his dreams, and having a family together. But he was a fool and he blew it, and now... he's staring down a path leading towards separation. But then again... he's found Jesse. Could he have a future with her? Should he dare to hope for such a thing?
Is the fact that she's somehow found him here a sign? Something tugs at his mind and his thoughts as if trying to draw his attention to something. What was he doing before this? Why does it feel as though something's missing from his thoughts? Why do I feel like I wasn't here 5 minutes ago? ]
Hey, Jesse. It is Jesse, right? I'm not- dreaming this, am I? [ That feeling that something about this isn't exactly what meets the eye grows stronger, even though Alan barely understands where that feeling is coming from. She sounds like Jesse, and looks like her, but she looks different too. Older. What the hell is happening here? ]