[ Even as he's fighting against the feeling that a weight has settled on his chest, stifling his ability to breathe or even speak, he's shaking his head. What he wants more than anything is to rise and meet with the priests and other advisors while still having her there standing beside him. What he wishes is for duty and desire to meet halfway so that he can be Pharaoh while still having her with him to offer guidance and support when he needs it. And if he dared to ask for more, for her to love him, he would take that too, if she wished to give it.
It's only too true that they're able to just be themselves inside these walls, but when they go outside, all of that changes and they have to fall back into their respective roles.
The struggle between what he wants and what he feels he must do continues to pull on him, and that only contributes to his distress. It's not anything that can be healed as she did previously, and not a physical wound that's broken open, but something intangible and far more difficult to reach.
His fingers tighten against his chest, and inadvertently against her hands, as if trying desperately to wrench away the emotional upset that's threatening to suffocate him. But it can't be dislodged that way, however hard he tries.
It's a storm he'll have to ride out, if he can only call on the strength he needs for it. ]
don't mind him, he's just going to glue himself to her side for a little while. forget propriety
It's only too true that they're able to just be themselves inside these walls, but when they go outside, all of that changes and they have to fall back into their respective roles.
The struggle between what he wants and what he feels he must do continues to pull on him, and that only contributes to his distress. It's not anything that can be healed as she did previously, and not a physical wound that's broken open, but something intangible and far more difficult to reach.
His fingers tighten against his chest, and inadvertently against her hands, as if trying desperately to wrench away the emotional upset that's threatening to suffocate him. But it can't be dislodged that way, however hard he tries.
It's a storm he'll have to ride out, if he can only call on the strength he needs for it. ]