[ Alan's eyes slide closed for just a moment, feeling the hum pass through him. It soothes him somehow, soothes the frayed, rough feeling deep inside himself. The Dark Presence tried to carve him out again and that part of him that can too easily picture images based on just a few words imagines a piece of meat that's been roughly hacked apart without any sense of care.
The Dark Presence doesn't care about what it leaves behind. But Polaris is still sending that hum through him, and whether or not she's doing it just to help him, or because it helps her, it doesn't matter.
He latches onto it and holds onto it even as he hears Jesse's breath hitch. Through his exhaustion, he realizes she's rattled too. Affected by the horrors of the Dark Place.
Even through the overwhelming feeling he has telling him to just lie still in her hold, he recognizes what she's doing. He feels that shift, and he doesn't like it. ]
Jesse. [ He says her name again; quietly, hoarsely, but it's him: his voice, not being used or twisted by the darkness. ]
Don't. [ Alan doesn't have any long grand sentences to say, but he hopes his meaning gets across to her anyway.
His head is still on her shoulder, but he needs to be looking at her for this to work the way he intends it to. A muffled groan escapes him as he struggles to lift his head to try and look at her.
Part of him knows he doesn't have the time to linger in this exhausted state. Pieces are still being moved. The Dark Presence is still acting, and Alan needs to act too. ]
Don't. [ He says again, and there's a note of desperation in his voice. ]
I- I need... [ His voice falters and a look of frustration flares briefly into his eyes. If he could just communicate this without words, it would be so much easier, at least right now. ]
Come back. [ His tone is quiet, and there's no force behind his words, just a quiet request. He knows what that shift in her tone means, subconsciously recognizing it, and he believes it's not what either of them need.
No masks, no roles, nothing to hide them from each other. If he's really awake, he wants to see her as she is, not how she feels she has to be. ]
Please, come back.
[ Will she understand what I'm asking? I don't have the words to explain it, but I'll have to try if she doesn't. ]
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The Dark Presence doesn't care about what it leaves behind. But Polaris is still sending that hum through him, and whether or not she's doing it just to help him, or because it helps her, it doesn't matter.
He latches onto it and holds onto it even as he hears Jesse's breath hitch. Through his exhaustion, he realizes she's rattled too. Affected by the horrors of the Dark Place.
Even through the overwhelming feeling he has telling him to just lie still in her hold, he recognizes what she's doing. He feels that shift, and he doesn't like it. ]
Jesse. [ He says her name again; quietly, hoarsely, but it's him: his voice, not being used or twisted by the darkness. ]
Don't. [ Alan doesn't have any long grand sentences to say, but he hopes his meaning gets across to her anyway.
His head is still on her shoulder, but he needs to be looking at her for this to work the way he intends it to. A muffled groan escapes him as he struggles to lift his head to try and look at her.
Part of him knows he doesn't have the time to linger in this exhausted state. Pieces are still being moved. The Dark Presence is still acting, and Alan needs to act too. ]
Don't. [ He says again, and there's a note of desperation in his voice. ]
I- I need... [ His voice falters and a look of frustration flares briefly into his eyes. If he could just communicate this without words, it would be so much easier, at least right now. ]
Come back. [ His tone is quiet, and there's no force behind his words, just a quiet request. He knows what that shift in her tone means, subconsciously recognizing it, and he believes it's not what either of them need.
No masks, no roles, nothing to hide them from each other. If he's really awake, he wants to see her as she is, not how she feels she has to be. ]
Please, come back.
[ Will she understand what I'm asking? I don't have the words to explain it, but I'll have to try if she doesn't. ]