[ I don't know what to do. Why do I have to do anything? Couldn't we just stay like this for a little while? But if I stop to just be like this with her, what if we never start again? What if I never start again? Then the story goes on forever, and nothing gets done. That's not the answer either.
The kiss ends, but Alan can't help but start another one. He wants to keep kissing her, to not have to stop, not ever.
But he can kiss and try and tune into Polaris at the same time, or so he tells himself. He can hear her sound and feel it resonating around him, but that doesn't help him know what he should do or how he should use the light that's apparently in him. That something Bright that touched him didn't lay out everything he needed to do, at least not to Alan's satisfaction. Or maybe it's just that he's not smart enough to figure it out. He knows a lot of people wrote him off as someone not worth the time or energy.
But that bright thing didn't. Polaris and Jesse didn't. I have to figure out what I need to do.
He has to stop to come up for air, and when he does, he rumbles out her name. ]
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The kiss ends, but Alan can't help but start another one. He wants to keep kissing her, to not have to stop, not ever.
But he can kiss and try and tune into Polaris at the same time, or so he tells himself. He can hear her sound and feel it resonating around him, but that doesn't help him know what he should do or how he should use the light that's apparently in him. That something Bright that touched him didn't lay out everything he needed to do, at least not to Alan's satisfaction. Or maybe it's just that he's not smart enough to figure it out. He knows a lot of people wrote him off as someone not worth the time or energy.
But that bright thing didn't. Polaris and Jesse didn't. I have to figure out what I need to do.
He has to stop to come up for air, and when he does, he rumbles out her name. ]
... Jesse.