[ Well, by that same token, it seems to Atem that there's a trade-off to it as well. He would rather be as he is now, without his memories, and have the friendships that he does than to regain the memories he's lost and be alone again. What if everything changed if he got his memories back? Would he and Yugi be able to relate to each other the same way? What about their other friends?
He's realizing that he doesn't want anything to change, even if change is still a vital part of living. So in that regard, any frustration he might feel about not knowing who he is fades into the background when he thinks about what he might stand to lose in exchange for regaining his memories.
He doesn't want to feel that emptiness again either, nor does he want to go back to staring at that closed door that won't open no matter how hard he tries. ]
Sometimes it feels like it's impossible?
[ He's not sure if that's how Yugi intended to finish his question, but it's a thought that Atem can relate to. They have faced a lot of impossible odds since they met, and although they've managed to come out on top more often than not, that doesn't change the fact that they've both known what it's like to feel like everything's impossible, even insurmountable.
He knows he doesn't want to even think about what might happen to the two of them, whenever they finally make the decision to face their future. Just as Yugi doesn't want to go back to being invisible and alone, neither does Atem want that, for either of them.
He's about to say something else, but Yugi gets there first. The question that he asks takes Atem by surprise, and he accidentally stammers a little, because that's not what he thought Yugi was going to say. ]
I- Well... [ Yes is the answer that's on his tongue. But admitting that means opening them both up to a whole host of other complications, and the last thing he wants is to inconvenience Yugi at all.
Suddenly, there's a swirl of complicated emotions rising up inside him as he tries to just admit what he really feels for Lunafreya. He knows he loves her, but along with that realization comes doubts and the thought that he isn't (and couldn't ever be) enough for her.
She has more power and ability than he thinks he could ever hope to have, even though he has no memories to back that up. What could even come close to her ability to heal and to reach out to those on the spiritual plane? Of course he knows her thoughts and feelings concerning him, because she's laid them out for him more than once, but his doubts have very strong roots. His shoulders drop a little as he thinks about all of this, but even in the midst of all that, he knows his answer hasn't changed. It's just dealing with his own doubts about whether or not he's worthy of her.
But Yugi's still waiting for an answer, so he finally says: ]
Yes, I- [ He has to pause again, but this time, he just pushes on. ] I do.
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He's realizing that he doesn't want anything to change, even if change is still a vital part of living. So in that regard, any frustration he might feel about not knowing who he is fades into the background when he thinks about what he might stand to lose in exchange for regaining his memories.
He doesn't want to feel that emptiness again either, nor does he want to go back to staring at that closed door that won't open no matter how hard he tries. ]
Sometimes it feels like it's impossible?
[ He's not sure if that's how Yugi intended to finish his question, but it's a thought that Atem can relate to. They have faced a lot of impossible odds since they met, and although they've managed to come out on top more often than not, that doesn't change the fact that they've both known what it's like to feel like everything's impossible, even insurmountable.
He knows he doesn't want to even think about what might happen to the two of them, whenever they finally make the decision to face their future. Just as Yugi doesn't want to go back to being invisible and alone, neither does Atem want that, for either of them.
He's about to say something else, but Yugi gets there first. The question that he asks takes Atem by surprise, and he accidentally stammers a little, because that's not what he thought Yugi was going to say. ]
I- Well... [ Yes is the answer that's on his tongue. But admitting that means opening them both up to a whole host of other complications, and the last thing he wants is to inconvenience Yugi at all.
Suddenly, there's a swirl of complicated emotions rising up inside him as he tries to just admit what he really feels for Lunafreya. He knows he loves her, but along with that realization comes doubts and the thought that he isn't (and couldn't ever be) enough for her.
She has more power and ability than he thinks he could ever hope to have, even though he has no memories to back that up. What could even come close to her ability to heal and to reach out to those on the spiritual plane? Of course he knows her thoughts and feelings concerning him, because she's laid them out for him more than once, but his doubts have very strong roots. His shoulders drop a little as he thinks about all of this, but even in the midst of all that, he knows his answer hasn't changed. It's just dealing with his own doubts about whether or not he's worthy of her.
But Yugi's still waiting for an answer, so he finally says: ]
Yes, I- [ He has to pause again, but this time, he just pushes on. ] I do.