[ He can't explain it, other than to say that maybe it felt as though he moved too quickly and maybe he was too desperate to fill up that hole inside him, but that doesn't mean that what he felt and still feels for her was anything less than genuine. She made him feel complete somehow, and although they barely had time to figure that out, something inside him kept telling him that they belonged together. That is, until it became clear that they needed to part ways because the story demanded it and because he couldn't fix what had happened if they didn't.
She couldn't follow him into the lake, as much as he wished he didn't have to leave her behind... as much as he wished he didn't have to go forward alone.
They're together now, but something is telling him that this isn't the same as coming home. It's a way for them to talk, to see each other, but he's not in their reality. Well, he's not 100% sure on that. Night Springs was brought to Arizona, but which Arizona is this? The way the Dark Place works is slippery and hard to pin down and be quantified. This could be the Arizona in their reality, or it could be a reflection of Arizona drawn from his memories. Even Alan isn't sure which is which. ]
Yeah. You're here, and I'm glad you are. I don't blame you for leaving Bright Falls; why would you want to stay after all that? After everything that happened, and then... well, you know. Except... Wasn't that one of your leads? Polaris brought you there for a reason, and it was a reason besides running into me.
[ He doesn't want to ask, but he's afraid nothing ever came of that lead. That's probably his fault. ]
If you were angry, I'd understand.
[ He nods, slowly. ] I'm doing what I can to finish it. To write it. I don't know how close I am to finishing anything, but I'm trying. I really am trying.
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She couldn't follow him into the lake, as much as he wished he didn't have to leave her behind... as much as he wished he didn't have to go forward alone.
They're together now, but something is telling him that this isn't the same as coming home. It's a way for them to talk, to see each other, but he's not in their reality. Well, he's not 100% sure on that. Night Springs was brought to Arizona, but which Arizona is this? The way the Dark Place works is slippery and hard to pin down and be quantified. This could be the Arizona in their reality, or it could be a reflection of Arizona drawn from his memories. Even Alan isn't sure which is which. ]
Yeah. You're here, and I'm glad you are. I don't blame you for leaving Bright Falls; why would you want to stay after all that? After everything that happened, and then... well, you know. Except... Wasn't that one of your leads? Polaris brought you there for a reason, and it was a reason besides running into me.
[ He doesn't want to ask, but he's afraid nothing ever came of that lead. That's probably his fault. ]
If you were angry, I'd understand.
[ He nods, slowly. ] I'm doing what I can to finish it. To write it. I don't know how close I am to finishing anything, but I'm trying. I really am trying.