[ No hesitation is in her movements to lean into his hold. Most would say Alan Wake is far from the most reliable or dependable person--even more now--but she knows he will pull himself together when it's needed most. He'll rise to whatever call he's given, even if it's for selfish or self-serving reasons. Those reasons have the consequences of saving others. So, at the end of the line, Jesse still sees him as heroic.
« How many other people place themselves in other dimensions to save the person they love? Alan's an asshole. But, he still loves and cares about people. Not many others would do what he's done. Less are even willing to believe. »
Jesse nods to his description. ] I know what it's like--keeping something at bay that can't enter our dimension. Not if we want to lose it all. No matter the cost.
[ « Darling. Dylan. So many people in the Bureau. The Hiss took it all to get in. What is the Dark Presence going to do to get in? What is it going to take? It's already tried to take Alan... more than once. Well. It can't have him I won't let it. »
『 So, Director Faden, here's my last lesson: you can't save everyone. 』
Jesse looks down and glares. Hard. Marshall may have been right, but she will not budge on this. She won't let it have Alan. Not only because he's too powerful of a parautalitarian. Because he's hers.
Even if she can't say it or if it's ultimately a lie because of his marriage to Alice Wake. It feels true. That's enough for her right now--to get then out of this AWE.
Jesse's hands over his curl around into something of a deadlock. Her forehead is pressing against his. A hard expression is on her face, jaw to the side. Her eyes lock back to his as she searches into his.
« Is he REALLY here with me? Will he wash out as soon as I turn my back? I NEED to know. I can't ask my people to trust him if there's the smallest chance he is going to leave me. »
Her eyebrows knit together as she feels the water gather back in her eyes. Yes, she's scared. Not of the idea that the Dark Presence is going to come. Not even of the fact it will be a hard battle and it will take a lot from her. It's a fear of losing him. She finally found him in this loop...
Her voice wavers despite the authority she is trying to project. Small, scared. Only loud enough for him to hear. He'll know that tone. ]
... Alan, are you awake? [ She presses her forehead further against his ash her hands begin to shake on top of his. ] Please, I need to know. I need you to. Right now. Wake. Up.
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« How many other people place themselves in other dimensions to save the person they love? Alan's an asshole. But, he still loves and cares about people. Not many others would do what he's done. Less are even willing to believe. »
Jesse nods to his description. ] I know what it's like--keeping something at bay that can't enter our dimension. Not if we want to lose it all. No matter the cost.
[ « Darling. Dylan. So many people in the Bureau. The Hiss took it all to get in. What is the Dark Presence going to do to get in? What is it going to take? It's already tried to take Alan... more than once. Well. It can't have him I won't let it. »
『 So, Director Faden, here's my last lesson: you can't save everyone. 』
Jesse looks down and glares. Hard. Marshall may have been right, but she will not budge on this. She won't let it have Alan. Not only because he's too powerful of a parautalitarian. Because he's hers.
Even if she can't say it or if it's ultimately a lie because of his marriage to Alice Wake. It feels true. That's enough for her right now--to get then out of this AWE.
Jesse's hands over his curl around into something of a deadlock. Her forehead is pressing against his. A hard expression is on her face, jaw to the side. Her eyes lock back to his as she searches into his.
« Is he REALLY here with me? Will he wash out as soon as I turn my back? I NEED to know. I can't ask my people to trust him if there's the smallest chance he is going to leave me. »
Her eyebrows knit together as she feels the water gather back in her eyes. Yes, she's scared. Not of the idea that the Dark Presence is going to come. Not even of the fact it will be a hard battle and it will take a lot from her. It's a fear of losing him. She finally found him in this loop...
Her voice wavers despite the authority she is trying to project. Small, scared. Only loud enough for him to hear. He'll know that tone. ]
... Alan, are you awake? [ She presses her forehead further against his ash her hands begin to shake on top of his. ] Please, I need to know. I need you to. Right now. Wake. Up.
[ How many times has she said this? ]