[ A frown forms at the corners of her mouth. It never completes, but, the expression will certainly be noticed by him. He stops himself. That doesn't mean she hasn't caught what he implies. He's still struggling with who he is--who Alan Wake is as a person. Her heart sinks.
« I can't keep him from the waters of the Lake. I can't help him realize who he is underneath everything the Dark Presence has buried him with. I can't solve this for him.
What am I supposed to do for him?
What am I doing for him? Giving him a reason to fight? He's willing to give up now. What do I do for him? »
She nods shortly. They have talked about it before. Jesse is aware Scratch doesn't love her. Well, his doppleganger would consider it love. It isn't really love and nothing like being with Alan. He can't hold her like Alan does, or kiss her the same, or even truly love and understand her. Scratch and Polaris are on opposite frequencies.
Scratch isn't Alan Wake. He never will be.
Her eyes narrow. ] Will going deeper really fix this, Alan? What if fixing it requires you to go up to the surface?
[ Jesse reaches up to move the wet hair from his face. She knows how close he is. Close enough where the scent of the deep ocean rolls off his hair and suit. Her heart skips a beat. Alan always finds a way to catch that part of her that she tries to keep locked away. ]
Are we--will you--at the end of everything. Will we still have the ending we want?
[ « Does he still want that ending? »
Her instincts tell her the ending the want won't be the one that happens. Still, she wants to hear him say it. Maybe she even needs to hear him say he still wants that ending--that life together. Her heart still feels sunken and... no, she isn't going to say the word. Think the word. If she does she'll stop and Alan needs her to push forward like she always has. He needs her to be the Director.
Her heart beats painfully as her green eyes remain locked onto the ever shifting hues of gray in his. The girl who is far from ordinary needs to know he still feels the same way she does. That will help her make room for the ending he and Saga need. It'll help her push past everything that's causing the unnamed feeling inside her chest. ]
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« I can't keep him from the waters of the Lake. I can't help him realize who he is underneath everything the Dark Presence has buried him with. I can't solve this for him.
What am I supposed to do for him?
What am I doing for him? Giving him a reason to fight? He's willing to give up now. What do I do for him? »
She nods shortly. They have talked about it before. Jesse is aware Scratch doesn't love her. Well, his doppleganger would consider it love. It isn't really love and nothing like being with Alan. He can't hold her like Alan does, or kiss her the same, or even truly love and understand her. Scratch and Polaris are on opposite frequencies.
Scratch isn't Alan Wake. He never will be.
Her eyes narrow. ] Will going deeper really fix this, Alan? What if fixing it requires you to go up to the surface?
[ Jesse reaches up to move the wet hair from his face. She knows how close he is. Close enough where the scent of the deep ocean rolls off his hair and suit. Her heart skips a beat. Alan always finds a way to catch that part of her that she tries to keep locked away. ]
Are we--will you--at the end of everything. Will we still have the ending we want?
[ « Does he still want that ending? »
Her instincts tell her the ending the want won't be the one that happens. Still, she wants to hear him say it. Maybe she even needs to hear him say he still wants that ending--that life together. Her heart still feels sunken and... no, she isn't going to say the word. Think the word. If she does she'll stop and Alan needs her to push forward like she always has. He needs her to be the Director.
Her heart beats painfully as her green eyes remain locked onto the ever shifting hues of gray in his. The girl who is far from ordinary needs to know he still feels the same way she does. That will help her make room for the ending he and Saga need. It'll help her push past everything that's causing the unnamed feeling inside her chest. ]