[ Jesse gaze remains pointed downwards even once he confirms the experience of the last loop--from her perspective anyways. She doesn't want him to see how much it's affected her. Of course, he'll have some idea, as she isn't looking at him. If he sees her eyes then he'll know. He'll just blame himself more and spiral out again.
« Why can't I keep them here with me? Dylan and Alan. No matter what I do, they always seem to slip away. I know I screwed up with Dylan when we were kids. That was my fault. But, now... is Alan going to finally be out of the Dark Place to just sit vacantly in a cell in the Oldest House? Home, but not really home, like Dylan? No. I won't let it be like that. How can I change things to be what I want in this horror story? How can we change Return to save Saga's daughter and Alan? There HAS to be away. »
She nods to his question. Door and his talk show.
Jesse knows he's angry, even if it's not at her. There's nothing he's done to tip it off, and she can't read his thoughts, but she just knows he is. This is the one thing he was adamant about--not coming to the Dark Place. She's done exactly that, even if she didn't initiate it. She imagines she can leave the way she came... but can Alan? Is he going to be trapped here and be unable to follow her home? Even if he could, how would it stop Return?
« What if he pushes us away after calling out to us? Pushing us through the Spiral Door that I can't open. He's such a complicated asshole sometimes. I don't want him to shut me out--to run away. What if he does? »
She pauses in the kiss as he speaks. Part of her can't help but be frustrated by it. He needed help--them. Her and Polaris. Why is he apologizing? Wouldn't the Buearu be pulled into this mess regardless? And what would happen if she wasn't involved? Would this AWE be getting anywhere? Would Alan feel like he has someone with him? She can't see any better options with their situation. Even having him give up is a bad option, because what would the Dark Presence do with his body and make happen?
No, her being present is probably one of the best options on the table. And instead of using her like the ace she is? He's constantly afraid to let her do what she's here to do. Help him. Be the hero.
« He keeps saying I'm the hero... but maybe I'm not. It might be someone else. What can I do if I'm not allowed to save him? » ]
Alan. Stop apologizing. Please. I'm here--okay? That's what matters. [ She responds in a tone higher than his. Her forehead presses against his. ] Digging yourself into this hole is only going to make it worse.
[ Her eyes finally open and raise back to his. They immediately lock when he looks back at her. That firey determination remains in her gaze despite the wager still clinging to her vision. She's too stubborn to give up, even when all the odds say she should. She's not giving up on him, or ending this AWE, or on the idea he will be home and they'll have a chance at a real life together.
That determination saw her to the Oldest House--to Dylan. Even if it took the time it did.
She kisses him again, this time returning the passion and hunger he showed. The room doesn't give off much of a romantic vibe, so it may be a little awkward, but she isn't shying away from it either. Especially if he needs it to help feel the resonance she emits.
Polaris still tries to amplify off that spark inside him. Make herself grow brighter. ]
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« Why can't I keep them here with me? Dylan and Alan. No matter what I do, they always seem to slip away. I know I screwed up with Dylan when we were kids. That was my fault. But, now... is Alan going to finally be out of the Dark Place to just sit vacantly in a cell in the Oldest House? Home, but not really home, like Dylan? No. I won't let it be like that. How can I change things to be what I want in this horror story? How can we change Return to save Saga's daughter and Alan? There HAS to be away. »
She nods to his question. Door and his talk show.
Jesse knows he's angry, even if it's not at her. There's nothing he's done to tip it off, and she can't read his thoughts, but she just knows he is. This is the one thing he was adamant about--not coming to the Dark Place. She's done exactly that, even if she didn't initiate it. She imagines she can leave the way she came... but can Alan? Is he going to be trapped here and be unable to follow her home? Even if he could, how would it stop Return?
« What if he pushes us away after calling out to us? Pushing us through the Spiral Door that I can't open. He's such a complicated asshole sometimes. I don't want him to shut me out--to run away. What if he does? »
She pauses in the kiss as he speaks. Part of her can't help but be frustrated by it. He needed help--them. Her and Polaris. Why is he apologizing? Wouldn't the Buearu be pulled into this mess regardless? And what would happen if she wasn't involved? Would this AWE be getting anywhere? Would Alan feel like he has someone with him? She can't see any better options with their situation. Even having him give up is a bad option, because what would the Dark Presence do with his body and make happen?
No, her being present is probably one of the best options on the table. And instead of using her like the ace she is? He's constantly afraid to let her do what she's here to do. Help him. Be the hero.
« He keeps saying I'm the hero... but maybe I'm not. It might be someone else. What can I do if I'm not allowed to save him? » ]
Alan. Stop apologizing. Please. I'm here--okay? That's what matters. [ She responds in a tone higher than his. Her forehead presses against his. ] Digging yourself into this hole is only going to make it worse.
[ Her eyes finally open and raise back to his. They immediately lock when he looks back at her. That firey determination remains in her gaze despite the wager still clinging to her vision. She's too stubborn to give up, even when all the odds say she should. She's not giving up on him, or ending this AWE, or on the idea he will be home and they'll have a chance at a real life together.
That determination saw her to the Oldest House--to Dylan. Even if it took the time it did.
She kisses him again, this time returning the passion and hunger he showed. The room doesn't give off much of a romantic vibe, so it may be a little awkward, but she isn't shying away from it either. Especially if he needs it to help feel the resonance she emits.
Polaris still tries to amplify off that spark inside him. Make herself grow brighter. ]