And I do not wish to see you go. I would accompany you, but of course that is quite impossible. [ And admitting that aloud makes his heart ache more than he cares to admit. In fact, the entirety of this conversation is bringing everything he has tried so hard to suppress to the forefront of it all, which is the last thing that he wants.
Already he can feel the ripples of things he has left unsettled and unaddressed beginning to swirl about, and he tries his best to push them away once more. Knowing that she can detect things from people's aether, even if she is not presently tending to his own, he tries his best to remain calm around her so that she may not pick up any distress coming from him. Knowing that that is not how her gifts function, it might seem like a foolish gesture, but it seems to help keep him slightly more even-keeled, even in the face of upheaval.
No matter how much hurt and unresolved issues he still carries with him, they are his to sort out and he would not trouble her or anyone else with them more than he already has. The only problem is that the list of issues he needs to address appears to be growing longer almost every day.
When she presses that kiss against the place where his jaw and neck meet, he all but forces the rising tension away, hoping that her soothing touch will be enough to calm the storm inside him. Even so, the fact remains that there is still so much he has yet to fully understand and come to terms with, but the one thing he understands without a doubt is that she loves him just as much as he loves her. That has never been a question, and it is one certainty in a sea full of uncertainties that he has come to rely upon.
The nudge of her face against his fingers further draws his attention, and his eyes lock with hers. He believes he knows the unspoken question that her eyes are asking, and while he would quickly answer in the affirmative, he is certain she would see right through it.
But the moment that she joins him in the kiss, all thoughts flee from his mind and all he can think about is his love for her and how he wishes they could have moments like this every day. When he is with her, it is somehow easier to look towards a future that is not so wrought with conflict, unrest, and uncertainty. One day, there might be more days of peace and fewer occasions in which she and her sister have to travel to the farthest parts of their star. That really is all he could ever ask for.
At her next words, he tilts his head to one side as if pondering them carefully. ]
Has it? [ He will not deny that the road he is walking has had its difficulties, and some of those still remain. What is more, he has sustained some hurts along the way, but so have many others, and to a far greater extent than his own, or so he chooses to believe.
He realizes once he has asked that question that it could be misinterpreted if he continues expressing the thoughts that came to him, and so he changes tactics. ]
I would never refuse your aid, nor your love or anything else that you chose to offer me. All I ask is that you allow me to show you the same kindness that you have given me, that I might aid and assist with anything that troubles you and weighs you down.
[ And having said that, he leans in again so that he might kiss her once more. ]
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Already he can feel the ripples of things he has left unsettled and unaddressed beginning to swirl about, and he tries his best to push them away once more. Knowing that she can detect things from people's aether, even if she is not presently tending to his own, he tries his best to remain calm around her so that she may not pick up any distress coming from him. Knowing that that is not how her gifts function, it might seem like a foolish gesture, but it seems to help keep him slightly more even-keeled, even in the face of upheaval.
No matter how much hurt and unresolved issues he still carries with him, they are his to sort out and he would not trouble her or anyone else with them more than he already has. The only problem is that the list of issues he needs to address appears to be growing longer almost every day.
When she presses that kiss against the place where his jaw and neck meet, he all but forces the rising tension away, hoping that her soothing touch will be enough to calm the storm inside him. Even so, the fact remains that there is still so much he has yet to fully understand and come to terms with, but the one thing he understands without a doubt is that she loves him just as much as he loves her. That has never been a question, and it is one certainty in a sea full of uncertainties that he has come to rely upon.
The nudge of her face against his fingers further draws his attention, and his eyes lock with hers. He believes he knows the unspoken question that her eyes are asking, and while he would quickly answer in the affirmative, he is certain she would see right through it.
But the moment that she joins him in the kiss, all thoughts flee from his mind and all he can think about is his love for her and how he wishes they could have moments like this every day. When he is with her, it is somehow easier to look towards a future that is not so wrought with conflict, unrest, and uncertainty. One day, there might be more days of peace and fewer occasions in which she and her sister have to travel to the farthest parts of their star. That really is all he could ever ask for.
At her next words, he tilts his head to one side as if pondering them carefully. ]
Has it? [ He will not deny that the road he is walking has had its difficulties, and some of those still remain. What is more, he has sustained some hurts along the way, but so have many others, and to a far greater extent than his own, or so he chooses to believe.
He realizes once he has asked that question that it could be misinterpreted if he continues expressing the thoughts that came to him, and so he changes tactics. ]
I would never refuse your aid, nor your love or anything else that you chose to offer me. All I ask is that you allow me to show you the same kindness that you have given me, that I might aid and assist with anything that troubles you and weighs you down.
[ And having said that, he leans in again so that he might kiss her once more. ]