[ Why can't I feel her? I could always feel her. Reaching. Stirring up something inside both of us. Grow brighter. Polaris.
Alan feels something inside him begin to shake and quiver as a realization occurs to him: a possible reason why he can't feel the resonance from Polaris like he has before. The connection he has with Polaris isn't like the one Jesse has. He wouldn't dare presume as much. But not being able to feel her when she reaches out feels as though he's losing access to something bright and warm and comforting. And when very little, if anything at all, in the Dark Place is comforting, that loss is monumental.
Not devastating like the severing of the bond between Jesse and Polaris, but it's bad enough in Alan's mind.
They share a brief kiss, and then the footsteps get closer, followed by the opening of the door. Steve enters, and Alan looks up to see him walking in. He's another friendly face, although Alan isn't sure if he can assign the word "friend" to him, when they barely know each other. But Steve has always been kind to him, in a friendly joking kind of way; there's a normality to that that Alan appreciates, and so he does consider him a friend, at least privately.
Control points. It's another term that Alan isn't sure he knows, but a thought rises up in his mind from out of nowhere. Well, not a thought, but an image: Jesse on the ground, hands on the floor. Doing something. Channeling something. Energy? Resonance? He doesn't know if the two are connected. They might be, but he just doesn't have enough information yet.
Steve addresses him and he pulls himself out of his thoughts again. ] Yeah. Ready as I'll ever be, I guess.
[ He quiets again as Steve and Jesse briefly debate having him join them. He understands why Jesse would hesitate, but Steve's response surprises him. He didn't expect the ranger to take responsibility for watching him. He figured if anything, he'd get put right back in the cell next to the two cult leaders while the FBC did their work.
His gaze shifts back to Jesse as she poses a question to him now: would he rather stay here, or go with her? The answer is clear and he gives it almost immediately. It might be light in this room, but he doesn't want to be left alone. ] I want to go with you. If that's okay.
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Alan feels something inside him begin to shake and quiver as a realization occurs to him: a possible reason why he can't feel the resonance from Polaris like he has before. The connection he has with Polaris isn't like the one Jesse has. He wouldn't dare presume as much. But not being able to feel her when she reaches out feels as though he's losing access to something bright and warm and comforting. And when very little, if anything at all, in the Dark Place is comforting, that loss is monumental.
Not devastating like the severing of the bond between Jesse and Polaris, but it's bad enough in Alan's mind.
They share a brief kiss, and then the footsteps get closer, followed by the opening of the door. Steve enters, and Alan looks up to see him walking in. He's another friendly face, although Alan isn't sure if he can assign the word "friend" to him, when they barely know each other. But Steve has always been kind to him, in a friendly joking kind of way; there's a normality to that that Alan appreciates, and so he does consider him a friend, at least privately.
Control points. It's another term that Alan isn't sure he knows, but a thought rises up in his mind from out of nowhere. Well, not a thought, but an image: Jesse on the ground, hands on the floor. Doing something. Channeling something. Energy? Resonance? He doesn't know if the two are connected. They might be, but he just doesn't have enough information yet.
Steve addresses him and he pulls himself out of his thoughts again. ] Yeah. Ready as I'll ever be, I guess.
[ He quiets again as Steve and Jesse briefly debate having him join them. He understands why Jesse would hesitate, but Steve's response surprises him. He didn't expect the ranger to take responsibility for watching him. He figured if anything, he'd get put right back in the cell next to the two cult leaders while the FBC did their work.
His gaze shifts back to Jesse as she poses a question to him now: would he rather stay here, or go with her? The answer is clear and he gives it almost immediately. It might be light in this room, but he doesn't want to be left alone. ] I want to go with you. If that's okay.