ifthereiswill: (𝟘𝟚𝟝 ☆)
Yami Yugi (Atem) ([personal profile] ifthereiswill) wrote in [community profile] synthneon 2021-08-22 10:57 pm (UTC)

[ He's never known anyone quite like her, and maybe they moved into this state of their relationship, such as it is, relatively quickly, but he likes to think that this is more than a passing attraction. He can't speak to her feelings, but he knows that his own feelings towards her run deep and far beyond just a surface attraction.

That's why it's so hard to reconcile those feelings with the other ones that he's been wrestling with: that he isn't doing enough to repay her for everything she's given to him, and that it isn't fair of him to saddle her with someone who doesn't even fully belong in this world. But to do what his head is telling him to, namely pulling himself away because she should be in love with someone real, feels all but impossible. It's selfish, but he just can't bring himself to let her go.

They may not have very much time, but whatever time they do have here, he wants to spend every minute possible with her. But anything like going to the museum or visiting other attractions will have to wait until he's found a way to fix what's been done to her. His resolve to do so hasn't wavered; the only thing that's leaving him uncertain is the fact that he simply doesn't know how to make her better.

He can be here with her, holding and comforting her, but that won't bring her voice back, will it? If Gentiana's words can be believed, and he has no reason to doubt them, it just won't be enough.

He should be striving to find a way to set things right again, but all he wants right now is her. If she wants him, then he wants her too, and it's that desire that drives him to hold onto her gently but fiercely at the same time. If he ever had a queen in his past life, he doesn't know; but in this current life, such as it is, she's the closest thing to a queen, his queen, that he has. He wishes to keep her by his side for as long as she wants to be there. And if she ever wants to leave, then of course he'll let her go, because he only wants what's best for her, and he can't pretend that he believes keeping her with him is the best thing for her.

His life is dangerous; the encounters with Dartz have only proved that. And even if it wasn't, he can't even give her all of him and his time, because at the end of the day, he's only a ghost borrowing the form of another.

So for now, he's just going to hold onto her, but the thought is always in the back of his mind that one day, he may have to say goodbye. ]


It's all right, Luna. [ He sees the look in her eyes and he can't stand to see that. ] You don't have to speak. [ Or to force herself to. He can't imagine that that'll be good for her recovery either.

So with that in mind, he just tightens his hold on her until he's giving her the warmest embrace he can manage. ]

Post a comment in response:

This account has disabled anonymous posting.
If you don't have an account you can create one now.
No Subject Icon Selected
More info about formatting