[ In reality, she knows that the one to end Aymeric's life would have been Estinien. He would rather sully his hands with his brother's blood to release him from enthrallment than allow him to suffer anymore. She also knows that Estinien would wish to do it from the sight of others, as Aymeric says he would take his own life. Neither options are ones she can quite rightfully stand or approve of.

Her gaze turns back to him, gaze immediately locking onto his. Her lips are pressed together to keep the lower lip from trembling. ]

I will be there when you pass, in however manner that will be. [ Alkaid shifts under him to turn more towards him once more. Her nose gently nudges his chin. ] ...you've spent far too much of your life alone... a-and if you are to pass without me... I would be there to see you off...

[ Although the notion itself causes her to tremble. She tilts her head down slightly, eyes closed, trying to keep the tears inside. She would have him pass along side her when the time comes. She does not wish for either to have to wait for the other in the aetheric sea, regardless of how unrealistic it truly is.

Her eyebrows knit together, knowing he had asked what was on her mind. Even though she had resolved not to say it? She cannot help the words that wish to spring from her now. ]

You wish for me to only be myself... and to not act in ways that are expected... b-but that I'm... [ too demanding, too needing of your affection, far too needing of intimacy. ] ... that I'm not proper enough of a woman you deserve at your side.