[ Finally, practically unbidden, he realizes he has a description for the root cause of all that is troubling him. Alkaid herself said a version of it not long ago, but the truth of the matter is that his heart bleeds for Ishgard and the people who dwell there. When the city is under attack, it might as well be Aymeric himself who is being harmed. That is why he must have solid plans for Ishgard's defenses and a way to bring this war to an end.
Of course, he leaves this unsaid because he feels that Alkaid has witnessed enough unbecoming behavior and words from him this night. And there may very well be more before the night ends, whether he wills it or not. ]
Of course. I will have orders given in the morning. But I do believe that even the Temple Knights would take suggestion from you, if you were to give it. [ There is a difference between suggestion and orders, and the reputation of the Warriors of Light is well known amongst Ishgard's knights.
His surging emotions are manifesting in his shaking hands, and so he is grateful for Alkaid giving him something to hold onto, something that might ground him.
Even as she guides him to rest his head against her shoulder, an apology is forming on his lips. ] Once again, I am sorry. There may be no one but you here to witness it, but this is hardly becoming behavior for the Lord Commander. [ Even though he knows he does not have to be that man when he is with her.
He is all too aware of how disgraceful this might appear to the wrong eyes, and yet now that he is resting in her arms, he finds he can no longer maintain his rigid posture. Those prying eyes are not in this room, and he is certain that Alkaid will not carry tales of his behavior or of what he tells her in confidence. ]
I- [ Speaking is difficult, but he still wishes to give it an attempt before he abandons the effort entirely. ] I am certain that it will seem strange, even foolish, but I cannot help but wonder what my father and mother would think.
[ Of me is the part he leaves unspoken. Intertwined in that wondering is what they would think of his decisions and his leadership, if they would approve or not. ]
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Of course, he leaves this unsaid because he feels that Alkaid has witnessed enough unbecoming behavior and words from him this night. And there may very well be more before the night ends, whether he wills it or not. ]
Of course. I will have orders given in the morning. But I do believe that even the Temple Knights would take suggestion from you, if you were to give it. [ There is a difference between suggestion and orders, and the reputation of the Warriors of Light is well known amongst Ishgard's knights.
His surging emotions are manifesting in his shaking hands, and so he is grateful for Alkaid giving him something to hold onto, something that might ground him.
Even as she guides him to rest his head against her shoulder, an apology is forming on his lips. ] Once again, I am sorry. There may be no one but you here to witness it, but this is hardly becoming behavior for the Lord Commander. [ Even though he knows he does not have to be that man when he is with her.
He is all too aware of how disgraceful this might appear to the wrong eyes, and yet now that he is resting in her arms, he finds he can no longer maintain his rigid posture. Those prying eyes are not in this room, and he is certain that Alkaid will not carry tales of his behavior or of what he tells her in confidence. ]
I- [ Speaking is difficult, but he still wishes to give it an attempt before he abandons the effort entirely. ] I am certain that it will seem strange, even foolish, but I cannot help but wonder what my father and mother would think.
[ Of me is the part he leaves unspoken. Intertwined in that wondering is what they would think of his decisions and his leadership, if they would approve or not. ]