[ He presses his hands to his lips as he tries to process his thoughts and sort through the swirling storm of emotions that his words and hers have stirred up in him. She would be correct in her guess that his feelings extend deeper than what he has said, but now he fears that he has placed too much of his inner worries and fears upon her. They are his burdens to carry, and although he welcomes her comfort, he does not wish to drag her down as well.
His eyes slide closed as well and his head lowers slightly as he wrestles with the own hurt he has been keeping inside, and the thought that she does not need to apologize, for she has not wronged him in any way. ]
Lantaa, there is nothing for you to apologize for. If anything, it should be me who is offering you apologies, for I have placed so many of my burdens upon you simply by speaking of them when that was never my intent. I welcome your support and your listening ear, but I do not wish to weigh you down as well.
[ And having said that, he does his best to push aside the hurt he still feels so that he might smile for her benefit. ]
I will gladly wait for you to return, however many times you are called away from Ishgard and from me. At the very least, when you are able to return, your home will be here waiting. [ He is certain that he has expressed similar sentiments before, but he only wishes to reiterate that she will always have a home with him.
As always, when she places her hand on his scar, his shoulders curl inward just a fraction, responding as if the area is still sensitive. In some ways, it is, particularly when the temperatures drastically drop, but a good portion of his responses to being touched there are only in his mind. ]
Please, do not trouble yourself so much because of the duties that both of us hold.
[ His emotions threaten to choke him once more, but he pushes past them once again, even though his voice lowers in tone as emotion rises. ]
That you are here with me at all means more than I can say, and I will not... I cannot turn you away.
[ And having said that, he reaches for her hands, taking them in his and giving them a firm squeeze. Now, his resolve is clear as are his intentions, and he has just one more thing to say: ]
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His eyes slide closed as well and his head lowers slightly as he wrestles with the own hurt he has been keeping inside, and the thought that she does not need to apologize, for she has not wronged him in any way. ]
Lantaa, there is nothing for you to apologize for. If anything, it should be me who is offering you apologies, for I have placed so many of my burdens upon you simply by speaking of them when that was never my intent. I welcome your support and your listening ear, but I do not wish to weigh you down as well.
[ And having said that, he does his best to push aside the hurt he still feels so that he might smile for her benefit. ]
I will gladly wait for you to return, however many times you are called away from Ishgard and from me. At the very least, when you are able to return, your home will be here waiting. [ He is certain that he has expressed similar sentiments before, but he only wishes to reiterate that she will always have a home with him.
As always, when she places her hand on his scar, his shoulders curl inward just a fraction, responding as if the area is still sensitive. In some ways, it is, particularly when the temperatures drastically drop, but a good portion of his responses to being touched there are only in his mind. ]
Please, do not trouble yourself so much because of the duties that both of us hold.
[ His emotions threaten to choke him once more, but he pushes past them once again, even though his voice lowers in tone as emotion rises. ]
That you are here with me at all means more than I can say, and I will not... I cannot turn you away.
[ And having said that, he reaches for her hands, taking them in his and giving them a firm squeeze. Now, his resolve is clear as are his intentions, and he has just one more thing to say: ]
Lie down beside me.