[ Well, that's a thought. Maybe Alan can find Dylan in the Fog. He doesn't know how or where to even start looking, but he wants to bring Jesse's baby brother home. He's been gone long enough. Too long. No one deserves to be lost, and even though he knows Dylan isn't forgotten about, it's time for him to come home.
I have to pull myself together to be there for Jesse, and I have to find Dylan somehow. I'll find him, even if I have to search every corner of this place. And if this entity or whatever the hell it is tries to stop me, I'll- I'll fight. Somehow.
There's a part of Alan that relies on determination like this to keep the guilt and the regret and the way his thoughts tend to spiral away from him under control. It distracts him, gives him something else to focus on. And that's what he needs most.
He still has a myriad of issues hanging over him, nearly all of them unresolved and unaddressed, but he doesn't have time to drown in them anymore. They can't be at the forefront of everything.
He smiles when he sees her eyes light up. He always loves seeing her smile and seeing that light in her green eyes. He loves her fiercely, and he doesn't want to let her go ever again. They're one, they belong together. He knows that without a doubt. ]
I bet it is. I mean, I wouldn't know, but- with Polaris and another person, you get the best of both worlds, right? Or something like that, I don't know. [ He's still smiling, but his smile softens into a warm and loving one. ] You won't lose us. And I want to do everything I can to help Dylan come home. He's going to come home.
[ Alan's smile only widens at Jesse's announcement about the apartment. ] I've made you wait too long, but I'm- well, I'm happy you didn't give up, even though I gave you plenty of reasons to just walk away. [ His eyes fix on her green ones. ] Thank you, Jesse. Thanks for- everything. For waiting, for not giving up, for just being you.
[ She's certainly succeeding at luring him in, and he hopes he's doing the same for her. If it's a spiral that she's falling into, then he wants to fall into it with her, because nothing's going to separate them now. Even if that metaphorical spiral originates from him, he's going down into it alongside her. Always. ]
You brought me home, and now we can finally leave the night behind. Together.
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I have to pull myself together to be there for Jesse, and I have to find Dylan somehow. I'll find him, even if I have to search every corner of this place. And if this entity or whatever the hell it is tries to stop me, I'll- I'll fight. Somehow.
There's a part of Alan that relies on determination like this to keep the guilt and the regret and the way his thoughts tend to spiral away from him under control. It distracts him, gives him something else to focus on. And that's what he needs most.
He still has a myriad of issues hanging over him, nearly all of them unresolved and unaddressed, but he doesn't have time to drown in them anymore. They can't be at the forefront of everything.
He smiles when he sees her eyes light up. He always loves seeing her smile and seeing that light in her green eyes. He loves her fiercely, and he doesn't want to let her go ever again. They're one, they belong together. He knows that without a doubt. ]
I bet it is. I mean, I wouldn't know, but- with Polaris and another person, you get the best of both worlds, right? Or something like that, I don't know. [ He's still smiling, but his smile softens into a warm and loving one. ] You won't lose us. And I want to do everything I can to help Dylan come home. He's going to come home.
[ Alan's smile only widens at Jesse's announcement about the apartment. ] I've made you wait too long, but I'm- well, I'm happy you didn't give up, even though I gave you plenty of reasons to just walk away. [ His eyes fix on her green ones. ] Thank you, Jesse. Thanks for- everything. For waiting, for not giving up, for just being you.
[ She's certainly succeeding at luring him in, and he hopes he's doing the same for her. If it's a spiral that she's falling into, then he wants to fall into it with her, because nothing's going to separate them now. Even if that metaphorical spiral originates from him, he's going down into it alongside her. Always. ]
You brought me home, and now we can finally leave the night behind. Together.