[ He can't stop trying. He knows he can't. Stopping means letting the Dark Presence win, and even if Jesse fought back on her own, what he knows about the darkness and what it's capable of is enough to tell him it'd be a losing battle. Not because she's incapable of doing it, but because the darkness is so much bigger and stronger than all of them, even Jesse.
No, he knows what he has to do, which is find whatever strength he has left and use that to push through this fight and whatever other fights come after it. The only problem is, finding that strength again is proving harder than he thought it would be.
He's beginning to wonder if it won't really show up to be used until the fight starts and adrenaline starts going. That's how it's worked before, but now he needs it more than ever. There's too much at stake here to just rely on "maybes".
He doesn't have much time to respond before Jesse's disappearing to see to her own tasks, but he just nods. Maybe it's not a nod of agreement and more one of resignation. They all know how to do their jobs; he knows that. It's just that the idea of there being casualties and knowing they're because of him has never sat well with Alan, no matter what people think. Just because it's inevitable and a consequence of there being bad things in the world doesn't mean he finds it easy to accept.
In response to Steve's question, he just shrugs in return. ]
I know enough from hearing the chatter that a fight's coming. It's going to be a big one.
[ What could be more important than that? Anything else isn't important right now. What's important is surviving this. ]
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No, he knows what he has to do, which is find whatever strength he has left and use that to push through this fight and whatever other fights come after it. The only problem is, finding that strength again is proving harder than he thought it would be.
He's beginning to wonder if it won't really show up to be used until the fight starts and adrenaline starts going. That's how it's worked before, but now he needs it more than ever. There's too much at stake here to just rely on "maybes".
He doesn't have much time to respond before Jesse's disappearing to see to her own tasks, but he just nods. Maybe it's not a nod of agreement and more one of resignation. They all know how to do their jobs; he knows that. It's just that the idea of there being casualties and knowing they're because of him has never sat well with Alan, no matter what people think. Just because it's inevitable and a consequence of there being bad things in the world doesn't mean he finds it easy to accept.
In response to Steve's question, he just shrugs in return. ]
I know enough from hearing the chatter that a fight's coming. It's going to be a big one.
[ What could be more important than that? Anything else isn't important right now. What's important is surviving this. ]