[ He can't help the chuckle that escapes him at those worsd from Jesse. ]
You know, most people would say talking to yourself is a sign of something, and it's not usually a sign of anything good. But I guess I'll take your word for it. [ It's strange to him to think that Jesse knows his future self well enough to know how he'd react, but it's helpful at the same time. ]
Is that what I have to look forward to too? [ His expression darkens a little; he might not be a dreamer with fanciful dreams about his future, but he doesn't like the idea of becoming trapped by the story's whims. He doesn't like the idea of losing himself, and he can imagine his future self didn't like it either. ]
You're telling me this so I don't just run away from it all, aren't you? [ Maybe it seems like a leap in conclusions, but that's the conclusion Alan's coming to. ]
If I run away from the story, from all this, it'll find a way to pull me back in. And more importantly, if I don't figure out the story and figure out how to fight back, then the story will just keep taking more of me away.
[ He shakes his head. ]
I don't want that.
[ A thoughtful look takes Alan's face as he thinks this over. It's making his head spin a little but he's trying to follow where it's going. ] If he reached out to you first, and I'm able to talk to you... [ He shakes his head once, but it's a small gesture. He's not totally disbelieving. ] I never really believed in destiny, but this can't just be coincidence.
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You know, most people would say talking to yourself is a sign of something, and it's not usually a sign of anything good. But I guess I'll take your word for it. [ It's strange to him to think that Jesse knows his future self well enough to know how he'd react, but it's helpful at the same time. ]
Is that what I have to look forward to too? [ His expression darkens a little; he might not be a dreamer with fanciful dreams about his future, but he doesn't like the idea of becoming trapped by the story's whims. He doesn't like the idea of losing himself, and he can imagine his future self didn't like it either. ]
You're telling me this so I don't just run away from it all, aren't you? [ Maybe it seems like a leap in conclusions, but that's the conclusion Alan's coming to. ]
If I run away from the story, from all this, it'll find a way to pull me back in. And more importantly, if I don't figure out the story and figure out how to fight back, then the story will just keep taking more of me away.
[ He shakes his head. ]
I don't want that.
[ A thoughtful look takes Alan's face as he thinks this over. It's making his head spin a little but he's trying to follow where it's going. ] If he reached out to you first, and I'm able to talk to you... [ He shakes his head once, but it's a small gesture. He's not totally disbelieving. ] I never really believed in destiny, but this can't just be coincidence.