YGO PSL | ❝ i am not lying, i am just trying to find my way in to you. ❞

[guidingmoonlight]

( continued from yonder! )

[ Her other hand raises and gestures to the bed behind him. It had been a set of normal circumstances in getting ready to rest for the night. Even down to the fact she was dressed for bed. Unspoken, of course is how she misses his presence. It hardly matters in their current circumstances -- or at all. Pinning for one does none of them any good. Priorities and needs will always shift, and, Lunafreya has always believed those come before wants and desires.

Although she has been known to be young and naive in such ways.

Lunafreya shifts her gaze back to him in order to answer his next question. "Answer" that is. He has been able to understand her thus far at least.

Then, a change in the air.

Yugi appears beside Atem. He looks between Lunafreya and his partner. ]

Other Me? What's going on?

[ Lunafreya glances at the space where she feels the shift in the air. She turns back to surveying the room with one hand remaining on his shoulder to help her stay upright. A hand raises out beside her in order to try and summon her Trident. That, as it turns out, was the wrong decision to make. Her arm starts to shake as it feels sharp pricks make its way up her skin.

A soundless gasp leaves her at the sudden pain. In a sweeping moment, she crumbles back down to the ground where she had once stood.

Yugi's attention snaps to her as it sinks in that they're in her room. ]

Luna?!

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[ifthereiswill]

[ Although it's difficult for him to imagine, knowing that he wouldn't be able to do so, there's a part of him that knows he would follow her wherever her duties took her. Perhaps it isn't something that's allowed, but he can't imagine remaining behind while she went around the world helping whoever was in need of her assistance. Perhaps if their lives were different, if he could go off on his own without feeling like he's infringing on Yugi's right to his own life, then maybe he could do such a thing. It wouldn't be much of a sacrifice, not in his eyes, because there's nothing that he wants more than to remain with her.

But that life seems to be distant and all but impossible, at least if things remain the way they are now. And he sees no alternative presenting itself.

And neither does he see a way out of this current situation. He can't bring her voice back through sheer force of will, even though he wants to see her whole and recovered.

I should be doing more. There must be some way to- "Save you" is what comes to mind, but the situation isn't that dire. At least, as far as he knows, it isn't. He can't see a reason why she wouldn't be able to recover from this, and if there is such a reason, he doesn't want to even give it a second's thought. She'll be all right, because he can't accept a situation in which she won't be. There must be a way to heal you.

And even as he continues to try and offer what expressions of love and comfort that he can, his mind is spinning as he desperately tries to think of who he could ask for help or what he might to do see her returned to normal. ]

[guidingmoonlight]

[ Lunafreya would take him whenever and wherever if it were at all possible. There may have been rules and traditions before, but the world changes, and they must all adapt. No two Oracles are the same. Her grandmother may not have needed her grandfather as they worked together but separate, but Lunafreya has no shame in admitting to herself it would be easier if Atem could join her. However, she would not ask Yugi to be there simply so Atem would be able to. She is strong enough to weigh it on her own as she has.

She tilts her head at his words and how he "speaks" them. She has learned how to tell when his thoughts are slipping away. While his fall was far more drastic than this, several small things remain the same. Her hands guide his head up just a bit so she might look him in the eyes. The usual intense gaze is something softer and vulnerable now, but still direct and asking his full attention return to her.

You have done more than enough for me... more than I could ever hope for or deserve. A finger presses to his lips gently to allow her to finish. You have already saved me , my dear Pharaoh. You needn't do more.

He may have not said the words, but, she has an inclination based on the tone of his voice. It matters little that he is unable to restore her voice on his own. He has made a place for her in his life, and thus, saved her from losing her own wish inside the mantle of the Oracle. What little of Luna remains outside of her calling has been not only pulled from it, but held and protected. Losing her voice permanently would be a worthy trade for that in her mind.

One hand leaves his face to find his. She guides it along her side and down to her hip.

I'm certain that no one else could do for me what you have already done.

Despite strain, Lunafreya leans upwards just enough to press her forehead to his. Her eyes still remain locked with his. She guides his hand from her hip to the inside of her thigh, testing to see how far he wishes to take his affections.

