[ Her strings would be related to her past. Needing to find her brother. Struggling to let people in. She figures no one wants to deal with it. No one really has wanted to. Foster parents were understanding to a degree, but, it was obvious she never really fit in. Either the foster families refused to hear a word, or they overly compensated for trying to make her feel normal.
« People can't make me feel normal. I'm not normal. I talk to YOU all the time. Even when you don't answer. I know what my "normal" is. They can't accept it. No one has been able to. Why would he be the first? I don't understand. Why... »
Polaris shifts.
« I don't understand what you mean, Polaris. I don't understand any of this. Should I trust this feeling inside me? I don't even understand why I have it. You brought me here to deal with this enemy of yours--right? So, why, do I feel so drawn to him? Is it you? Are you the one drawn to him and I'm just here? »
Polaris shifts again.
Jesse knows. She just doesn't understand how it can be from herself. Why would it be? ]
It... it's not a lot of places. Foster homes in certain cities. That sort of thing. But, we could still visit them. [ She wants to show him how weird things are all over the world. It's how it really is. Not just here in Bright Falls or in Ordinary. ] Why wouldn't you go back home?
[ Jesse moves as he directs her. The hand on her back sends a shiver unexpectedly up her spine. Her heart skips a beat as he leans in, but doesn't move closer. A part of her feels so frustrated he won't move further. ]
I don't--I don't know either. [ Her eyes drop to his mouth for the briefest of seconds. Then, they are back to staring into his own. The gray that seems to shift almost like waves. ] It's not the story.
[ That much she can say with certainty. This pull doesn't come from somewhere external but internally. ]
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« People can't make me feel normal. I'm not normal. I talk to YOU all the time. Even when you don't answer. I know what my "normal" is. They can't accept it. No one has been able to. Why would he be the first? I don't understand. Why... »
Polaris shifts.
« I don't understand what you mean, Polaris. I don't understand any of this. Should I trust this feeling inside me? I don't even understand why I have it. You brought me here to deal with this enemy of yours--right? So, why, do I feel so drawn to him? Is it you? Are you the one drawn to him and I'm just here? »
Polaris shifts again.
Jesse knows. She just doesn't understand how it can be from herself. Why would it be? ]
It... it's not a lot of places. Foster homes in certain cities. That sort of thing. But, we could still visit them. [ She wants to show him how weird things are all over the world. It's how it really is. Not just here in Bright Falls or in Ordinary. ] Why wouldn't you go back home?
[ Jesse moves as he directs her. The hand on her back sends a shiver unexpectedly up her spine. Her heart skips a beat as he leans in, but doesn't move closer. A part of her feels so frustrated he won't move further. ]
I don't--I don't know either. [ Her eyes drop to his mouth for the briefest of seconds. Then, they are back to staring into his own. The gray that seems to shift almost like waves. ] It's not the story.
[ That much she can say with certainty. This pull doesn't come from somewhere external but internally. ]