[ The whole thing is a horror scene. This whole fucking mess. She's never seen anything like it. Never wants to see anything like it ever again. Seeing entities battle it out is different in their home reality. This... this is almost like watching a horror movie with how little she can do about everything around her.
« This is their home reality. Where the Dark Presence and that Diver thing exist. This is how they interact, how they fight. Alan is trapped in the middle--both using him to some way. Just like you said. Between Dark and Light. Except, he's aligned with one like I am to you... and the other tries to take him away... like the Hiss did to Dylan. We're the invaders here. Why are you so intent on helping this Diver? »
Polaris shimmers among the light rays coming in from the window.
« Not unlike you? That's--it's the Light? The opposite of the Dark Presence? Which means... enemies. Like you and the Hiss. It's trying to stop the Dark Presence like you wanted to stop the Hiss. But, it doesn't come into our reality like you did. It... it teaches people how to use it to fight the Dark? Like you resonate through me to fight the Hiss. This--there's so much. Am I ever going to understand it? Am I supposed to? »
Her attention snaps immediately to Alan once he speaks again. She's not entirely sure if he is talking to her or to himself or... shit, maybe it's the Diver for all she really knows. She isn't sure he's aware it's really her. Jesse--his Jesse. If he really does see her that way.
It ate my mind.
She blinks a few times, opening her mouth to say something. What can she say? Is she supposed to say something? No, she's probably not supposed to. That one sentence explains everything in so many ways. How he seems go fade away--the waves that wash him out. It's not just his mind wandering away because he's been out of their reality for so long.
« It's literally eating his mind. Not his brain, but what makes him Alan Wake. He told me this, and I've seen it. No. No, maybe what I've seen is what happens after it eats his mind. That's what the waves are... or when it's eating his mind? I don't know. He wouldn't tell me if I asked. »
Another thought dawns on her.
« Have I--have I ever been with the real Alan Wake? When he's fully here. With no waves in his mind, or his thoughts taking him away.
What if I'm too insane when he's entirely here? »
She glances upwards at the fading out image of the Diver as his words echo over the Hotline. So, the Diver really did teach him how to use the Light.
Alan sags into her hold and Jesse immediately compensates. Her arms wrap around his shoulders and pulls him close. His head can rest against her shoulder. She'll hold him. Polaris is still humming, but the power needed from her is less. The native inhabitant she amplifies is present, so, she has stepped back for now.
Jesse's hands curl into his tweed jacket. Her gaze drops. The Diver's breathing echos.
Her voice is small, scared of the answer she'll get. ] ...Alan?
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« This is their home reality. Where the Dark Presence and that Diver thing exist. This is how they interact, how they fight. Alan is trapped in the middle--both using him to some way. Just like you said. Between Dark and Light. Except, he's aligned with one like I am to you... and the other tries to take him away... like the Hiss did to Dylan. We're the invaders here. Why are you so intent on helping this Diver? »
Polaris shimmers among the light rays coming in from the window.
« Not unlike you? That's--it's the Light? The opposite of the Dark Presence? Which means... enemies. Like you and the Hiss. It's trying to stop the Dark Presence like you wanted to stop the Hiss. But, it doesn't come into our reality like you did. It... it teaches people how to use it to fight the Dark? Like you resonate through me to fight the Hiss. This--there's so much. Am I ever going to understand it? Am I supposed to? »
Her attention snaps immediately to Alan once he speaks again. She's not entirely sure if he is talking to her or to himself or... shit, maybe it's the Diver for all she really knows. She isn't sure he's aware it's really her. Jesse--his Jesse. If he really does see her that way.
It ate my mind.
She blinks a few times, opening her mouth to say something. What can she say? Is she supposed to say something? No, she's probably not supposed to. That one sentence explains everything in so many ways. How he seems go fade away--the waves that wash him out. It's not just his mind wandering away because he's been out of their reality for so long.
« It's literally eating his mind. Not his brain, but what makes him Alan Wake. He told me this, and I've seen it. No. No, maybe what I've seen is what happens after it eats his mind. That's what the waves are... or when it's eating his mind? I don't know. He wouldn't tell me if I asked. »
Another thought dawns on her.
« Have I--have I ever been with the real Alan Wake? When he's fully here. With no waves in his mind, or his thoughts taking him away.
What if I'm too insane when he's entirely here? »
She glances upwards at the fading out image of the Diver as his words echo over the Hotline. So, the Diver really did teach him how to use the Light.
Alan sags into her hold and Jesse immediately compensates. Her arms wrap around his shoulders and pulls him close. His head can rest against her shoulder. She'll hold him. Polaris is still humming, but the power needed from her is less. The native inhabitant she amplifies is present, so, she has stepped back for now.
Jesse's hands curl into his tweed jacket. Her gaze drops. The Diver's breathing echos.
Her voice is small, scared of the answer she'll get. ] ...Alan?