Nothing else can be done tonight, Yami. Focus on us -- the fact that we are together again... however long it may last. ]

[ifthereiswill]

[ Trying to figure out a way to help isn't the only thing that's making his mind spin. At almost the same time, he's trying to work out a way in which he could travel with her that doesn't mean asking too much of Yugi. Of course, he knows there is no good way to achieve that, but that isn't stopping him from trying to find a solution.

There's nothing that he wants more than to be with her somehow, and although it might seem impossible, sometimes solutions just appear even when they aren't expected. For now, though, he resumes focusing on her and the way she asks him to return his attentions to her.

And yet I can't do the one thing that would really help you: find a way to restore your voice. He doesn't actually manage to complete that sentence before he finds her pressing a finger against his lips. You don't think I'm letting you down by not being able to help you with this? It seems clear that she doesn't think that, and of course, he shouldn't be asking for her reassurance, but the question slips out before he can stop it.

And little does he know what she's currently thinking, that it doesn't matter to her that he can't fix what's happened. He just sees this as another failure on his part, and that still feels unacceptable to him.

It isn't until she moves his hand down her side and to her hip that he pulls himself out of his own thoughts once more. Once his hand comes to a stop on the inside of her thigh, he lightly ghosts his fingers along the skin there, because of course he wants to plainly show his affections, even though his mind is still turning with thoughts about what to do and how he can help.

But then she speaks and he zeroes in on that once more. What if it turns out that we find a way to make it last forever? No, he doesn't want to give her false hope, but there's still a part of him that believes they'll find a way to achieve that somehow. ]

[guidingmoonlight]

[ Restoring my voice may not be the only thing that needs to be done, Lunafreya's gaze travels to the side for a brief moment. It could be that her lack of voice is merely a symptom of a greater affliction. However, she will not worry him more than he already is, and instead looks back at him at his question.

She smiles gently then. The question itself seems endearing in a way. A shake of her head is given as an answer. No, my dear. The only thing that you could ever do to let me down would be to stop doing your utmost to achieve what it is you truly desire deep within your heart.

Lunafreya knows he does all in his power to help those he cares for. He is a warrior and a king, not a healer with magic balms. She does not expect him to find a way to resolve what has happened to her -- when it most certainly is of her own doing. She never stopped, not even after Dartz had been put to rest. She went straight to her duties, feeling it best to pull away until Yugi or Atem called on her. She healed and saw to matters of politics where she was needed, hoping the red notebook she sent with Umbra might help them feel connected in some way. Even when she returned to Japan she continued her duties remotely, and helped those who might be in need in Domino. She supposes that her current state was bound to happen with how careless she had become in her duties. By trying to suppress the girl and what she wanted, she wore herself down.

The gentle smile remains even as a look of sadness takes her eyes. Forever. Such a simple but romantic notion. One that she is very aware has little application in the world -- even more so with their situation. Now, she stands by that they must find another solution to their relationship and not impeding on Yugi's life. Their previous decision has clearly only caused more harm than good, and, she can tell Yugi has never been fond of the distance they put between them.

Forever is quite the promise, is it not? She opts to go a more playful route despite the lingering tone in her "voice." You may not wish to have me at your side forever.

Her fingers brush along his before guiding them further down. She stops both their hands before breaching that last step and making sure her gaze locks to his. Would he wish to go that far? ]

[ifthereiswill]

[ Then I'll do whatever it takes to make you better. This might not be his fault, but he's more than willing to act as though it is, because as far as he's concerned, he's decided that it's also his duty to look after her and keep her as safe as he can. It's what he'd do for any one of his friends, but it's even more important that he does it for her as well.

What I desire is to see you completely recovered. And so that means he can't stop in his pursuit of ensuring that happens. If he does, then he truly will be letting her down, and he can't accept that.

It might seem like a trite notion, but if he has to scour the world to find someone who can use magic or other arts to heal her, then that's what he'll do. She might not expect him to go to such lengths, but he's already resolved to do what he must. And in a way, the fact that she pushed herself so hard in the first place is also his fault.

