...I'm not sure we ever really understand how weird the world is until we live through something like this. Something that forces us to accept we don't know everything--that we're not told everything. [ She pauses for a moment. ] Not everyone can handle things like this. It's why the Buearu is so secretive about it all. We can tell people through fiction, but, I think most people can't accept the idea of a dimension existing in a place that you enter through a lake.
[ Still, Jesse can only slightly smile. ] It would have been nice if you'd believe me even then.
[ Although, she knows that it would have hurt in a way too. Part of her would have latched onto him. A part she'd have to let go of because he was still married to Alice. He technically is still, and she hasn't forgotten it. She knows once the loops end, the AWE is over, that Alan is going to have to go back to Alice. Whatever ends up happening will... including if she has to let him go because he still loves his wife.
« But, he'd still be home. In our reality. Maybe writing books or short stories or for Night Springs again. He"d be alive and home. Even if it'd be with Alice... »
Jesse just let's her smile curve a little. The time isn't right for certain jokes, so she won't make them, just imply. ]
I usually wear things like that around the apartment. It's more... rock and roll if I'm outside and not at work. [ She isn't quite sure why her wardrobe matters. Probably because it's something real. ] I'll keep all this I mind, you know.
[ She has fallen quiet after her own words trailed off. Listening to what he says, his breathing, having a small frown on her face. She hadn't meant to put him in such distress about it all. Pushed him to a point where he obsessed over it. Even if that is more caused by the Dark Presence more than anything.
I just want to be with Alan. Nothing else matters. Not the Buearu, or Bright Falls. Maybe that's in the ending. Maybe the story is fighting it so much because it's already there and we're trying to change it. If I just let it happen, then...
« WHAT? No. No, that's not me. Or you. What is trying to sound like me? Us. Something is trying to sound like us. Alan is important. We're important. But not at the cost of everything else. What the hell? »
Her fingers shift to slide between his on both hands and clamp down around before he beings speaking. Polaris seems to get louder, blocking out whatever that Something is.
« It's not allowed in. Whatever it is. You can't let it in. »
A squeeze to his hands as he pauses in what he's saying. ]
I don't want to lose you either. Not again.
[ She understands. Some small part of her maybe had no realization of how much she loved him until he was laying there dead on the beach. A splash of reality hitting her like the wave coming in. No one is safe in this story, not even the editor. It's going to take away who it wants when it wants with no remorse.
Because Scratch--the Dark Presence--wants it all.
Her tight grip on his hands shifts to be even tighter. Slightly painful with how hard she's pressing onto his hands. Polaris resonates loudly--but not so loudly she drowns out everything. Just turned up both defensively. Protecting both of them.
Jesse presses her forehead to his shoulder.
She's fallen so much for him and she can't say it right. ]
I won't let it take you from me. These damn things have taken so much from me... You're not going to be one of them. [ She lifts her head only so she can press it into the crook of his neck. Part of that girl from Ordinary is peeking into the conversation despite how she tries to be the Director in that moment. ] You're mine. My Alan. It can't have you.
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[ Still, Jesse can only slightly smile. ] It would have been nice if you'd believe me even then.
[ Although, she knows that it would have hurt in a way too. Part of her would have latched onto him. A part she'd have to let go of because he was still married to Alice. He technically is still, and she hasn't forgotten it. She knows once the loops end, the AWE is over, that Alan is going to have to go back to Alice. Whatever ends up happening will... including if she has to let him go because he still loves his wife.
« But, he'd still be home. In our reality. Maybe writing books or short stories or for Night Springs again. He"d be alive and home. Even if it'd be with Alice... »
Jesse just let's her smile curve a little. The time isn't right for certain jokes, so she won't make them, just imply. ]
I usually wear things like that around the apartment. It's more... rock and roll if I'm outside and not at work. [ She isn't quite sure why her wardrobe matters. Probably because it's something real. ] I'll keep all this I mind, you know.
[ She has fallen quiet after her own words trailed off. Listening to what he says, his breathing, having a small frown on her face. She hadn't meant to put him in such distress about it all. Pushed him to a point where he obsessed over it. Even if that is more caused by the Dark Presence more than anything.
I just want to be with Alan. Nothing else matters. Not the Buearu, or Bright Falls. Maybe that's in the ending. Maybe the story is fighting it so much because it's already there and we're trying to change it. If I just let it happen, then...
« WHAT? No. No, that's not me. Or you. What is trying to sound like me? Us. Something is trying to sound like us. Alan is important. We're important. But not at the cost of everything else. What the hell? »
Her fingers shift to slide between his on both hands and clamp down around before he beings speaking. Polaris seems to get louder, blocking out whatever that Something is.
« It's not allowed in. Whatever it is. You can't let it in. »
A squeeze to his hands as he pauses in what he's saying. ]
I don't want to lose you either. Not again.
[ She understands. Some small part of her maybe had no realization of how much she loved him until he was laying there dead on the beach. A splash of reality hitting her like the wave coming in. No one is safe in this story, not even the editor. It's going to take away who it wants when it wants with no remorse.
Because Scratch--the Dark Presence--wants it all.
Her tight grip on his hands shifts to be even tighter. Slightly painful with how hard she's pressing onto his hands. Polaris resonates loudly--but not so loudly she drowns out everything. Just turned up both defensively. Protecting both of them.
Jesse presses her forehead to his shoulder.
She's fallen so much for him and she can't say it right. ]
I won't let it take you from me. These damn things have taken so much from me... You're not going to be one of them. [ She lifts her head only so she can press it into the crook of his neck. Part of that girl from Ordinary is peeking into the conversation despite how she tries to be the Director in that moment. ] You're mine. My Alan. It can't have you.