[ He does not even wonder what caused the sudden bout of tears to flow, because he already knows the answer. Even though he dimly remembers a period of mourning following the news that Alkaid had been lost, the grief of said loss never really left him. And now that he is hardly in the best condition possible, his ability to conceal his emotions behind a stone-cold mask has temporarily faded away.
His eyes remain closed, but he feels her hand shift in his hold; it's hardly a strong grasp, and he can barely manage to curl his fingers around hers in a weak grip, but he wants to feel her. He wants to assure himself that it's her, somehow returned to him even though he thought her lost. She was lost, but now she has returned. Will she consent to stay with him, or will she leave because now there is a gulf of time in between them? She has changed, but so has he, and he feels he is no longer desirable to anyone, much less her.
Perhaps it is him who should release their bond, unbinding her from him.
The thought causes more tears to flow unbidden, and he does not even care to stop them, even if he was able to. He continues holding her hand as his body gives an involuntary shudder, but he can't tell if it's pain from his injuries or from the sudden wave of emotion that's trying to overwhelm him.
His fingers curl further against her hand, hoping that whatever this discomfort is, it will pass soon. He can hardly speak to her in his present state, which only further adds to his upset, interrupted only by the quiet movement of Estinien leaving the room. He does his best to make a mental note to himself to thank his brother later, once he is back on his feet, and to apologize as well. ]
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His eyes remain closed, but he feels her hand shift in his hold; it's hardly a strong grasp, and he can barely manage to curl his fingers around hers in a weak grip, but he wants to feel her. He wants to assure himself that it's her, somehow returned to him even though he thought her lost. She was lost, but now she has returned. Will she consent to stay with him, or will she leave because now there is a gulf of time in between them? She has changed, but so has he, and he feels he is no longer desirable to anyone, much less her.
Perhaps it is him who should release their bond, unbinding her from him.
The thought causes more tears to flow unbidden, and he does not even care to stop them, even if he was able to. He continues holding her hand as his body gives an involuntary shudder, but he can't tell if it's pain from his injuries or from the sudden wave of emotion that's trying to overwhelm him.
His fingers curl further against her hand, hoping that whatever this discomfort is, it will pass soon. He can hardly speak to her in his present state, which only further adds to his upset, interrupted only by the quiet movement of Estinien leaving the room. He does his best to make a mental note to himself to thank his brother later, once he is back on his feet, and to apologize as well. ]