[ He knows it's not foolproof. The failsafe could fail. His memories have a good chance of failing, and the thought of that just makes his skin crawl. He doesn't want to forget Jesse. If he forgets everything else, everything about his life, the one thing he doesn't want to forget... the one person he can't forget is Jesse. Maybe it shouldn't be that way. Maybe Alice should still be in that spot.
She's still important to him too, even if their relationship is headed to its end, but somehow, Jesse landed in that spot without him really realizing it.
He shifts just slightly when she rests against him and a contented sigh escapes him, not even bothering to try and hold it back. It feels good to have her resting on him the way that she is, and instinctively, as if he's done it many times before, he begins stroking her hair in brief strokes that slowly grow longer. ]
What is it like? [ He pauses for a second before answering. ] Hard to explain. It's- shifting. Changing. Adapting to... anything, I think.
[ Another pause. ]
It feels... cold, like you're standing in a cold shower and can't leave. [ Or is it more like treading water in an ocean and the waves are about to pull you down? Maybe it's both. ]
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She's still important to him too, even if their relationship is headed to its end, but somehow, Jesse landed in that spot without him really realizing it.
He shifts just slightly when she rests against him and a contented sigh escapes him, not even bothering to try and hold it back. It feels good to have her resting on him the way that she is, and instinctively, as if he's done it many times before, he begins stroking her hair in brief strokes that slowly grow longer. ]
What is it like? [ He pauses for a second before answering. ] Hard to explain. It's- shifting. Changing. Adapting to... anything, I think.
[ Another pause. ]
It feels... cold, like you're standing in a cold shower and can't leave. [ Or is it more like treading water in an ocean and the waves are about to pull you down? Maybe it's both. ]