[ Even if he asked those questions, Jesse really wouldn't have the right answer. It's something everyone has to figure out for themselves ... or something like that. She spent years on the run using fake names, getting odd jobs, never staying in one place. Then, when she finally found the FBC, she felt at home. It confirmed everything she knew about reality and what people endless told her was insanity. That is her path. She can't say the same would work for Alan.
If he did ask for help? She'd do what she could--and so would Polaris it seems. Jesse can't put her exact finger on it, but is seems Polaris sees him as an...alley? A similar sort of person? She can't get the words right in her own head from her friend, so maybe, she's missing some sort of information. Information about the dimension that Alan was in. Which means she'd need to question him more about it.
« He can barely put an entire string of thought together, let alone be interviewed about what happened. We're going to have to wait. » ]
Okay. Got it. No meetings.
[ She nods, but wonders if he'll change his mind eventually.
« Do I want to tell him? It's... things are complicated when it comes to it. Only a handful of people really know what happened in Ordinary. Should I really trust him with that? I mean, it's not like there's much he can do if he can't create AWEs, right? But, it's not just that. It's about me. Jesse Faden, not Director Faden. »
Polaris shimmers in her mind.
« I know, I know. Asking him about his time in a dimension is asking him just to be as vulnerable as he's asking me to be. It's just that... it never really worked out before. Telling people. Emily knows, but she's in the FBC. He's apart of this world too now, but even then it's... do I really show someone who is drowning how much I failed others before? »
Jesse nods to what he is saying even as she battles internally--rather with Polaris--about sharing the details of her past. Polaris seems to encourage it, as if she is looking to forge another ally. That in itself doesn't make much sense to her at all. Why would Polaris need another ally? What is going on in that dimension that Alan was trapped in? Even with that all aside, Jesse still isn't sure she should open up as much as she's being asked to. ]
Polaris. At least, that's the name I gave her. [ « A name you don't seem to mind. » ] She resonates... brings things in line with her frequency. Which, I think is why she can help, but not really remove whatever is going on with you. If there is anything really going "on."
[ Polaris' resonance is gentle, like a shifting energy moving back and forth. It doesn't try to intrude further on Alan or pull him in. It only exists as is, inhabiting the entire space around Jesse. A keen observer would pick up on the fact that it's not just around her but from her. ]
I can do what I can because of her. Just like you can do...whatever it is you can do because of your time at Bright Falls. [ Or, something like that. She isn't exactly sure what Alan can do other than bend reality to some degree. ] There are people that the Bureau calls "parautalitarians"--people that can use paranatural forces. Like you and me. I think that Polaris and things like her gravitate to people like us.
Not that I really have any proof of it.
[ Polaris shimmers once more as if to confirm what Jesse is suggesting. A shimmer so bright that even Alan may see it around her. ]
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If he did ask for help? She'd do what she could--and so would Polaris it seems. Jesse can't put her exact finger on it, but is seems Polaris sees him as an...alley? A similar sort of person? She can't get the words right in her own head from her friend, so maybe, she's missing some sort of information. Information about the dimension that Alan was in. Which means she'd need to question him more about it.
« He can barely put an entire string of thought together, let alone be interviewed about what happened. We're going to have to wait. » ]
Okay. Got it. No meetings.
[ She nods, but wonders if he'll change his mind eventually.
« Do I want to tell him? It's... things are complicated when it comes to it. Only a handful of people really know what happened in Ordinary. Should I really trust him with that? I mean, it's not like there's much he can do if he can't create AWEs, right? But, it's not just that. It's about me. Jesse Faden, not Director Faden. »
Polaris shimmers in her mind.
« I know, I know. Asking him about his time in a dimension is asking him just to be as vulnerable as he's asking me to be. It's just that... it never really worked out before. Telling people. Emily knows, but she's in the FBC. He's apart of this world too now, but even then it's... do I really show someone who is drowning how much I failed others before? »
Jesse nods to what he is saying even as she battles internally--rather with Polaris--about sharing the details of her past. Polaris seems to encourage it, as if she is looking to forge another ally. That in itself doesn't make much sense to her at all. Why would Polaris need another ally? What is going on in that dimension that Alan was trapped in? Even with that all aside, Jesse still isn't sure she should open up as much as she's being asked to. ]
Polaris. At least, that's the name I gave her. [ « A name you don't seem to mind. » ] She resonates... brings things in line with her frequency. Which, I think is why she can help, but not really remove whatever is going on with you. If there is anything really going "on."
[ Polaris' resonance is gentle, like a shifting energy moving back and forth. It doesn't try to intrude further on Alan or pull him in. It only exists as is, inhabiting the entire space around Jesse. A keen observer would pick up on the fact that it's not just around her but from her. ]
I can do what I can because of her. Just like you can do...whatever it is you can do because of your time at Bright Falls. [ Or, something like that. She isn't exactly sure what Alan can do other than bend reality to some degree. ] There are people that the Bureau calls "parautalitarians"--people that can use paranatural forces. Like you and me. I think that Polaris and things like her gravitate to people like us.
Not that I really have any proof of it.
[ Polaris shimmers once more as if to confirm what Jesse is suggesting. A shimmer so bright that even Alan may see it around her. ]