[ A frown and a glance to the side. ] No. It doesn't feel the same way. It's... similar.
[ She won't tell him how if she closes her eyes and focuses on the feeling she could tell what that being looks like. The mental image is in her mind and the hair on her arms stands up. Suit, a twisted smile, wearing Alan's face. It's not Alan, but people would think it if all they knew was him on the television.
« It's not Alan. »
She leans into him more. She doesn't want to have conversations pretending he's home and what they'd do together. She can't pretend. All she wants to do is feel him and be with him in this moment. She wants to let him in all the way as she had before. That way they can hit that special place that only they seem to know.
Could she do it without Polaris? Her friend was the one that interacted with whatever it was inside Alan.
« I don't want to feel alone in the dark anymore. » ]
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[ She won't tell him how if she closes her eyes and focuses on the feeling she could tell what that being looks like. The mental image is in her mind and the hair on her arms stands up. Suit, a twisted smile, wearing Alan's face. It's not Alan, but people would think it if all they knew was him on the television.
« It's not Alan. »
She leans into him more. She doesn't want to have conversations pretending he's home and what they'd do together. She can't pretend. All she wants to do is feel him and be with him in this moment. She wants to let him in all the way as she had before. That way they can hit that special place that only they seem to know.
Could she do it without Polaris? Her friend was the one that interacted with whatever it was inside Alan.
« I don't want to feel alone in the dark anymore. » ]