[ Once again, he finds himself silenced by the awe he feels when he is faced with her love and how much she cares for him. It still feels undeserved to him, even though he knows that saying as much to her will earn him a gentle reprimand.
Before he speaks, he gives an involuntary shiver as the alternating heat and cold continues to take turns affecting him. ]
If more people on our star were as kind and as good as you, it would be an even better place than it already is. I have no doubt of it. [ And yes, he still believes that, on the whole, their star is made up of good people. There are those with less than good intentions, but he finds their actions outweighed by those of the same mind as Alkaid. ]
Then you must allow me to care for you in turn, as soon as I am able. [ He coughs once, doing his best to keep it quiet so as not to concern her more, but he knows that she keeps such a close eye upon him and his actions that she will surely not miss it. ] Similarly, I have need of my dearest, and I also have a deeper desire to see that she is well and cared for.
[ Before he responds, his mind chooses this very moment to remind him that he has several meetings that he must oversee in the morning, and he realizes belatedly that he must take whatever rest he can if he is to be prepared. He knows by now that he sleeps easier when she is present, and so he concludes that insisting that she sleep in another room for her health would be counterproductive. It is a selfish notion, and he knows he should continue to insist, but he decides to be selfish just this once. ]
... Will you stay? [ He is aware of the contradiction, but he knows that she will understand how he wrestles with what he knows is right and what he desires. ]
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Before he speaks, he gives an involuntary shiver as the alternating heat and cold continues to take turns affecting him. ]
If more people on our star were as kind and as good as you, it would be an even better place than it already is. I have no doubt of it. [ And yes, he still believes that, on the whole, their star is made up of good people. There are those with less than good intentions, but he finds their actions outweighed by those of the same mind as Alkaid. ]
Then you must allow me to care for you in turn, as soon as I am able. [ He coughs once, doing his best to keep it quiet so as not to concern her more, but he knows that she keeps such a close eye upon him and his actions that she will surely not miss it. ] Similarly, I have need of my dearest, and I also have a deeper desire to see that she is well and cared for.
[ Before he responds, his mind chooses this very moment to remind him that he has several meetings that he must oversee in the morning, and he realizes belatedly that he must take whatever rest he can if he is to be prepared. He knows by now that he sleeps easier when she is present, and so he concludes that insisting that she sleep in another room for her health would be counterproductive. It is a selfish notion, and he knows he should continue to insist, but he decides to be selfish just this once. ]
... Will you stay? [ He is aware of the contradiction, but he knows that she will understand how he wrestles with what he knows is right and what he desires. ]