inheritedpuzzle: ษชษดสœแด‡ส€ษชแด›แด‡แด…แด˜แดœแดขแดขสŸแด‡ | ๐™™๐™ค ๐™ฃ๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™ฉ๐™–๐™ ๐™š. (... ๐Ÿงฉ the pieces i can't put back.)
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YGO PSL | โ i forget why i stay, and wonder if they'd notice if i slipped away. โž

RAIN



( for once a post not continued from a meme!! we just continuing this hurt/comfort train down the way to hell. )

[ It was almost strange coming back home to Japan. It wasn't as if he had gotten used to being in America or their customs (or food - the size of the portions). More of it had to do with routine and getting back to normal day-to-day life. School work, tests, helping in the game shop. There were no tournaments, no life threatening situations. Strange is the word he guesses he'd put to it all if he had to find one. Somehow he had gotten used to the duels, the stakes, the adventure. Everything else is just... mundane.

That isn't the only issue, even though he'd like to point it to being the only one.

As the days go on and life returns to normal? The reality of time just becomes more apparent to him. Each day brings graduation closer. Graduation means the next step in their lives... and that means everyone will be going their separate ways. Usually Yugi can look past that. He can enjoy the time he has with everyone, but, it must be the combination of everything this particularly rainy autumn day. Graduation, what he'll do after school, and what he should do as the keeper of the Millennium Puzzle versus what he wants.

Autumn... graduation is in March. He'll be nineteen afterwards. It'll have been three years since he solved the Millennium Puzzle and woke the spirit that resides in it. Only three years. It feels like a lifetime, but, one he's glad to have had. A lifetime that he can't help but feel is going to be ending sooner rather than later despite what everyone around him says.

He knows everyone has noticed how quiet he has been the last few days. Atem still has been rather distant from everyone since they arrived back home. Yugi has decided not to bother his other self with what is going on in his head. Oh, he's sure Atem has sensed it and has even figured it out, but, he's still contending with his own issues left over from Dartz. Yugi doesn't plan to complicate that more with his own emotional battles. He'll have to rely on just himself if Atem ever leaves anyways...

Yugi steps into the entrance way of the school to grab his shoes. That is when he notices Anzu standing outside underneath the cover of the entryway. He looks down - making sure that she doesn't notice him - before trying to make the mental leaps on how to avoid her inevitable questions if he has been alright. He doesn't want to think about it. As far as he can tell, she has chosen which one of the two she likes, and he can't blame her for that. He knows she isn't going to take I'm fine as an answer too much longer. He doesn't want to think about how she'll be leaving shortly after graduation to study abroad - just like she has always wanted to.

Everyone has someplace and somewhere they plan to go but him. Even his other self has a destined path that moves him forward. Maybe all Yugi is meant to do is make sure each of them go where they're supposed to go. That might be his role in all of it. What is the point of all of it then? He finally makes the friends he wants and then has to see them all leave him behind?

He sighs and pushes down his frustration. It'll just bring more unwanted attention to himself. Especially from the spirit of the Pharaoh who is most likely worried but hasn't addressed it all.

Yugi closes the locker door and stares at the ground for a moment. With a sidelong glance at Anzu outside, he turns his back to the front doors. He supposes what he is about to ask is highly uncharacteristic, but, he's probably entitled to some alone time in his own soul room after everything.

'Other Me?' He gently calls out in their shared link. Part of him hates to ask this because it must seem spineless to a person that commanded armies and controlled a kingdom. 'Can you do me a favor?' ]
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[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-07-30 08:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ For just a few moments, Atem thinks of nothing else but the taste of the pastry and imagines Lunafreya setting to work making dessert for the two of them. It's one of the nicest things a person has done for him, and because of that, he finds himself wishing he could do what ordinary people do when someone has done something for them: write them a letter of thanks.

He hasn't yet noticed what's contained at the bottom of the box, but if he had, he would laugh, because it seems as though Lunafreya has thought of everything.

