[ Polaris responds in turn. The gentle hum passes through Alan. Not in a forceful or hostile manner. It's more akin to the beat of a familiar beloved song, or melody, or natural frequency a moment would give off. Calming, peaceful, but louder than he is used to hearing. Perhaps it's because he's awake now, or, because she is so bright thanks to the Diver.
Her breath catches in her throat at the sound of her name. He knows who she is still. A painful but loud beat of her heart next. That fear still grips onto her person. Nothing from the Dark Presence or the Dark Place. A natural fear that now he's truly awake he will leave once they have him home. That now he can see her and Polaris together, it will be too much, and he will leave.
He may remain in the room, but he'll turn his back. Ignore her. Only see the poster on the wall.
I don't know if I can do this anymore.
For the first time in a very long time, she truly feels alone.
Just her and Polaris in the world.
« It's not supposed to be like this. He's finally awake. He's finally here, with me. We should be... »
Jesse's gaze drops to his shoulder once more. Some small part of her is relieved his face is in her shoulder and he can't see her face. She tries to compartmentalize it all like she normally does. Business first. Being the Director.
It hurts too much to contain it
Her head tilts once more into his shoulder. Hiding her face from him. Obscuring the unordinary girl everyone thought was crazy. She is crazy.
« I'm too crazy for him. Aren't I? All of this is too much for him. He'll leave. He already is, and he's finally awake... He promised to come home. »
Jesse's hands curl further into his coat for one more brief moment. She presses her forehead into his shoulder once more before lifting her head and squaring her back.
« No, no more. It goes back inside. Locked away like everything else. We don't habe the time or luxury for me to be like this. I'll work it out. Even if it ends up just being you and me again. We've done it before. »
Polaris shifts.
« No. The not so ordinary girl isn't who he needs right now. He doesn't need to see it again. Seeing it got him to this point. That's what matters. What to focus on. » ]
You're exhausted, Alan. It's obvious to see. [ Her tone has changed almost entirely. Jesse who is sure of herself. In control. ] Just, take as long as you need. Polaris and I aren't going anywhere. We'll keep the light on.
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Her breath catches in her throat at the sound of her name. He knows who she is still. A painful but loud beat of her heart next. That fear still grips onto her person. Nothing from the Dark Presence or the Dark Place. A natural fear that now he's truly awake he will leave once they have him home. That now he can see her and Polaris together, it will be too much, and he will leave.
He may remain in the room, but he'll turn his back. Ignore her. Only see the poster on the wall.
I don't know if I can do this anymore.
For the first time in a very long time, she truly feels alone.
Just her and Polaris in the world.
« It's not supposed to be like this. He's finally awake. He's finally here, with me. We should be... »
Jesse's gaze drops to his shoulder once more. Some small part of her is relieved his face is in her shoulder and he can't see her face. She tries to compartmentalize it all like she normally does. Business first. Being the Director.
It hurts too much to contain it
Her head tilts once more into his shoulder. Hiding her face from him. Obscuring the unordinary girl everyone thought was crazy. She is crazy.
« I'm too crazy for him. Aren't I? All of this is too much for him. He'll leave. He already is, and he's finally awake... He promised to come home. »
Jesse's hands curl further into his coat for one more brief moment. She presses her forehead into his shoulder once more before lifting her head and squaring her back.
« No, no more. It goes back inside. Locked away like everything else. We don't habe the time or luxury for me to be like this. I'll work it out. Even if it ends up just being you and me again. We've done it before. »
Polaris shifts.
« No. The not so ordinary girl isn't who he needs right now. He doesn't need to see it again. Seeing it got him to this point. That's what matters. What to focus on. » ]
You're exhausted, Alan. It's obvious to see. [ Her tone has changed almost entirely. Jesse who is sure of herself. In control. ] Just, take as long as you need. Polaris and I aren't going anywhere. We'll keep the light on.