[ What he's left unsaid thus far, because his focus needs to be on her and not on himself, is that his resolve comes and goes in waves. Yes, he knows that he'll do whatever he has to in order to help her, but he can't quite drown out that nagging voice that says this entire situation is his fault. So far, he's managed to keep himself grounded and still in the present, but it really wasn't all that long ago that he found himself paralyzed by his guilt and fears and unable to move or even speak.
That's the last thing he wants to have resurface now, but the thoughts are insidious and they're still swirling around his mind even as he tries to be strong and supportive for her.
He feels as though he has to be careful with what he says, because saying the wrong thing might only add to the pressure she's already carrying, but he wants her to know that he's with her every step of the way, and he won't be leaving her for anything in the world. ]
Luna, I- [ He's still debating with himself about whether or not he should say what's on his mind. ] I want to hear your voice again, but what I don't want...
[ Part of him still feels like he's walking a very thin line, and saying the wrong thing could send her spiraling down even further. Now he can imagine how she must have felt when their roles were reversed. ]
I don't want you feeling like you have to do anything before you're ready. You have time, as much time as you need.
[ He's just realized that there really is no time limit for this current situation. Unlike the time crunch they were under when he was rendered almost incapacitated, he doesn't see any such deadline in front of them now. ]
If you need more time to rest before you decide on an action, you should.
[ And if Gentiana or anyone else tries to contradict that, then Atem has no problems asking them to wait. The last thing he wants is to lose Lunafreya somehow, either because she pushed herself to act before she was ready, or because the pressure she's placed on herself becomes too much. Either way, the outcome is equally undesirable.
And as for this moment right in front of them, if she can't will herself to bridge the gap between them as they once did, then he'll do it for her. He moves carefully, trying to be mindful of her and her needs, but he closes that gap between them so there's no longer anything separating them.
He can't stand that look in her eyes, but he believes he understands what she's feeling, and so he tries to be as comforting as he can, reaching for a lock of her hair first, and then moving so his hand rests lightly against the back of her head.
Perhaps if he just remains with her, she'll feel safe enough to fall asleep, or simply tired enough. He hopes that if she does, she'll manage to rest, but he knows how hard it can be to sleep when one's feelings are all turned upside down.
Still, he's going to stay right here with her. ]
Is there anything that you need? [ If so, he'll move mountains to get it, whatever it might be. ]
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That's the last thing he wants to have resurface now, but the thoughts are insidious and they're still swirling around his mind even as he tries to be strong and supportive for her.
He feels as though he has to be careful with what he says, because saying the wrong thing might only add to the pressure she's already carrying, but he wants her to know that he's with her every step of the way, and he won't be leaving her for anything in the world. ]
Luna, I- [ He's still debating with himself about whether or not he should say what's on his mind. ] I want to hear your voice again, but what I don't want...
[ Part of him still feels like he's walking a very thin line, and saying the wrong thing could send her spiraling down even further. Now he can imagine how she must have felt when their roles were reversed. ]
I don't want you feeling like you have to do anything before you're ready. You have time, as much time as you need.
[ He's just realized that there really is no time limit for this current situation. Unlike the time crunch they were under when he was rendered almost incapacitated, he doesn't see any such deadline in front of them now. ]
If you need more time to rest before you decide on an action, you should.
[ And if Gentiana or anyone else tries to contradict that, then Atem has no problems asking them to wait. The last thing he wants is to lose Lunafreya somehow, either because she pushed herself to act before she was ready, or because the pressure she's placed on herself becomes too much. Either way, the outcome is equally undesirable.
And as for this moment right in front of them, if she can't will herself to bridge the gap between them as they once did, then he'll do it for her. He moves carefully, trying to be mindful of her and her needs, but he closes that gap between them so there's no longer anything separating them.
He can't stand that look in her eyes, but he believes he understands what she's feeling, and so he tries to be as comforting as he can, reaching for a lock of her hair first, and then moving so his hand rests lightly against the back of her head.
Perhaps if he just remains with her, she'll feel safe enough to fall asleep, or simply tired enough. He hopes that if she does, she'll manage to rest, but he knows how hard it can be to sleep when one's feelings are all turned upside down.
Still, he's going to stay right here with her. ]
Is there anything that you need? [ If so, he'll move mountains to get it, whatever it might be. ]