He does his best to savor each bite, but soon enough, his portion is finished and now it's Yugi's turn. ]


Are you ready, Yugi? [ His smile is still very much present as he asks his partner what he wants to do. ] I'm sure you'll enjoy that very much.
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[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-07-31 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's only then that Atem realizes that perhaps he's allowed himself to go a little bit too far with his excitement because of Umbra's delivery and the pastries. Yugi's lack of enthusiasm reminds him that it really wasn't all that long ago that his partner was upset. ]

Of course, if you don't want to- If you'd rather wait for another time, that's all right, Yugi.

[ He chastises himself for being so thoughtless. ]

What do you want to do instead? [ He supposes the answer will be to retreat from the world for awhile, either through actual sleep or by retreating into the soul room. Either way, rest seems like a good idea. ]
ifthereiswill: ๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐š๐ค๐ž, ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ž. (pic#15023748)

[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-02 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Atem looks over at Yugi then, knowing that his worry is most likely plain in his eyes, but he can't help it. The nature of their bond means they share a lot of things, including how they feel and what they're thinking, even if sometimes those things can be suppressed or even cut off. Now, however, nothing's really in the way of that bond, and Atem just wants to make sure that his partner is and will be all right. ]

Well- [ He isn't surprised that Yugi noticed those things about himself. He is very observant, and it's not as though he makes much effort to hide those reactions when they happen. Yes, he tries to remain reserved and to not appear too excited, but in moments such as the one he just had, it's hard to keep that mask in place. ]

She's very special, and incredibly kind. [ 'Just like you are, Yugi.' He considers himself very fortunate to have such kind people in his life. ]

But yes, I would like you to at least be able to try it. [ It's something he wants to share with him, that's all. So he waits for a few more seconds before once again making the switch with Yugi. ]
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[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-05 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh, Yugi is much more than someone who is incredibly kind, and Atem remains fully convinced of that. If he's being objective, between the two of them, Yugi is the kinder one, while Atem is darker and more flawed. Of course, Yugi's kindness has rubbed off on him to some degree, but he still believes that Yugi is quite far ahead of him.

But all of this is neither here nor there, and he supposes that it might be one area where they'll just disagree.

He watches Yugi as he tries the pastry, hoping that he also likes it. ]


I haven't either. [ There isn't much that he has had, but the things he's seen can't compare to what Lunafreya made for them. ] Yes, I believe that's what she said when we were talking about it. She made it seem as though it was very special to her.

[ And thus it means even more that she made it for them. ]
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[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-06 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ Well, no one is really perfect, as Atem knows only too well now. At least Yugi never gave into his rage and fear and caused him to pay the price, not like he did. And, well, if Yugi won't seize the opportunities that show up in front of him, Atem's determined to find some other way for him to have everything he deserves. ]

Now that you're back, things can begin to return to normal. [ Or at least, as close to normal as they can. ]

Lunafreya- [ He glances back at the box still in Yugi's hands. Of course he understands that she has responsibilities to see to: her duties as the Oracle, naturally, but there's also the thing that they discussed concerning Yugi and Atem's wish for him.

He knows why it seems as though she's pulled away, even if he doesn't wish to bring it up to Yugi. ]
Lunafreya has a lot she still has to do. She'll see us when she can.
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[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-08 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ In all honesty, there's nothing that Atem would like more: to be able to return to where he and Yugi used to be, a place they came to with such ease. And what's more, he'd like to be able to spend time with Yugi and his friends just like they used to do. Of course it was different, because Atem wasn't actually physically present, but he still feels as though he knows Yugi's friends well enough to call them his own as well.

It might take some time, but he hopes to be able to return to how things used to be.

He also smiles at Umbra in thanks, knowing that the dark-colored animal can see him just as clearly as Yugi can. But it seems as though Umbra's look is something more than just asking for acknowledgment for bringing Lunafreya's pastries to them. When Yugi looks back inside the box, Atem watches, wondering what else might be contained inside.