He should never have made her feel like she had to pull away from him, waiting for either him or Yugi to seek her out.

Of course it is, but there must be a way for us to achieve what we both want. It's just a matter of working with the hurdles that they have. But I know that I'll stay with you for as long as you'll have me.

As for the progress that their hands are making, he would go that far without hesitation, except it isn't just him that he has to think about. What would Yugi say if he knew what they did? It feels like nothing short of disrespect to even consider it.

And yet he decides to push the boundaries of that last step and place his hands just on the threshold of that boundary, intending it to be an intimate gesture that he hopes underlines his desire to go that far while still refraining out of respect for Yugi.

As his hands move, he keeps his eyes locked on hers, not bothering to conceal the intensity contained in them. ]

**aggressively writes this on lunch whatever >>**

[guidingmoonlight]

[ She does not protest his decision. Just as he has decided to care for her, she too had long decided that the wellbeing of both the Pharaoh and his vessel within her duty. Now, however, the pair are far more of a personal duty than that of the Oracle. Yugi is apart of her family in her eyes, and Atem is her king... and the man she would see herself spending the rest of her life with if circumstances allowed them such a thing.

Then, I should be a model patient. Lunafreya gives him a small, but, endearing smile. That you wouldn't need to worry so.

The hand remaining on the side of his face gently turns, allowing her to trail the back of her fingers down his jaw. As long as she'd have him? To match his sentiment, she would have him forever if only she could. The mixture of the love for who he is as a person and the ability of the Oracle to serve a king makes creates the feeling of fulfillment and happiness she never thought she would ever have. Perhaps that is why parting from him is causes the ache that it does.

I would have you with me always. She echoes his earlier statement. If we could be blessed with such a thing.

There is no doubt in her mind that she would still love him even once his memories returned. The core of who he is has surely remained the same. She could not see him being heartless or punishing those needlessly.

She holds his gaze as his hands finally cross the boundary. She holds nothing against him for his hesitation or pause. In her mind, it is only Atem who can decide how far they go or what they might do. He knows Yugi's heart, and thus what his partner would deem allowable by a shared body. While she has desires and they pull at her? She would not have them disrupt the trust between the two.

After all, the harmony of the two will always come first in her mind.

She intends to keep her eyes locked to his. Yet, as her body grows familiar with his touch, they flutter shut. She shifts under him, a restrained sound akin to a moan attempting to find its way out from the invisible fingers that grip her voice. Her own hands move to his hair, nails brushing along his scalp as fingers entwine in his hair.

She will only go as far as he wishes. Though, she can't help the shiver that takes her as she can still feel his intense gaze on her. ]

wraps this up for the next one :3

[ifthereiswill]

[ If you're anything less than completely well, how can I not worry? That is, he won't be able to properly relax or rest, even if he doesn't sleep, while she's in the state that she is. That notion just further spurs him on to find some way of setting her to rights once more.

As for him, what drew her to him and made him realize he loves her was her ability to be kind to just about everyone, even to those who were more than a little bit trying. It's her kindness, understanding, and patience that drew him in, and now he can't imagine a life without her in it. She wants to serve him, but he in turn wants to do the same for her, in whatever form that takes.

And if he has doubts about who or what he'll be when his memories return, those doubts are far from his mind at this time. All he can think about is her and the feel of her skin beneath his hands as they travel to places yet unvisited. He would go farther than this if he thought he could. Perhaps one day, they'll be able to step over the threshold and step into a new level of intimacy. For now, this will have to be enough.

He can feel the need to close his eyes and sleep for a time beginning to sweep over him, so it's with no small amount of reluctance that he shifts his position so that he's lying beside her rather than above her and moves one hand from its exploration to rest at her waist. To just lie here next to her is enough, even though part of him wishes to continue traveling down the intimate path they were on.

But, he reasons, she must be tired from her exertions, and it would hardly be kind of him to keep her awake if she wishes to rest. You must be getting tired. We can sleep anytime you want to. He says, wanting to know how she feels, her lack of voice and other problems aside. It won't take him long at all to drift off himself, if she says she's ready to call it a night. ]