[ Happiness for the Oracle has always been that of conditional. Their callings take up most of their lives, and what little of it remains is all that they might have. She is certain it is a painful lesson that all who have come before her have had to learn. Atem's request merely has reminded her that what little solace she can take when she can is what will be afforded to her. There is nothing he has done wrong and nothing that he must make up to her; let alone give her. His duty is to his partner and hers is to the worlds they inhabit.
Regardless of the rolling thoughts in her mind, she follows his directions. She lays closer to him, forehead and nose pressed to his, but her gaze breaking from his. She cannot help but feel ashamed for her display. Great lengths are always taken to hide her moments of weakness. This small band of duelists and friends rely on her to be the Oracle and their friend - they need not see her at her lowest.Atem does not need to see it. He and Yugi are the ones that rely on her the most, yet she has utterly fallen to pieces within the last hour and some. That cannot continue. Even if it makes that she must bury her emotions and sort them out once they leave for Japan.
Dealing with her emotions, her past, her baggage, was not her intent at bringing them to England. There were things she wished them to see. A new place in the world to enjoy and spend the upcoming holidays without the threat of impending doom. She is aware the cultural differences, but, thought that maybe seeing how her people celebrated the festive season might help them. Especially Anzu, if she truly is to go to America after high school. Of course... there is one place in particular she wishes to take Atem. She had resolved on her own to do what she might to find information on the time that he reigned. If nothing else, context could be given, and perhaps he might find answers to the sort of king he was.
None of this, however, can be done in her current state. Which means she must recover enough to do so. If she does truly remain in England... then at the least it will be parting gifts to all of them.
Her gaze only flickers back to him at his statement of resolution. She would communicate that it is hardly necessary, but, she knows the tone in his voice. He has made his decision. Any sign of conviction needs her full support until he can stand without doubt in himself any longer. If he so wishes to speak to her ancestors - should she even need to - then it will be done.
She raises her hand and gently places it on his chest. Her heart tells her to bridge what gap remains and lay as they once had in their time in America. She knows it is what she wants, but, she cannot act upon it. Exhaustion, fear, respect of his wishes, the reason truly does not matter at the moment. She will continue to carry on as she has.
Instead, she raises her shame filled gaze back to him. Has he explained their arrangement to his partner? ]
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Regardless of the rolling thoughts in her mind, she follows his directions. She lays closer to him, forehead and nose pressed to his, but her gaze breaking from his. She cannot help but feel ashamed for her display. Great lengths are always taken to hide her moments of weakness. This small band of duelists and friends rely on her to be the Oracle and their friend - they need not see her at her lowest.Atem does not need to see it. He and Yugi are the ones that rely on her the most, yet she has utterly fallen to pieces within the last hour and some. That cannot continue. Even if it makes that she must bury her emotions and sort them out once they leave for Japan.
Dealing with her emotions, her past, her baggage, was not her intent at bringing them to England. There were things she wished them to see. A new place in the world to enjoy and spend the upcoming holidays without the threat of impending doom. She is aware the cultural differences, but, thought that maybe seeing how her people celebrated the festive season might help them. Especially Anzu, if she truly is to go to America after high school. Of course... there is one place in particular she wishes to take Atem. She had resolved on her own to do what she might to find information on the time that he reigned. If nothing else, context could be given, and perhaps he might find answers to the sort of king he was.
None of this, however, can be done in her current state. Which means she must recover enough to do so. If she does truly remain in England... then at the least it will be parting gifts to all of them.
Her gaze only flickers back to him at his statement of resolution. She would communicate that it is hardly necessary, but, she knows the tone in his voice. He has made his decision. Any sign of conviction needs her full support until he can stand without doubt in himself any longer. If he so wishes to speak to her ancestors - should she even need to - then it will be done.
She raises her hand and gently places it on his chest. Her heart tells her to bridge what gap remains and lay as they once had in their time in America. She knows it is what she wants, but, she cannot act upon it. Exhaustion, fear, respect of his wishes, the reason truly does not matter at the moment. She will continue to carry on as she has.
Instead, she raises her shame filled gaze back to him. Has he explained their arrangement to his partner? ]