He's surprised to see the notebook that Yugi pulls out, and even more surprised when he holds it out to him. For just a moment, he hesitates, not reaching out for it, because he doesn't want Lunafreya's gift, if that's what it is, to slip through his hands and land on the floor. But he also hesitates because if he's understanding her intent, even without seeing what she's written on the book's pages, he doesn't want to become a distraction to her or her duties.

So to buy himself some time, he just asks: ]
Is it really?
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[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-08 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ As Yugi already guessed, Atem merely looks at the book where his partner placed it, torn between wanting to pick it up and read what's inside and waiting to do so. But waiting for what? Of course he knows that simply exchanging words with Lunafreya won't negatively impact Yugi or his chances with Anzu, but he can't help but feel that the two of them placed a wall between them. They did so with mutual agreement, even if it was something neither of them liked, and it's that wall that's contributing to his overall hesitation now.

He's already seen the effects of what happens when people get close to him, and how those ripples are widespread and in all honesty, completely terrifying. Both Yugi and Lunafreya have had terrible things happen to them, largely because of their associations with him. Oh, Gentiana said that it was inevitable for Lunafreya as the Oracle, but part of him still believes that he was at fault.

For the moment, though, he decides to stop that train of thought before it can progress too far. He knows what happens when he lets his thoughts run away from him, and he's already on shaky ground as it is. He's come a long way in terms of recovering from the whole ordeal with Dartz, but he also knows that it wouldn't take very much to send him back into a spiral once again. That's what he'd like to avoid, if possible.

So he focuses back on his partner and on the plans he's made with Anzu. ]


I'm glad, Yugi. I hope that whatever the two of you end up doing, you both have a good time.

[ The smile he gives him then is wide and very clearly genuine. He only wants the best for his partner, and he sincerely hopes that with enough time together, perhaps Yugi and Anzu will finally realize how they feel about each other. ]

You should get some rest so that you're able to enjoy yourself tomorrow. [ Of course, if Yugi says he wants to stay up for a little while longer, and if he still wants his company, Atem will remain. It's the little moments with just the two of them that have come to mean a lot to him, and that's only been accentuated by their separation, even if it was temporary. ]
ifthereiswill: ๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐š๐ค๐ž, ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ž. (๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ›๐Ÿ | ๐•Š๐•ก๐•š๐•ฃ๐•š๐•ฅ)

[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-11 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, yes, but not as long as you have. [ And of course, it's highly possible that nothing will change between Anzu and Yugi, but Atem still fervently hopes that this time, the two of them might finally come together.

As for Lunafreya, he misses her and wishes he could be with her, so he already knows he'll read what she wrote as soon as he can. But neither will he be rushing Yugi off before he's ready. He also wants to spend time with his partner and just talk with him about whatever comes to both of their minds.

The question that Yugi asks is one that's been in the back of his mind, but he also doesn't have a clear answer for it just yet. ]


I suppose, in a way, I can't imagine us not dueling again.

[ It's what they've done together for so long, but it seems like every time they take part in a tournament, something more than they could have anticipated happens. It makes for an exciting time, that much is true, but with that excitement often comes consequences, and Atem's not certain he wants to face those consequences, any more than he's certain he wants to put Yugi in that position. ]

What do you think about it, Yugi?
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aw yis mood music. it's very cozy

[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-19 10:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Of course Atem knows that he can't manipulate every situation, and he certainly can't make anything happen on this date, but he wishes that he could. If it was in his power to cause attraction to form and sparks to fly between Anzu and Yugi, he'd do it without hesitation. But perhaps all the two of them need is time to talk together and maybe attraction will develop on his own. He fervently hopes so, anyway.

He watches as Yugi lies back down on the bed, expression shifting into something more pensive as he listens to his partner. ]


Well, if you no longer wish to, then you know I won't ask you to. The two of us will just have to find something else that we can do together.

[ Never mind that he knows that might prove difficult, perhaps even impossible. But if Yugi no longer wishes to duel competitively, the last thing he intends is to force him, especially since he doesn't really feel that same drive to participate in tournaments either.

