[ There is a part of him that wishes he could hide from her and the rest of the world so that no one should have to see him at what he feels is his worst. If the look in his eyes were to be described, perhaps the words involved would describe feeling lost and needing a helping hand to regain one's footing. And well he knows or suspects that that is what Alkaid wishes to do. So perhaps in that sense, he does need to meet her halfway.

He does pay close attention to her words, listening with great care to each one, and doing his best to let their meaning sink in. There is a wisdom to what she says, but even though he is more than willing to heed the advice given, there remains a part of him that struggles with balancing who he is as a person with the roles and responsibilities that he carries. ]

You know that I respect and value your opinion, and that I consider you a trusted and cherished friend, but I- [ An uncertain look crosses his face then before he continues. ] I must admit that I fear what may happen if that mantle slips once more. Will I only do a further disservice to Ishgard and to the people?

[ He shakes his head. ] I do not question all of my actions, or what I do when you and I manage to find a private moment. [ Truth be told, those moments are a rather sizable bright spot in his life. ]

It is what I do when in the public eye that I question, especially now.

[ He manages a small smile when she kisses the side of his head, but his doubts and fears still linger. ]

Can you say in all good conscience that my choices and my decisions were not done rashly and without thinking? [ Because given how badly everything turned out, he has a hard time believing that he truly examined all avenues before putting his plans into motion. ]

I am sorry, I am certain that by now you can tell I do not put aside that mantle easily.

[ In fact, it has become something of a shield for him when he does not wish to contemplate his more private feelings. ]