I didn't hate it. It was convenient having everything I needed more or less right there, but- [ The social perks aside, it was starting to feel suffocating in a way. ] I didn't realize it until recently, but I think I was starting to feel like I needed a change. Maybe not this kind of a change, but, well...
[ It's gotten him out of the city, anyway, even if it's not really what he was expecting or planning on.
Neither was he expecting to find someone like her, someone who, even though she seems unsure and hesitant about letting him in, has told him something he hasn't heard before: namely, that he doesn't have to be like other writers. He just has to be like himself. There is a part of him that still hesitates about letting her in, given his own complicated relationship status, but he can't lie and say he doesn't want this.
There wasn't much room for love or physical contact between him and Alice, even though things weren't hostile between them. No objects were thrown or blows landed, although sometimes, biting words were exchanged. But there was no room for affection either, and maybe that's what he's looking for. But should he look for it from Jesse?
That force pulling him in says a resounding yes.
His eyes lock onto her green ones as he lets that force pull at him more. He loves Alice, and maybe he always will, but at some point, their relationship stopped being characterized by love and became colder, chillier. Maybe they just grew apart. Maybe Alan's looking for someone he can love and be loved by in return. But is Jesse that person? He shouldn't ask her, he knows that. He shouldn't even expect anything from her, but at the same time, a one-night stand isn't what he wants.
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[ It's gotten him out of the city, anyway, even if it's not really what he was expecting or planning on.
Neither was he expecting to find someone like her, someone who, even though she seems unsure and hesitant about letting him in, has told him something he hasn't heard before: namely, that he doesn't have to be like other writers. He just has to be like himself. There is a part of him that still hesitates about letting her in, given his own complicated relationship status, but he can't lie and say he doesn't want this.
There wasn't much room for love or physical contact between him and Alice, even though things weren't hostile between them. No objects were thrown or blows landed, although sometimes, biting words were exchanged. But there was no room for affection either, and maybe that's what he's looking for. But should he look for it from Jesse?
That force pulling him in says a resounding yes.
His eyes lock onto her green ones as he lets that force pull at him more. He loves Alice, and maybe he always will, but at some point, their relationship stopped being characterized by love and became colder, chillier. Maybe they just grew apart. Maybe Alan's looking for someone he can love and be loved by in return. But is Jesse that person? He shouldn't ask her, he knows that. He shouldn't even expect anything from her, but at the same time, a one-night stand isn't what he wants.
He leans in and deepens the kiss more. ]