As Yugi pointed out, the only reason they did join Duelist Kingdom and Battle City was because there were outside reasons for it. It wasn't something they did by choice. But he realizes that he has the same opinion that Yugi does. ]


But yes, as you said, if a tournament comes up that interests you, I don't mind doing it together. [ That's the only way he wants to do things, at least as far as dueling is concerned. ]
ifthereiswill: ๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐š๐ค๐ž, ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ž. (๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ๐Ÿ™)

[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-22 08:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ Seeing Yugi smile like that does something to Atem that he wasn't expecting: it makes him feel relieved and as though some of the worry and concern he's been carrying with him has lessened. It's still there with him, but he was also afraid that things would never be the same between them again. They might still be somewhat strained, but now he feels like there's a chance that they'll be able to recover from everything that happened because of what he's done. ]

You know, now that you mention it, I would like to experience other games besides Duel Monsters. [ It's what they're most familiar with, but he knows there must be other games out there. Of course he's seen games such as the one that Duke designed, but he still feels like there's other things out there that they could learn.

And then he pauses, because there is something he'd like to spend a little more time on, if Yugi's willing. ]


We spent a little time looking up history on your computer. [ Their progress there was interrupted, and in the aftermath of everything, resuming that was the farthest thing from his mind, but now that some of the dust seems to be settling, he wants to ask for that again. ]

Would you mind doing that again? [ Of course, there's some things that he knows, but it has been a long time for him and some of the details have become a bit faded over the years. He knows that he might not recall anything about himself or his life from such a search, but that's not all that can be found. ]
ifthereiswill: ๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐š๐ค๐ž, ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ž. (pic#15023745)

[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-23 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ He mentally makes note of all the options that Yugi's laid out for him. Of course, he enjoys the game of Duel Monsters, but he figures that it's time he learned a little about the other games out there in the world. To some extent, that particular game has had a shadow cast over it; shadows eventually disperse, so he's not worried about that, but part of him wants to learn a new game that he can play with Yugi just for fun. It might not be possible, but then again, they might find a way to manage it.

And of course, Yugi's enthusiasm for games of all kinds doesn't bother Atem at all. In fact, it makes him happy to see it. ]


If it's not too much trouble, Yugi- [ He pauses then, clearing his throat once. ] I'd like to learn how to play all of them: board games, video games, even another card game. Would you have the time for something like that?
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[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-08-23 07:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Then, in spite of himself, Atem lets out an amused chuckle. ] Yugi, you know I didn't mean you had to show me right now. It's late, and you should be sleeping.

[ Of course, they both know that they wouldn't trade these nighttime talks for anything in the world, but too often, it seems as though he keeps Yugi awake late into the evening, although he's never heard his partner complain.

Still, he gets to his feet as well and moves after Yugi, knowing that once his partner has made up his mind, it's hard to get him to change it. ]
ifthereiswill: ๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐š๐ค๐ž, ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ž. (๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿก | ๐•Š๐•ก๐•š๐•ฃ๐•š๐•ฅ)

[personal profile] ifthereiswill 2021-09-02 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
All right, if you're sure.

[ He's used to his methods of passing the time. Not that time really means a lot to him, but he's grown accustomed to keeping an eye on it, because he generally knows when Yugi wakes up and when he's ready to go to sleep. But when he's inside the Puzzle, time really doesn't have a whole lot of significance. He's begun doing things like counting the number of times he's completed walking up an entire staircase and gone down it again, or how many steps are on a certain set of stairs.

And as Yugi already surmised, when he's not doing that, his mind does tend to travel back to thornier issues that he still believes he has to rectify, even if his partner would disagree.

As for Lunafreya, he intends to read what she wrote him, but not right now. Perhaps he will later, when the chance presents itself. For now, he wants to see what they might find in the storage room. The amount of dust in the room also makes Atem sad, but he supposes it only makes sense. The old ways are often replaced by the new, and that's just the way things seem to work.

He sees a variety of board games on the shelves, and all of them look intriguing, but he's decided that he wants to learn and hopefully master one before moving on to another. He points to the first one that leaps out at him, a shogi board and its pieces. ]


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